1 My First Thought

'who... am... I...?'

This was my first thought.

I couldn't remember who I am or what I am

As Question about myself race through my mind did I notice that my Body was weird. I think.

I didn't know how my should look like but my Intuition says that it shouldn't be transparent.

Also, this Space looks odd. I think.

This Space looked, Gray. The ceiling was Gray and this Space was filled with grey clouds.

On second thought scratch that, I can see an outline of people and other things.

As I was seeing another existence did I feel ... something good. This Feeling feels like... 'joy'? This word Immediately appeared in my thoughts

I am not alone.

As I was feeling joy did I also have a thirst for knowledge about me, this Space and all other beings in this Space. So I tried moving to that outline.

As I was moving did I notice that the 'floor' seems to be a 'lake'.

The clouds that were an arm's length away suddenly moved to me and I subconsciously absorbed felt really good.

After I absorbed a cloud did I discover that I could think clearer and that I didn't look as blurry as before.

So top priority was to absorb these clouds and after that is to find other people.

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After a while did I meet a person.

This person looked 'old' and very blurry. She mumbles something with a tone that feels like 'longing' and she walked aimlessly.

The closer I got, the higher my expectation was until I stud before her. I try to communicate with her, but she didn't react. So I tried to touch her on her shoulder, but I faced through her which destabilized her current form.

She became cloud-like and seems to fuse with me. I could see fragments of her life and could feel her core virtues.

Her memory fragments depict a life with a lot of love and longing. Until the last fragment in which the reason for her death is depicted. Her death was very brutal. Her entire village was massacred by so-called 'Fiend Cultivators' because blood and souls can be used by 'Fiend Cultivators' to strengthen themselves. This filled me with disgust.

After I processed her life did I looked even less blurry and the emotion that I was feeling are getting stronger. I felt more whole, as a person, than before.

Shortly thereafter did I continue my journey.

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The second person I meet was also unresponsive. This Person looked young and blurry. This person wore a sword and the vibe he gave out was that of adventure and ambition.

After I fused with him did I saw his life which was less fragmented than that of the old lady.

His life was very different from the women as he had a family with a lot of ambition. So he got not a lot of love from his father because he only loved 'talented people', or his family in general. His family wanted a lot of 'talented people' which meant that these people could faster cultivate than others. In this and many other Families, they followed the 'law of the jungle' which means that children compete against each other for resources to get stronger. They also compete against other families and this competition is the reason that the young swordsman died.

I learned a few things through his life for example meditation and that I am most likely a damaged soul. And Meditation is also the only thing I can do in my soul form.

After a round of meditation did I sort out the information about his life. This time was the fusion a bit strange because I felt a bit of resistance. I need a few more test Subjets to get a theory

I walked soon after did I went on.

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I met multiple people but they were all blurry and helpless so I ended their existence.

Many were peasants. Some had good lives, but most didn't. Most peasants died because of cultivators, some Daoist Cultivators and some Fiend Cultivators. The Fiends Cultivators needed blood and souls for cultivation so that is understandable, but the Daoist cultivators just wanted to be above the peasants or to scare the masses which is just the worst.

I also met a few low-level Cultivators which were also blurry and helpless, but at least they had a bit of resistance which means that higher level Cultivators could maybe talk. This train of thought brought me hope because I could talk to someone. And it brought me dread because Cultivators kill very easily one another for benefits.

So I tried to form a sword with my soul to protect myself. This Process is which is quite hard, but after a few hundred tried did I succeed. My soul looked no longer blurry and was no longer transparent. I felt very complete. But I could still not remember who I am or where I am.

After I formed the sword did I continue my journey

...

This time did I meet another person, but this person looked very bloodthirsty with long dishevelled black hair and a blood-red Robe. My first thought was that this guy looked like a Fiend Cultivator, but I don't want to stereotype people by their looks.

As soon as I was seen by that guy did that guy smirk. This smirk looked very bloodthirsty and evil. The same look you give when you see your favourite meal and are hungry.

He said " A new lamb finally arrived before this daddy." before he sprinted towards me without a weapon and only his clenched fist ready to strike.

'Seems like the first impression was correct' did I thought smugly as I was drawing my sword.

His fist glowed a bit red which parried my sword strikes.

Since this is my first fight did I try to imitate the Cultivator that I absorbed which kinda worked and my sword was glowing with a weak blue.

After a while did I became familiar with the sword moves but this didn't help break the stalemate between me and the Fiend.

The Fiend was clumsy and a bit disoriented.

After a few rounds of fighting did I manage to wound him. Which normally would have made him bleed but because we are souls right now only made the wound blurry.

After a few more wounds did he become so blurry that he became distracted, so I cut him in half vertical and then horizontal

To seize the moment in which the fiend couldn't retaliate did I try to absorb him a quarter at a time.

This time was the fusion was very different, because the emotions of the quarter of the fiend was very overwhelming. It tried to influence me so that I become like him, so I resisted and also refined the fragmented memories.

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After the Battle with the quarter of the fiend did I meditate to purify my soul of these negative emotions from that fiend. The Fiends Soul was also not very pure, to begin with because of the drawback of Fiend Cultivation.

A short while later did I refine the other big part of the Fiend with much more speed than before.

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At this point is the Fiend as disoriented and helpless as the other souls, so I eradicated him by absorbing him.

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{This Chapter is still updating/in the works}

{Update 27.03.2022}