8 The Third sister

In writing a separate chapter describing my relationship with the sisters,I am really having a long conversation with myself. As a writer,I have discovered that sometimes our writing is a form of emotional release for us. When the words start flowing from somewhere deep inside us and we keep writing,sometimes at the end of each writing,when we read back,we are amazed to see the magnitude of the things we have been dragging with us along the way. Am I pleased with the way things are now with me and the sisters,not really,I know it can be better,but I am happy that I am still strong enough to stand by my decision to settle for nothing less than a relationship built on mutual trust,respect and acceptance.

This third sister is different. She actually has true compassion for others. She is gorgeous..The first time I saw her,I was struck by her beauty and her walk. She had and still has a beautiful walk,as if she is counting her steps but with an elegance to them. I suppose its a learned style of walking but she has perfected it and made it uniquely her own. I think she is a beautiful soul. Over the years ,as much as she could,she has returned my calls,and also reached out to me in response to my attempts at friendship. I feel she is predominantly a melancholic with a mix of choleric. When she displays her choleric aggressive side,she is really sticking out for the two elder sisters. Most times if she hurts me,I get the feeling she is just acting along with the interpretation she has gotten about me at that particular point from the two elder sisters.

Once we actually sat down to talk and she had asked me very personal questions and I got to explain to her my own side of the story and I think she got it and began to form a different opinion about me from the one she had from a distance but alas, this moment of bonding was short lived because the next time we both communicated,she was replying in monosyllables and did not want to tell me what was wrong. I totally understood what could had gone down, when this kind of pattern has developed over the years with someone you have been trying to establish a relationship with,you kind of are not surprised.

There is a loyalty that exist between siblings that it is difficult to convince one against the other. I assume its because they look at each other through that bond of family that has seen them all through tough times,and so even if one of them is wrong or is making a mistake,the others are quick to excuse that one or be very lenient in their interpretation of what that one did, because after all,its family.

This third sister is about four years my younger. I would have loved to have taken her as a younger one but for the above reasons,it has never happened. She is married now with kids of her own and I know that she better understands all that transpired between I and the two elder sisters, that time,she was tagging along them to hurt me,now I know she would have seen the error of her ways then.

What am I trying to say is that no one is a saint, it does take two to tangle, I am not perfect,and perhaps if they could write their own stories,they also might have a lot to say about me. But this is the story of my life and I am simply telling it to bring out that we are all humans and we all make mistakes, but there is always room for redemption.