8 The ghost called 'Past'

"Haaaa!! Explosion"

"Yare yare, now we can't have that here, can we?" Saying this I removed my blindfold and the cursed energy started to flow rampantly. 

"Domain Expansion: Infinite void"

The space around us changed and it appeared as if one was floating on a boundless empty void. There are no visible boundaries or landmarks, giving the impression of being lost in an infinite expanse of nothingness.

Shizu was in front of me, her expression dumbfounded, the flame she summoned just disappeared like it was never there.

"W-what? where am I?" A voice came from my left. Eren was there startled.

"And here I thought I mastered this." I muttered softly.

"S-shiro san? W-where are we? And what happened to your eyes?"

"Hello Eren-chan.." I waved at her smiling.

"H-huh? Hi?"

"Wait outside for me a bit, kay?"

I snapped my fingers and she disappeared. I turned my head toward Shizu who was still struggling to move. I created a barrier just in case her mind gets affected by infinity.

"Now what should I do with you?"

My eyes changed from silver to red, a bright glint appeared in my eye along with a hexagon with different runes of it. 

'The demonic eyes of destruction, but it looks like it got mutated?'

"I don't care whoever you are, get that girl back or else death will be a sweet dream compared to what I'll do to you." I warned in a tone, neither too loud nor too soft.

But looks like it worked. The faint red aura around her disappeared and she returned to her original self.

*cough* *cough*

"W-what h-happened?" 

Hmm...Looks like she doesn't remember what happened. I kept looking at her amused at all the things that were happening.

Somehow...my heart feels excited...like a kid who found a new toy to play with...

Clarity seemed to return to shizu's eye, she suddenly bowed down

"ahh...it seems I went out of control again. Please forgive me". She still didn't raise her head up. Her both hands were clasped tightly, blood was dripping from her palm.

"So, what was all that or should I ask who was that?" I flashed a soft smile.

A shocked appeared on her face but it was quickly gone.

"A powerful fire spirit, Ifrit. He was forced to possess me by demon lord Leon Cromwell." She closed her eyes for a moment then...

"Say, shiro-san?"

"Hmm..?"

"You can destroy a soul directly right, I saw you doing that to ifrit before..."

'Why is she asking me this?' I was confused. The look on her face was the same that I once had in the past. The look of someone who just wants to leave everything behind and disappear into nothingness, no more no less.

'Why? Why do you have that look shizu?' Anger, I was feeling angry. Never in my life did I thought that I would get angry for someone I don't even know properly. But I didn't show it on my face. I had the same neutral expression on my face, but maybe only gods knew how I was feeling inside.

"Yes, I can do that." I replied.

"C-can you please destroy my soul. If possible I don't want to r-reincarnate again." Her eyes started to moisten. I could see that see was holding back her tears.

'Again? So my guess was right? She's from Japan huh..."

"I wanted to confront the person who placed this curse on me before I pass away, b-but I don't think I can h-hold on anymore. I don't want to live as a demon. I want y-you to do it in my instead! and please! Please free me from this curse! " 

She couldn't hold back anymore. Tears started pouring like water from her eyes, her whole body was shaking. I disappeared from where I was standing and hugged her tightly. I could feel her body quivering in my arms, She clutched my shirt tightly. I stroked her hair slowly, her fist loosened but she still didn't leave my shirt.

"You know, I have a better plan. How about about we face him together, Hmm?" 

"I can't!! I can't do this anymore!! The scenes where I murdered the innocent villages and children repeats like a nightmare everyday. Every time I fall asleep, the expression of fear and loss on the faces of the victims, their cries and pleas for help, it feels like someone is pulling my heart right out my throat..."

She was crying her heart out on my chest, her tears soaked my shirt and I could feel the wetness spread across. But some useless shirt was the last thing I could care about right now. Her every word reminded me of my own actions that was beginning to fade away from my memories, like someone stabbed my heart with thousand blades and I felt every one of it. 

But I kept that aside, I need to save someone else now, I'll take care of my feelings later...

I manage to hide my emotions deep inside, hoping that it won't surface now. I spoke in a soft voice...

"I won't say that I understand how you feel. It would be pure hypocrite of me to say that. Only you'll know how you feel and no one else can understand that. But I can show you memories of a certain someone who suffered similar fate as that of yours, but he managed to move on. Want to see it?" I asked her.

I did not get any response but I could feel a timid nod on my chest. I pointed my index finger forward, a red light glowed on it. I held her face with my another hand, and touched her forehead with my index finger.

'This might break her, but this is the only way I can think of currently.'

Shizu's consciousness faded away, she saw my memories from when the organization took me in, the pain, the torture I faced, the way they forced me to murder the entire family because of one person, the little girl who used to run around me calling me 'brother' and the guilt I felt when I remembered that I was the one who murdered her family.

"T-that was you r-right? H-how?" She asked looking at my face.

"Mhm. I just managed to convince myself that someone needs me. I trapped myself in an illusion and moved on...and I guess it worked out somehow....." I replied with a wry smile.

"B-but I don't have anyone who needs me *hick*, My b-both students left me, h-hinata left me and Y-yuki doesn't need me *hick*".

'Well, at least she isn't crying anymore.'

"Hmm...is that so? Then how about taking me as your student?"

"W-what are you talking about? you are so strong already, What will I even teach you? Y-you are probably even stronger than hinata."

'Ughh. I am not good at this shit. Woman I am the younger one here you know?'

"You know, strength and powers aren't the only thing you can teach. Your experience, knowledge about various things and most importantly humility so that one doesn't become arrogant. And I am way toooo strong, so I need someone to make sure that I don't become arrogant right?"

"Mhm." I could feel her grasp tighten around me.

"So take care of me, kay? Sensei~"

"Mhm."

"So, no more killing yourself right?"

"R-right."

i tried to lift her face but she further buried herself into my chest.

"L-let me stay like this." 

"Sure~"

"I-idiot!"

I just sat there and put her in my lap, slowly stroking her hair. After a few minutes I could feel her breathing becoming louder.

"Ara?, You slept? "

I didn't get any reply.

*sigh*

'FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK that was cringe dammit. Those morons taught me how to act but they didn't tell me that saving a bloody life was harder than killing it.'

I softly removed her hand from my back and carried her. I canceled the domain and appeared inside the tent. Eren, Cabal and Gido were sitting there anxiously.

'Looks like Eren told them about the domain or something.'

They were surprised to see me appear out of nowhere.

"Shi-"

"Shh~. Later"

Eren tried to talk to me but I silenced her. She gave me a nod and I went outside with Shizu in my arms, searching for a open space.

'Egil Grone Angdroa'

A small wooden cabin was created out of thin air along with a bed, comfortable looking mattress, and a quilt. I laid her on the bed and covered her.

My eyes changed into bright red and hexagon with strange ruins appeared. I searched for that spirit, ifrit and destroyed it. 

'Hmm. That's good'. I thought seeing that nothing happened to her.

'Lebaido'

I healed all her injuries if there we any left just in case and covered the cabin with a soundproof barrier and casted an illusion barrier so no one would enter. I looked toward her with a soft smile..

'Rest for a while. You deserve it'

'Damn I wish someone could comfort me saying I did a good job or something...the fuck am I even thinking?'

*sigh*

Whatever...

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(A/N: Why does it feel like I changed a mature woman into a kid....

Anyways, did I succeed?

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