112 [Critical Update]

So, after a week of deep inner searching, I've come to a decision that is quite heartbreaking for me but I believe it is a necessary decision to make. Before I get into the nitty-gritty of the details, I'd like to state that if you'd like to skip all of this, just scroll to the end.

As a kid, one of my earliest dreams, at least from what my scattered memory still retains of my childhood, was to write an epic book series and be a famous author. When I was 10, I wrote a really long, very well-made book that was essentially based on the corny early 2000s teen movie Sky High called Son of the Dragon. It had about 1000 pages in it and I spent almost two years writing it. I was so proud of it that I took it to a publisher and tried to have it published. This was when I witnessed the publisher take it and, without even flipping through it, ripping it up like one would a phonebook right in front of me before chucking it out. I've never forgotten the look on his face, it was like he expected anything by a child to be garbage regardless of what it was. Unfortunately, my computer fried that night as I tried to find it. In the end, my first and the only complete story I've ever written was lost as my computer burst into flames.

It's been more than a decade and I've never managed to finish a story since. All of my stories until now have died in the third chapter. Only the three I've left on here prove that I've exceeded that limit. Unfortunately, I just can't escape my writers block, which only grows worse the further into a story I go.

I've finally figured out the main source of my difficulty aside from that traumatic memory: stress. I'm nowhere near where I want to be in life, as one would expect for someone in their early twenties. I need to get a new job, get my drivers license and move out on my own from this government-assisted living development for those with disabilities (I have Asperger's Syndrome). It's taken me years to reach the point that I have now and I need to focus on my circumstances. Perhaps someday I will be able to return to this story, when I've reached a point where my current major stress points have shrunk.

TLDR: I've decided to drop this book for the foreseeable future. To all my readers, especially those who have been with me from the beginning, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support, regardless of how small it was. Even small comments helped my self-esteem and growth. Maybe I'll continue this story in the future but, for now, it's time for me to focus on my personal life and truly face the music as everyone must in the end.

Again, thank you everyone, and may good fortune guide your path.