I'm not strong enough

Ok, I know that eventually, I would have to meet him but I didn't expect it to be this soon.

I thought I had time for this but now I don't even have the time to calm my over fast-beating heart.

Is it running a marathon

Olivia kissed him passionately but Lukas was looking at me.

I know what he wanted.

He wanted to see me crumble and break into little pieces.

But hell no, I am never going to give him that satisfaction. I kept a straight face.

After Olivia completed her business, in kissing my ex. I faced Lukas and said with fake warmth "Pleased to meet you, Mr. Barron"

I turned to the person who just kissed my ex "Olivia I have completed signing the papers. Now I would like to know your taste in fashion. It would be easy to co-operate with you if I know about your likings."

"Sure Sana. Since I am going to stay here from now on" She looked at Lukas "I would like to change my bedroom wallpaper and design"

"Sure, where shall we meet and discuss about it"

"Tomorrow, at cafe Kaffeine, at 4 pm"

"Sure. If u excuse me now, I have an errand to run" I put on my best fake smile and looked at both of them "It was a pleasure to meet you both"

"Same Sana"

Olivia answered with her dazzling smile. Lukas was staring expressionless at me.

Without another word, before I would break into pieces, I left the room without looking at him or her.

I left the room and half ran to my car. I need to get out of here as soon as possible.

How can this happen?

How come I be not strong enough to stand in front of him?

Why is this happening to me?

As I drove passed the streets tears filled my eyes. I parked my car on the side road.

Just then Katherine called "Hey girl, what should I make for dinner, Ginger Pork, and Cabbage Stir-Fry or Pasta and ...Hey, are u crying? Where are you, what happened, are you hurt? Did you....."

"I am fine Katy, can we just hit at the club today, if your cool with it"

"Ya sure, are you okay"

"The truth is physically I am fine but mentally I am falling apart. Meet me at our regular club" with that I disconnected the call.

Why is this really happening to me?

*****

LUKAS POV:

I saw her today.

After 3 years I saw her again.

She has changed a lot. She looked even more matured than before.

Even her character has changed, she is bolder and stronger than before, I could tell that when Olivia kissed me or better sucked her mouth on me.

But why now. Everything is going perfectly, well almost perfectly then why is she back in my life now.

I should stay away from her but am I strong enough to do that again. Can I ignore her when she's just within my arms reach?