1 Ally

So many colors.

The room is so bright, so big.

Yelling... someone's yelling. No, two people are yelling.

"Kero?"

I'm on the floor, my hands are so small.

"Kero?"

Im crawling closer to the noise, a bottle breaks when it hits the floor.

"Kero!"

I sit up quickly, gasping for the air that's being taken away from my lungs. I look around the room, checking my surroundings to make sure im really back to reality. I look down at my hands, no longer small and chubby. I'm on a sofa, and Ally still sits in a chair across from me. I'm still in her living room. I'm still seventeen. No more yelling or bright colors or big rooms. I'm no longer an infant.

"God, Kero you're choking on your own breath, calm down!"

"Well sorry I don't like trying to grasp a memory i've been running away from!" I snap. I immediately feel terrible. I can't take this out on her. Not Ally, after everything she's done for me.

"You're doing it again." Ally says crossing her arms. She somehow manages to keep a sweet smile on her face, showing me she's not bothered by my temper, but trying to teach me to keep my cool.

I take a deep breath and close my eyes, bringing my hands to my face. My head begins to ache. My hands are sweating and shaky. And god damn i want some ice cream..

"Look.. i'm sorry I yelled at you. This is just stressful and you don't help by telling me to calm down like it's supposed to be easy." Damn it! Why can't I get rid of my attitude?

Ally looks down, and she takes in a deep breath. She closes her eyes for a few seconds and I start to wonder if she is okay.

"I'm sorry I do that. I'm not exactly a professional at doing.." She gestures her arms around the room, "well, this." she says looking up at me.

"It's not your fault. I just can't afford real therapy."

"Yeah i know you've said this about four times now." Ally says standing up. She stretches and puffs out air.

"Hey," she says a smile spreading slowly, "guess what i'm about to get."

"On my nerves?"

I smile.

"No, really." she rolls her eyes.

"Hm.. ice cream?" I sit up straighter at the thought, ready to rush to the kitchen and get a boul.

"Mm, no... I was gonna say pizza but that works too." Ally chuckles.

Cute.

"Actually let's go to get some pizza, and can we bring some friends? How about Neco and Alex?" they should cheer me up. But ice cream sure would help too.

"Sure Kerry." Ally nudges me with her elbow and heads to the door. "Come on, let's pick them up by surprise, i like bothering them like that."

"Okay first of all," i say pushing myself up from the couch, "I told you to never call me that again after the seventh time you have, and second of all, we don't know if they're home, doofus."

I walk towards the door and she's already stepping out, not even putting shoes on. Geez how hungry is she?

"When have they not been home instead of in their rooms sleeping or being pissed off?" she looks down realizing she's in her socks and makes a "tsh" noise then walks back inside shoving on random shoes.

"Yeah nevermind." I say holding the door for her.

We walk to the car and I get in the passenger seat. Ally starts the car and turns her head. She looks me in the eye, and smiles. Her eyes are like the earth seen from space, blotches of green and blue, glints of grey and orange/brown. Absolutely beautiful. I catch myself blushing and break our gaze. I can't do this. She's my best friend and I don't want to ruin that. I can't change what is already enough for Ally and I or else it could get all weird and awkward.

She's been my best friend since we were little kids, nine or ten to be precise. And she was always my escape from home to calm my nerves and take a load off.  She's everything I need already...why do I want more?

We ride in silence to Alex and Neco's and I can't stand the awkwardness so I turn the radio on full blast. Ally laughs and starts bobbing her head like the goof she is and flips her hair crazily. I hold back a smile and look out the window. She's so cute. No. I can't think like that. I can't help myself. She's so beautiful... her hair is Auburn and almost like honey in the sunset... and her skin- oh her skin is Carmel tan and so soft. I need to stop.

"You okay?" Ally asks giving me a soft smile. Damn it.

"What? Yeah, yeah I'm fine." I say with a reassuring smile, "Just thinking that's all."

"About..?" She says elbowing me.

"..um...you I guess.."

She looks at me then, her eyebrows rising and a smirk appears on her face.

"You guess?" She says in a playful but nervous tone.

Great. She caught on. Good job Kero!

"I mean no, I'm thinking about every single detail I see on the window. When was the last time you washed this car? Oh wait you're broke never mind.." bringing my sense of humor in this probably just revealed it all.

"Psh, shut up you were thinking about me." Ally says with a giggle. A nervous giggle.

"Hm I think we're almost there." I say hiding my smile. Bad idea. I'm saying all the wrong things. What's wrong with me?

"Do you really want me to do this now?" Ally says seriously but wears a smiling face.

Oh no.

"Do what?" I say confused.

I'm gonna explode.

"Something."

Shit.

"For my sake what Ally?"

She looks at me again but her face is serious, looks back at the road, and slows down but not to a place we need to turn. Oh god.

"What are you doing?"

She pulls to the side of the road and unbuckles.

Oh god, oh god, oh god.

"Ally?"

She opens her door and looks back at me with a small smile.

Aw.

"Come on." She says quietly.

I cooperate and unbuckle while opening my door. What is she doing? I step out and see that we're still on an empty road, no cars or any sight of animals or walking people. It's very quiet.  I'm vulnerable, she's vulnerable, we both could do anything.

"So..?" I ask completely helpless. This is it. This is how it ends.

"So." She says back in a playful voice. A strand of hair blows in her face from the gentle breeze. She steps forward and meets my eyes. For a long moment we stand there, doing nothing, making no noise, not breathing. She takes another step without breaking our gaze. Another step, and she's under my nose, her lips just about brushing against mine. I'm trying not to grab her face and kiss her. It's so hard. My heart. Is. Dying.

"Hi." She says looking up at me.

We are so close. My heart is starting to race, my legs are going numb, and my hands are tingling at the thought of touching her skin. She's so vulnerable this close. It would be so easy to kiss her. So easy.

"Hi.." I say back, feeling out of breath. We don't move.

The next thing I know my hands are on her face, and my lips are pressed against hers. Her sweetness and warmth filling my whole body. Our bodies press together like magnets, her hands are in my hair, my hands move to her neck, then to her hips, and I press her against me more than she already is. During all of this a burst of energy comes from my heart and spreads through my whole body. I press against her with this energy, put all of this energy into this kiss, and feel the connection not only of our lips, but something more. I pull away and look into her eyes. She tastes like honey and happiness and everything wonderful.

"Feel better?" She asks. She looks flushed, and I'm sure she felt as much as I did.

I pull her closer again and nudge my face in her neck. Her warmth is comforting and she smells so good.

"Yes." I murmur, "better than ever." And it's true. I couldn't imagine a better feeling than right now. How could all of this be expressed in the contact of lips? Simply just skin?

I feel like nothing bad could ever happen. Safe.