I am not allowed to have a pleasant death!

"hey, how did this happened...."

He heard a low voice.

" Poor kid, looks so young"

He heard another voice of old lady.' How annoying can't they just leave me alone, what's with this commotion ?'

He tried to open his eyes but he noticed that they were really heavy. Not wanting to give he forcefully opened his eyes.

What he saw left him surprise as he was surrounded by people and they all were looking down on him or should he say he was laying down on his back.

' Oh, now that I think about it didn't a truck crashed into me just a few minutes ago...' he thought with a dizzy attitude.

' Ah, I can't even feel my body below my neck...' he thought barely holding his consciousness.

' I guess my luck was worse than a devil....' he thought while remembering his past.

This world is shitty to it's core, if you don't have any talent or work your ass off you don't get a single bowl of porridge and what is worse that no one is satisfied with what they have and instead want more and more.

Kayn, a 26 year old freelancer, trader and entrepreneur with master's degree and more than 200,000 dollars of annual income. You will think that what's wrong with this shouldn't he be happy. Well, yes this amount of money is something everybody dreams of but if you heard his backstory you will also say that the fate is too cruel.

Kayn was born into a rich family who at least have more than 20 companies and more than 20 billion net worth but unlike most of the rich families, kayn's family was a former aristocrat household of the ancient British.

This family had very strict and absurd rules, which had only one meaning either you hunt yourself or get hunted by others. In such a family Kayn was a midcore.

What was real curse in this family was that his father was the most talented member of family from his generation and he had 4 siblings, him being the third son. His siblings just like his father were talented.

After noticing that he was not like his other siblings his father started to avoid him to the point where everyone started to think that his siblings are the only childrens of his side of family.

His mother was a noble housewife taken as the third and last wife of his father.

She only had kayn as her child and after noticing that her husband just didn't avoid their child but also started to avoid her, she started blaming him for her husbands lack of attention.

At a young age of 7 when he started to notice his mother's ridiculed, his siblings and their mothers mockery and his fathers ignorance towards all this he started to change.

When his siblings used to play or spend time with their friends he studied day and night. While his mother became a drunkard he started taking etiquettes lesson. He did everything and anything to satisfy his family no matter how insignificant to get their attention.

As they say the environment you grow or you are raised affects your mentality, behaviour and emotions. In kayn's case it was much worse not just because he was at the age when he needed the most support but also because from such a young age he had a better understanding of things around him.

The end result, he became cold, insensitive to the point the mockery and ridiculed he got from his families didn't even change his reactions.

He asked his father to disowned him when he grew 18 years of age, for which his father agreed not even trying to hide his happiness. It seemed like the reason why his father hadn't done this before was because his guilt towards his mother and he was cautious because he thought that kayn will publicly ridiculed him in front of the media. Kayn didn't even felt single ounce of disgust towards his father even after knowing the reason.

This not-so-ordinary personality of his got even worse. When the woman he loved in the university which he joined after leaving his family left him after two years.

The reason was quite simple. She stayed with him for two years because he had high grades and was less talkative but liked her from the depth of his heart. She left him for his brother because his brother used to think that he is not allowed to be happy--quite a stupid reason.

But the outcome of this was much worse than you could except, kayn started to be cold and ruthless and it completely changed his personality.

You can already see even though he knows that he is going to die he is as calm as a trained military commander who was ready to give his life in the battlefield.

In short, for kayn death is just a eternal sleep and if you ask him he will love to sleep, he doesn't have or need anything. Money - don't care about it, just need it to survive. Reputation - didn't give a f*uk about it since I day he was born. Fear - death might sound frightening but to someone who doesn't have concept of good/bad, love/hate it is insignificant.

That's just how kayn is living like a animal in this developed world.

' I guess this is it, I hope this is salvation ....' kayn thought with a calm manner.

' This world is too cruel, I am honestly surprised know how I survived in this world for so long.....' he thought remembering everything he can remember about his life but their was nothing except futility in his memory.

' Well, I can't hate what happened after all I am who I am because of what happened in this long life. It will mean that I hate myself..... Hate, do I even feel such thing.....' kayn thought.

He knew very well what he has become compared to others. He from childhood had a better understanding than people of his age, that's why he knew how cold and ruthless he has become but he doesn't hate that. All his pain came from this unwanted emotions, he thinks that without this emotion he was happy enough.

In the midst of siren of ambulance, in the middle of a highway surrounded by countless skyscrapers a boy in his mid twenties finally took his last breath while being surrounded by people holding their mobile phone cameras towards him as if this was the most interesting story.

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' Hmm....'

' Shouldn't I be dead or something.'

' Wait, don't tell me I have reached something like a afterlife or heaven, no maybe I must be in hell.'

' I just hope their won't be signing babies like those written in that famous religion.'

Kayn tried to open his eyes after noticing that he is still conscious, but to his shock he can't even feel his eyes let alone open it.

He was in a pretty... weird state. It was as if he is present at the same time he is not. He can't even feel his body but can still think.

" Hello kayn, it's nice to finally meet you."

Suddenly a voice full of mysteries and depth was able to hear. How does kayn knows this voice is full of mysteries and depth is because something within him was screaming to him to not offend him ..... it was weird.

' who are you ?' kayn asked completely ignoring his whole body or whatever state he was in trembling.

" hmm~, how amusing. Aren't you scared of me ?" the voice asked which caused him to literally pees his pants and run away like a dog with his tail between his legs. But that was the case of ordinary people, kayn's mind which has been forged like a small metal to turn into hardest steel was unaffected by his body and replied :

'I don't even know how you look and you expect me to fear you.' kayn said with a calm voice.

" oh, sorry for that I forgot you can't see me. Let me help you a bit~" the voice said as if a child trying to keep its composure but yet was unable to hide his excitement.

Suddenly and abruptly kayn was able to everything around him. It was uncomfortable as he doesn't have eyes or can't feel it yet he was able to sense everything like a normal per.... no, even better than that.

What kayn saw will leave anyone mesmerized and fearful at the same time. He was floating in a endless darkness surrounded by luminous small bright dots which seemed to be stars and colourful clouds, Which in astronomical term can be referred as nebula clouds or gases.

" mesmerizing, isn't it ?"

When Kayn heard the same voice which seemed to originate from the person who gave him sight to see was able to be heard he tried to look in its direction and as if he knew were to look he turned and which will leave various people to be dumbfounded or shaken to their very core.

Their was a being completely made of countless stars and galaxies with covering of some sort of white gas.

He didn't have a lower body as he seemed like a statue made only created to represent the face of a person without a hand and legs.( Such statues are usually not created to appreciate art but for showing respect or gratitude towards someone who had done a great deed.)

His face only had two shining dots except of stars and galaxies. Even a fool will understand that they are this existence eyes because of it's shape and positioning.

' Haaaaa...,I am not even allowed to have a pleasant death.'

If their was anyone present here except kayn they would be shocked. How can a insignificant being who was just a 26 years old youth can talk to himself in front of such a existence who seemed to be God or the nearest of that -- CRAZY!!!

Even the being flinched for a few seconds but it was not even noticable as the next second the being had what seemed like a pleased expression which was saying ' it was as expected.'

People might think that what kayn was doing was crazy, just not talking to himself but also showing his complete disappointment and annoyed expression which was formed because of this existence who can literally destroy his whole planet with just a flick of it's finger.

But if anyone who would have seen kayn's past would have expected something like this. A person who doesn't even care about his own life, who was thinking that he would be able to go to the eternal rest with a pleasant expression on his face. Why would this person should care about his existence being removed while his whole world would be destroyed ? He doesn't care about his own life and doesn't have anyone he wants to protect, why should he care ?

" Well, sorry for disturbing you when you were on your way to your so-called eternal rest." The being said with a tinge of mockery, this being knows that how kayn is and also wants something from him but he doesn't have to beg for it, after all the person in front of him has just completed his life at the young without experiencing what this being has experienced. Heck, he haven't even completed the normal age of death of his own race.

' So, what do you want from me....' said kayn completely ignoring his mockery with a lazy tone. Kayn had gone through countless mockery that's why this small taunt was nothing important in his imperial dictionary of mockery and bad words.

" hehe..., now we are talking. I want to make a deal with you little kayn. " the being said with small chuckle as if he was dealing with a child.

kayn was shocked for a few seconds, as what does this almighty being wants from him to the point he is even willing to make a deal instead of just forcing him to do.

' What will I get in return ?' kayn asked with a calm tone completely ignoring the thoughts he had before, as he himself wanted to know what can this being give to him.

" What if I said I can give you a second life..."