14 Chapter 14 Mia

When Jeon and I started that walk. I was feeling pretty nervous like I usually was whenever I was around him, but I eventually started to feel at ease as the day progressed and before long, we were laughing and joking around like we had known each other for a very long time.

It was surprising to see Jeon lighten up and make easy jokes when he was always the reserved and quiet one in all the times that we had met up in the past. But it's not like I was complaining about it. Infact, I was really happy with the way the day turned out that I couldn't stop smiling and laughing at every little thing he said to me.

As we walked through various stalls with different antiques on display for tourists, I found myself quietly wondering how it would feel like if I were to hold his hand while we walked. Or maybe run my hands through his messy hair that only made him look much more handsome. His lovely muscline scent did nothing for me except intensify that want to touch him even more. I had to take a whole lot of will power just to hold myself back.

By lunch time, Jeon suggested that we eat at one of the most famous seaside restaurants that was known for it's super expensive but delicious foods. I had always wanted to eat from there, but the place was way too expensive for my budget and so I ended up planning to go rather than actually going. That's why Jeon's suggestion got me all excited like a little girl on her first day at the zoo.

Unfortunately for me however, we found the place super filled up by the time we got there. I was beyond disappointed of course, though I tried to maintain a straight face.

"Wait here for a minute" Jeon told me and went off to see the restaurant owner. It took less than ten minutes and a table was prepared for us at the far end of the restaurant with a perfect view of the ocean. As it turned out, Jeon was a far more connected businessman than I first thought.

We chatted away whilst we chunked on a wide range of foods that he kept stuffing in my mouth until it was too full for me to chew properly. I complained of course, but Jeon only laughed at my discomfort. Telling me that it was the only way for anyone to enjoy Korean food.

After our meal, we took a bus to Nohyeongdon where Jeon's favorite jazz band were performing for the night. I had never seen a jazz performance in my whole life before and I can't say I knew anything about jazz to begin with. So it was safe to say, I really had no idea what to expect from such an experience. But I was still just as excited as he was about it, probably because he was the one taking me there.

The sun had set by the time we got there and a few stars had snuggled their way into what promised to be a lovely night sky. I couldn't believe that time had laterally dissolved into nothingness and it seemed only a moment ago that he came to get me that morning.

The inside of the venue was like the most spacious coffee shop ever and it was beautifully decorated with twinkling lights and pretty flowers. Jeon lead me to one of the front tables with a clear view of the show. We settled down comfortably and ordered our beverages and snacks.

I really wasn't much of a jazz person as I mentioned earlier, but I would admit that I really enjoyed every piece that was performed there that night. Though it was possible that it wasn't so much the music but the company that had me smiling throughout every performance by the band.

After a few songs, a number of couples took to the stage to dance to some lovely slow pieces. I couldn't help but feel a little envious at how lovely they looked as they moved to the music with full smiles on their faces. Clearly they were truly enjoying each other's company.

"May I have this dance?" Jeon stood up from his seat and offered me his hand. I shyly took it and he led me to the center of the dance floor. I don't know why, but I suddenly got all nervous and hesitant after seeing so many other couples join us there.

Jeon moved me closer to him as a form of encouragement and all my fears were forgotten the moment we moved smoothly to the music. I giggled like a school girl when he suddenly spun me around and held me closer when I landed on his chest. I looked up into his eyes and he smiled back at me and before I could think to stop myself, my lips found their way to his in a slow soft kiss.

It felt magical to feel the softness of his lips against mine and without a second thought, I closed my eyes and deepened the kiss in an effort to feel more of him. The spell broke almost instantly however, when Jeon pulled away from me. The shock in his eyes was all it took to shutter my heart into pieces.

"Am so sorry I didn't mean to do that please forgive me" I stammered for an apology. The total humiliation I felt from the rejection, was overwhelming enough to have me stuttering like an idiot.

I didn't wait for his reply and started walking away from the dance floor as quickly as possible. Jeon followed right behind me. Telling me something, pleading with me I think, but I was too humiliated to even register what it was he was saying to me. I got my purse from our table and ran out of the building whilst ignoring all his persistent pleas.

I took the first taxi I saw out front and cried the whole way home.

After I got inside the house, I went straight to bed and sobbed some more in utter hopelessness of the possibility of never seeing the man I had come to love so much, all because he could never feel the same way about me. The very thought of that kiss haunted me with regret, turning it into something shameful instead of a beautiful memory it was meant to be.

In the midst of my sobs, Bona came over and wrapped me in a tight hug. "Shhhh my sweet please don't cry. Whatever it is, it will work itself out in the morning. You will see" she tried comforting me.

"No Bona, it won't. He doesn't love me but I made a fool of myself by kissing him even though I know that well enough. Am so humiliated and it just hurts too much"

"I assume we are talking about Jeon then" Bona said as she held me even closer and all I did was cry and cry some more.

My friend stayed with me until I was done crying and fell into troubled sleep.

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