17 The present

Do I believe in miracles?.,yes I do. have i actually seen one? no I haven't. So why do I believe in miracles?, well,because I know that God exists and he reigns and he is kind and faithful. So why has the miracle of supernatural healing I have been praying for over the years concerning my daughters health not yet happened. I know she is so much better than what I could have hoped for but I want her to be completely healed, really, I don't know. As I lay here on my bed writing this page,my heart feels so overburdened. Once again i find myself sinking back into that deep dark pit that I have pulled myself out of. I want someone to reassure me that it will be OK,that life can be how I want it to be especially as it concerns my daughters health.

Two days ago,I was called from her school guardian that she was very sick. I called her myself and she picked,and I could hear the suffering in her voice. It crushed me so much all over again .She was taken to the hospital later on and she got better,but how wonderful it would be if there were no more pain and sufferings for her in her health and she could just get on with her life.

I wish I could catch me a ride to heaven

I wish I could sail me a boat to paradise

I wish I could see this God face to face

and tell him Father, please heal our daughter.

I wish someone could tell me Gods mind

I wish I knew the purpose of this suffering

I wish I could convince myself all will be well

I wish I had power to heal.

I wish I could take away my daughters pains

I wish I could make it all right for her

I wish a miracle would just drop by

I wish God would mercifully step in.

I pray for strength and for courage

and that God will find her a love that will last

I wish my tears could make things better

I wish it could have been different.

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My daughter is suffering from sickle cell anaemia.