1 This is me

Emma's POV

Hi.My name is Emma i am 15 years old.I have three sisters,Maddie is 13 years old,Demi is 20 years old and Dallas is 24 years old...Well it is most likely that my family even forgot about me well apart from Demi when she always come's back from her tour.We always spent a night together watching movie's and all she is the best sister i could ever ask for...She know's somethings about me that the rest of my family don't know like.I have depression and i have an eating disorder she promised not to tell anyone i don't trust anyone but her.As i woke up today in the morning i got ready for school and after some time i got my bag and i went downstairs and opened the front door to leave"Where are you going?"Mom asked"If you didn't know i have school"I said"Okay then come straight home"Mom said"Why do you care?"I asked"I do care"Mom said"Yeah sure"I said and left to school and as always the day was normal classes were boring and as always there were people.People that always talk about me about being fat and ugly and i know but who cares about me no one so i went home and as i was in my bed i heard a knock on my bedroom door"Come in"I said and then the door opened and i saw Demi and i just runned up to her and hugged her and she hugged me back and kissed the top of my head"I missed you so much"I said to her"Well i miss you too so much babygirl"Demi said and when we pulled away i just looked down"Why aren't you downstairs there's dinner"Demi asked"I am grounded"I said"Why?"Demi asked and i just sat down on my bed and she sat next to me"Becouse me and Maddie had a fight becouse i was talking to her boyfriend about the new homework in my class and now i am grounded for 3 mounths that mean's that i can't leave the room i can only leave the room to go to school"I said with tears in my eye's"But you have to eat.I will talk to mom about this"Demi said and hugged me"You are the best sister i could ever ask for"I said while she was hugging me and then she left the room and then i just went on my cracked phone and i just posted a picture on instagram.And after sometime i saw some comment's and started to have tears in my eye's.

Yes kill yourself it is the best thing to do

And i just covered my ear's as i heard the voice's and i started to cry"No stop it"I shouted to the voices.

Come on you know you have to do it no one cares about you

And i just got a box under my bed and there was like a million blades and i just got one.

Come on do it you fat girl you know that you have to do it

My hands started to shake.I really didn't want to do this.

Come on no one will care if you will be gone

I just started to cut and after some time the voice's stopped and i just got a towel and i dried the cut's and after some time i saw the door opening and i saw Demi coming in"This is for you"Demi said and gave me a piece of pizza"Thx"I just smiled and looked down and i just put the pizza on my night stand and Demi sat next to me on the bed"How was tour?"I asked her and she looked at me"It was amazing but it would of been 100% more fun if you were there with me"Demi said and i just smiled"Yeah sure"I said and looked down"How's school"Demi asked me"You know as always"I said and faked a smile"What happened?"Demi asked.I shrugged my shoulder's"Come i know you're real smile"Demi said"I just miss being a normal family becouse before Maddie came we were a normal family and when Maddie came everyone started to ignore me and i think that they don't love me anymore"I said with tears and Demi just pulled me closer to her and i just put my head on her shoulder"Tomorrow i have to go to the studio do you want to come with me?"Demi asked"Are you seriouse?Why are you even asking?Of course i want to come"I said and Demi just smiled and hugged Demi and when we pulled away Demi got her bag and took a box out of it"Oh and this is for you"Demi said and gave me the box and i opened it and it was Samsung Galaxy S10 Plus"Omg"I said and i just started to cry and i just hugged Demi"Thank you so much"I said to Demi while we were hugging"No problem sis.I just thought that you would want a new phone not that cracked one"Demi said and when we pulled away i just smiled"You just made my day for coming here and for this omg"I said and whiped my tears away"So what do you say on our movie night?"Demi asked me and i smiled and nodded"Of course"I said and we layed down on the bed and i just snuggled up to Demi and we started to watch Pretty Little Lair's and after a short time i fell asleep with my head on Demi's chest.I always feel so safe with Demi and she will always make me smile.

Next morning

I woke up and i saw Demi next to me asleep and i just wanted to get up without waking her up but no she had a diffrent plan so when i got out she pulled me closer to her"I need to get changed"I said"Okay i just wanted to say morning"Demi said and let me go and i just went to my bathroom and showered and and i got changed into an outfit with long sleaves.And then after i did my hair.I did my makeup and then put it on to covered my cut and put some bracelet's on.I walked out and i saw that Demi was not in my room anymore and i just went on my phone and i just got my account for Instagram,Twitter and Tik Tok and after some time Demi came into my room"Are you ready to go?"Demi asked me and i nodded and put the phone in my bag and then i just took a deep breath and i looked at myself in the mirror and made sure that no one could see my cut's.There is only two things i keep to myself and didn't tell Demi and they are my cutting and my addiction and yes I am 15 years old and i have addiction.Then i went downstairs with Demi"Where are you going?"Mom asked me"She is coming with me to the studio"Demi said"Why?"Mom asked me"Becouse she is my sister"Demi said"No i asked your sister"Mom said while looking at me"I just want to spend some time with Demi and why do you even care where i go you don't care about me so that's why i am going?"I said and then me and Demi left and went into the car and a driver started to drive to the studio and me and Demi just talked abut some random stuff and when we were there me and Demi just sat down on the cauch and we started to listen to the music"I can see myself dancing to this thing it is amazing and with your voice it will be out of this world"I said to Demi and she just smiled"Thx"I said and then after some time Demi went into the bootf and as the music started Demi started to sing"Text on 'read', and it ain't no accident

Boy, I ain't gon' ask again now you got me in my head

Waiting by the phone at night, that's shit that I don't do

And I just can't explain what's happeningSending all these messages alone at night, on Patron at night

In the morning different story ain't that rightI don't know why you play these games

Come on now say what you wanna say

Careful when you play these games

You might find out the hard way that

Two can play

Yeah, two can play

Yeah, two can play these games

And you know it's driving me insane

Careful when you play these games

You might find out the hard way that

Two can play

Yeah, two can play

Yeah, two can play, yeah two can play yeahI date men, but you're acting like a little boy

And no, I ain't your little toy

Honey, I don't need new friends

Figure out just what you want, and what the hell you're waiting on

Before you hit my phone againSending all these messages alone at night, on Patron at night"Now out of nowhere my head started to move to the beat"In the morning different story, ain't that right?I don't know why you play these games

Come on now say what you wanna say

Careful when you play these games

You might find out the hard way that

Two can play

Yeah, two can play

Yeah, two can play these games

And you know it's driving me insane

Careful when you play these games

You might find out the hard way that

Two can play

Yeah, two can play

Yeah, two can play, yeah two can play yeahNow, I know you're used to winning

And I'm tired of keeping score

But if you're ready to quit it, maybe I can be yoursI don't know why you play these games

Come on now say what you wanna say

Careful when you play these games

You might find out the hard way that

Two can play

Yeah, two can play

Yeah, two can play these games

And you know it's driving me insane

Careful when you play these games

You might find out the hard way that

Two can play

Yeah, two can play

Yeah, two can play, yeah two can play yeah"And after when it finished the music stopped"Okay so what do you think?"The man asked Demi"I like it what do you think Emy"Demi asked me"It is amazing i want to dance so much to this song"I said and Demi just smiled"Okay let's run it again to make it perfect"Demi said and they started again and then Demi did other two songs one was slower and the other was my fav one and the after Demi done the singing she left the booft and sat on the cauch next to me and we listened to the song's"The last one is my fav"I said when we fisnhed listening to the songs"What is it gonna be called?"I asked Demi"Sorry Not sorry"Demi said and i just smiled and nodded and after some time we went to starbucks and we just got somethings to drink and we were just talked and after some time we went home and i wanted to go straight to my room but Demi took my arm and i just stopped and looked at her"Come"Demi said and i went downstairs and went to the living room and i saw mom and she looked mad so i just looked down at my hands"Why aren't you in your room?"Mom asked"Mom she is your daughter.She need's food and she need's a family that cares and love's her"Demi said and then i just looked at my feet"I am just gonna go upstairs"I said went upstairs and i just sat on my bed and started to cry

Come on do it you know that no one love's you

"No Demi love's me"I said to myself and just covered my ear with my hand's"Go away"I said

She doesn't love you she is lying to you.We are trying to help you

And that got into my head she might be lying and i got out one of my blades and i went to my bathroom and started to cut

Yes good girl

And after when i was done i just got a towel and dried the cut's and put on a long sleaved shirt and i just went on my bed and started to look at my instargram and i heard shouting downstairs"We are family we suppose to treat eachother equally and Emma is your daughter and you could think of other way to ground her not for her to stay in her room for 3 mouths are you crazy.Do you want her to die?"As Demi shouted that i just had tears in my eye's"She need's food,Family that will be here for her,Support her and right now i see that i am the only person here for her in this family but when i am on tour she has no one.You guys are such bad parents"I heard Demi shouting and after some time i heard the front door opening and then after like an hour i heard a knock"Come in"I said and i saw Dallas"Hi can i come in"Dallas asked me and i just layed on my bed and nodded and i was just looking at my leg's and Dallas sat on the front of the bed infront of me"What do you want?"I asked her"I came here to tell you that i am sorry for treating you like i did.It wasn't nice and i am sorry that i wasn't there for you"Dallas said to me"Everyone was not there for me well expect Demi but when she was gone on tour.I had none"I said with tears and then Dallas just stood up and sat next to me"I am really sorry for everything i will be here for you now but first if you are not mad at me and accept my apologie"Dallas said and i just hugged her and when we pulled away i started to play with the necklace that Demi gave me"What if Demi is lying to me and doesn't love or care about me"I asked"She does love you really much.She loves you the most in this family"Dallas said while we hugged"If you have anything and Demi is not here then i will always be here for you"Dallas said"Thx i love you"I said"Aww i love you too"Dallas said and hugged me again and then i heard the door opening and i saw Demi coming in"Emma,mom wants you downstair's"Demi said and i just looked at her and nodded and then i got off the bed and i went downstairs followed by Dallas and Demi and when i went into the living room"Emma you are still grounded you can leave your room but you can't leave the house with out someone or without my promission"Mom said and i just nodded and looked at my feet"Am i a little baby that i have to be looked at on everywhere i go?I am older the Maddie and she can go wherever she want's that not fair you know"I said"Do you guys even know where she is"I asked them and they didn't reply"So you don't care where she goes and you care where i go and she is younger then me wow this is an amazing family"I said with tears and i don't know why i started to cry i just runned upstairs to my room and layed down on my bed and put my face into my pillow and then i looked up at the pictures they were of me and some where of me and Demi on her concerts i just love the concerts and when i can come there with her becouse then i can spend more time with her.

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