1 Bada

I pour the water that I had in a bucket over his head. The shocked and upset look on his face is priceless. He just stands there not understanding what just happened. He has always been slow but I like this about him.

It takes a few minutes before realization sets in. His beautiful ocean blue eyes shine with confusion, surprise, and fear.

When I see the fear in his eyes my heart feels numb. I've been gone for years trying to get over him. I ran off to move on. I slept around and did drugs and all of it to move on.

I came back last year to visit my mother for a few days. When I was leaving I saw him force himself to throw up. He was crying his eyes out.

I felt murderous intent rush through my body. Who had made him force himself to throw up? Who was the soon-to-be-dead person? I already had a good guess. After that I sobered up. I quit all drugs and I told my father I'd be coming back one year from then.

And I did. However, I used to bully him senseless. Everyone knew why I did it. All except for him.

I mean,I was told that when a boy is mean to you he likes you. He was so obsessed with my brother that he never even saw me. He ignored me as if I never existed.

So I made a vow. I'd make this cute clueless idiot mine. I'd get his attention the only way I knew how. Which was by hurting him in any way. It didn't mean I enjoyed it. It hurt when I hurt him.

But what else could I do?

I wanted him so badly I was ready to end it all for him. I still am.

I walk up to his drenched form. Tears are rolling down his face. My heart restricts at the sight. I'm going to do all this right from now on.

"It's good to be back" I say as I pass him.

This time,I will make him mine.

By any means necessary.