1 Mixed Emotions

Have you ever felt anxious during holidays?

The kind of anxiety where you wanted to know if the person or people you thought of will even greet you on the day itself? The questions that kept popping in your head, butterflies in your stomach and your heart just seemed to be restless.

I guess, almost everyone had an experience like this maybe before or maybe right now, and let me tell you, it's never easy especially when the countdown begins.

By the time the clock striked 12 midnight and you didn't receive any, you then make excuses until the day ends.

Not all are lucky to receive the messages that they want, but believe me, you do not need to feel bad at all, for not receiving any messages means an answer too.

So, now you maybe asking me if that would mean you're still lucky despite not having any messages from the people you yearned for, and my answer is YES.

Why?

Because you now know your place. You have that clear picture of where you are in his/her life. People who considers you as one of their priorities, will always make sure to be present in almost all major life occassions, be it through simple messages or gifts.

People make time for their priorities, and excuses of being busy at work or whatever is not really an excuse. Making ones presence known on special occasion or celebration is effort.

So cheer up! In this life, we'll meet a lot of different people from different walks of life and it doesn't mean that everyone should love us nor we should be the same. What matters is that we make time for those we want to stay.

Remember, 2020 gave us a glimpse of whose real, whose using you and whose going to leave you.

In a world where everyone seemed to be a friend, remind yourself that real ones aren't easy.

In times when you felt that people stayed because of love, remind yourself if they really stayed out of love or out of pity or even worse, stayed for not being able to fend off themselves alone.