4 Concert Night

We rested for a couple of days and soon came concert day. We all, including our manager and driver, piled in one van. Our staff; makeup, hair, clothes, accessories and other equipment piled in the van behind us. We arrived at Madison Square Garden in a couple of hours and were all amazed.

Unfortunately, we didn't have much time to gawk, we could already hear people waiting at the entrance. Though we had plenty of time it felt like we were hustling to get not only ourselves but everything else ready. When the clock turned to exactly 7:45 we started to hear the arena get louder and louder by the minute. I peeked out from the side of the stage and watched as thousands of fans started to pile in and take every single seat available.

We all wore matching outfits, same light blue bombers, same black t-shirts, different kinds of black leather jeans and different kinds of black leather shoes. I could hear our music videos playing to entertain the fans while we got ready for our first performance. We got our mics on and earpieces in and got on stage behind the curtain and before getting in our dance positions Jimin came to each and everyone of us to give us a hug and bid us good luck. When he came to me he hugged me and whispered something in my ear, but I couldn't make it out. He gave a sly smile and went to his spot on the other side of the stage and I was left confused and annoyed that I had no idea what the hell he had said.

It went quiet, the lights dimmed and the curtains slowly went up, and as soon as the music went on the crowd went wild, the lights got brighter again, the colors changing from pink to purple to blue and so on. We began our performance. Starting with our song, Not Today. After that we performed three other songs, Am I Wrong, Silver Spoon, and Dope. After those came our introductions, where when it turned quiet, a fan yelled out during Jimin's turn, "I love you Jiminie!!" In which Jimin's reply was, "I love you too!" with a big shy smile. After our introductions came another vcr intermission, I was getting ready for my solo performance which came after. I went over to Jimin after getting my stuff on.

"Hyung, what is it you were trying to tell me?" I asked a little agitated.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Jimin replied in a sly annoying manner.

"Just cut the bullshit and tell me," I said angrily.

"Sounds like they're calling you, it's your time, break a leg. Good luck little bro," said Jimin smugly.

I glared at him and got on stage and once the music came on fans started screaming again and I did my performance. I sang and danced my heart out. After my performance it was Jimin's turn. The lights changed to a reddish pink color and fog filled the stage. Jimin, with his low satin v neck and his sparkling jacket got on stage and performed. When he finished another vcr intermission came. This went on for the rest of the night. It was either all seven of us performing or one of us doing a solo stage.

At one point, actually when we were finally done which was at around 11:30 pm, we were changing to our regular clothes, one of the members came up to me and I Just couldn't take it anymore and snapped. I yelled at him, so he backed away and went back with the other members. I haven't killed for almost a goddamn week, I was incredibly annoyed and was to the point where I could've broke code and killed a random person on the street. When we got back to the hotel we went to our rooms and I sat on my bed in silence and thought of the only thing I couldn't help but think about, killing. I came back to reality when Jimin knocked at the door, demanding me to let him in because he had to talk to me about something that couldn't wait till the morning. I got up and opened the door to let him in.

"Hyung, What do you want?"

"I saw how you were acting earlier tonight. You can't just bottle it up, you have to tell someone," he said worried.

"There's no one to tell who will understand," I rebutted.

"Kookie, you have me. You know full well I understand," he replied.

"Fine, I guess. I haven't killed anyone in almost a week. You have no idea how many times I thought about killing a random person on the street. At one point I thought about killing Jin hyung because he keeps telling us his terrible dad jokes. But I know you taught me to only kill people who deserve it. People who annoy me, I have to deal with, because of you I can't break code and kill someone based off of whether they annoy me or because they're just at the wrong place at the wrong time. At times I hate you for that but I also love you for that." I looked over at Jimin who was now fast asleep on the sofa he was sitting on. "Great, he came in here to lecture me and ended up falling asleep." I shook my head.

I grabbed a blanket from the bed and placed it over him and then a pillow and for a moment almost smothered him with it but then placed it under his head. I changed and got in my bed and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I closed my eyes and everything went completely dark, except for the visions in my head. Colors of crimson blanketed my thoughts. Blood, blood and more blood. I wanted to feel how the warm crimson liquid felt on my hands, how it felt to feel a person's life leave their bodies at my own fingertips. I woke up sweating. My hair and face was dripping with sweat and I was shivering. I didn't know what was happening to me. I was so confused. What was happening to me? I got out of bed and went over to Jimin.

"Hyung? P-Please w-wake up," I stuttered as I shook him vigorously to wake him up.

Jimin opened his eyes. He blinked a few times and looked up at me. He saw how disturbed and terrified I looked.

"Jungkook? What's wrong? Are you okay?" He sat up and grabbed my arm. "Oh my god, Kookie you're so clammy and you're shivering. What the hell is wrong?"

"I-I-I don't k-know." I stammered.

"I-" the next thing I knew everything went black again. I woke up the next morning in my bed, Jimin was beside me, clinging onto me as if his life depended on it. I tried to carefully move his arm from my waist but he opened his eyes.

"How are you feeling today Jungkook?" He asked.

"I think I'm feeling better then I was last night," I replied.

"That's good, you should just rest for now," he suggested.

"Hyung, I just don't understand what's happening to me." I said as I hung my head.

"To be honest I'm not sure either, but we'll push through, I'm sure of it," he replied with a hint of optimism and a small unsure smile.