1 F*ck Life!
F*ck it f*uck it f*uck it! Why does my life always have to be this way? All because of some stupid power I have. I can't even have a real life because of this power. I wish I can just die! People won't care anyway. My mother doesn't even know that I have powers and I have to keep it from her. Even if I tell her she will just mock me, but who knows what her reaction will be?
I can't even like a boy. I have a crush but I don't think he'll like a girl like me because I'm so "cold" towards other people. I don't even have any friends. I feel like a lone wolf. A wolf without someone looking out for me. I mean, my mom is everything to me and she cares about me. But every time she makes a joke or something I want to laugh so bad but I can't. Because laughing is like smiling. Smiling is for happy emotions and I can't ever be happy.
A smile is a smile that appears, but later on fade when the person doesn't no. But you see, I have people who watch me known as the " The Fantastic Court". For short it's T.F.C. To be honest, I don't know what kind of name that is and would like to know the person who made the name, but anyways, they watch me so when I smile, they have some kind of remote linked to people and me as well, and when they see me smile, they press the button and a life is taken away. Even my mother.
I'm always being bullied in school because of this stupid power. I do good with my grades and stuff but I can't keep pretending that every things okay to my mother. She can see right through me so I find it hard.
If you want to know more about my crazy life, please come on the journey with me. Also, there's this guy called " Wizard". I heard that he could tell me how to make my powers go away to be a normal person and to shake T.F.C. for a while. I know that I can't get rid of this power but this power is always with me. If I go see the Wizard I can at least make it go away for this summer. Summer is the best season to smile. And I can't keep bringing people down by not smiling. I can't keep letting my mother down either. She really feels bad for me not having friends. But I don't really want friends because of this condition. I don't want to hurt them. I mean, there is a possibility that I can be nice without smiling but I have no idea how to do that.
