25 Chapter 22

Everyone is settled down in the cafeteria but there is no sign of Jimin but Jeongguk is used to it by now. He has realized that Jimin won't be there where he is present. Sure his heart hurts like hell but there is nothing he can do now to get the older back can he? He wants to apologize but then what would he say? Sorry? I was being drugged? I was not in control? And you were looking so damn sexy that I pounced on you? Argh!! A word cannot justify his actions from that night. Even if he was being drugged he should have kept himself in control. How could he just dive into the heat of the moment and ruin his precious hyung like that? What Jimin is doing now is totally understandable. Who would want to be with someone like him? Someone who has done a sin a crime of falling in love with his own brother. Not only Jimin but now he himself despises himself too. He deserves everything what Jimin is doing to him. But he cannot control that need in him to be near the latter. To hold him to kiss him to touch him. He cannot control his desires for that very person. Thinking of all those things again even after he has already ruined everything is so disgusting of him. How can he fall so low? Just a few days ago he has ruined his brother's life and still he is thinking of him in that way? DISGUSTING. "Jimin?" He heard Hoseok saying which made him lift his head and look at him before following his gaze. His breath hitched when their eyes met. Jimin is looking at him so intensely like his eyes is trying to look into his soul. Why is he looking at Jeongguk like that? Neither of them bothered to avert their eyes from each other. Time seems like it has paused for Jeongguk. Everything has become so calm and quiet that he can hear nothing but his own beating heart now. It feels like Jimin is trying to say something to him in some foreign language which Jeongguk doesn't know. A strong urge to get up and run to the latter before engulfing him in a tight hug surged through him. But he gulped and bit his bottom lip to control himself from doing so knowing very well that that would be a very stupid move. "Jimin? Why did you stop?" He heard a girl's voice and that's when he realized that his brother is not alone but someone else is with him too. Someone he doesn't want see. Someone whom he wants to rip apart from Jimin right at this moment. Someone he knows is taking his Jimin away from him. Rose. He blinked and looked away when the pair starts walking towards them or he thought so. Instead of coming to their table the pair walked pass them and settled down far away from them. Jeongguk bit his lower lips and blinked his eyes several times to stop himself from shedding his newly built tears. He just keeps looking in his tray avoiding a sight he knows his heart is not capable to handle.

Taehyung looks at his friend with a deep frown. Jimin with a girl? When did this happen? He was so caught up in his own life that he didn't realize the drastic change in his best friend within a few days. Now that he thinks the situation seems more complicated. The sudden disappearance of Jimin. Jeongguk's face in guilt like he did something really regretful but not telling anyone about what happened between him and his brother. And he cannot even imagine that the Jeon brothers can stay away from each other for this long. Sure they had lots of arguments before but never did they end up like this. They would have mended it up in a day or two but now they are not talking for days and it seems very serious to Taehyung so he decided to talk to Jimin sooner about it. "I thought Jimin is gay?" Spoke Hoseok while raising his brow. "But they are looking so cute. I ship them already." Jennie squealed. "Yup they are" Lisa replied smiling at the pair who are oblivious of their eyes on them.

Jeongguk on other hand is not liking the conversation going on a bit. Every word is hurting him like a dagger. He just keeps eating while avoiding to show any of them his vulnerability but someone there is noticing him. Noticing how he is biting his lips time to time to avoid those tears to fall down. How he swallows thickly every time someone compliments Jimin and Rose being together. Namjoon knows how his friend is feeling right now. He knows what it feels like to be in love. Sure he never was in the younger's place before. Watching his friend loving his own brother is something he is still uncomfortable about but he can never hate the boy or even blame him. Loving someone is something we cannot control. And it is really unfortunate for Jeongguk that he fell for his own brother. Namjoon put his hand over the gloomy boy and stroked his back soothingly. His heart almost broke when the younger looked at him with teary eyes and smiled sadly.

The classes are finally over and Jeongguk cannot be more happier. Watching his Jimin avoiding him and being close to someone else who is not him is suffocating him all day. As he got out of the building he saw a familiar boy waiting for someone. His blood boiled and he clenched his fist before marching to the guy. Before that guy could notice his presence he gave a solid punch on other's face making him stumble and finally fall on his butt. "What th..." Chinhae's eyes widen seeing none other than Jeongguk standing in front of him looking down at him while glaring. He gulped and stood up more like tried before the younger boy gave a kick on his knee making him cry in pain and fall again. "You fucking bastard!! How dare you do that to me? I am fucking gonna kill you" Jeongguk growled before clutching on other boy's collar and lifting him up before giving him another solid punch on his face making other's nose bleed out. "Jeongguk stop! Please!" A female's voice came and someone grabbed his hand but he was too angry that he pushed the person without looking at them. A yelp is being heard and he turned around only to see Rose on the ground with a bruised elbow. "I am.." Before he could apologize, he got punched square on his face making him stumble back but he gains his balance before he fall. "How dare you hurt my sister!" He heard Chinhae growl and he glared at the other. "Don't you dare fucking touch me!" "Or else what? Listen kid, whatever happened was just under the influence of alcohol and it's not like it would have been a big of a deal if I have taken you that time. Sure you would have enjoyed that too." The smirk on the guy's face made Jeongguk grit his teeth and he stepped forward before punching him in his stomach making the other cough. Chinhae was about to punch back when someone held his hand tight. When he looked at the person he saw none other than Jeon Jimin. Looking calm and angry at the same time. The dark aura surrounding him made Chinhae gulp but instead of showing his fears he glared at the newcomer and tried to snatch his hand back but couldn't due to Jimin's tight and strong grip around his wrist. "Apologize." Jimin said calmly in his deep voice.

On seeing his brother made Jeongguk shocked. He is happy and scared at the same time. He knows whenever the other is angry how scary he gets but he still is not used to it. Every time he sees this side of his hyung he cannot help but shiver. "You fucking think I would apologize to some bastards like you?" Snorted Chinhae and Jeongguk is sure he is only digging his own grave. Jimin just smirked and soon after a loud cry escaped Chinhae's mouth. Jimin has twisted his wrist not enough to break the bone but enough to give a large amount of pain. "Still don't want to apologize?" "S-Sorry" The pain is so unbearable that he had to apologize. This made Jimin smirk even wider before he let go of his wrist. "Next time I don't want to see you anywhere near him." He almost growled and Chinhae nodded in fear. Jeongguk walks to Rose who is standing a few steps away from them. "I-I am sorry. I didn't mean to. Are you OK? I am sorry I didn't noticed...." "I am fine Gguk. Just a light bruise but it's nothing." The girl smiled. "I am sorry on behalf of my brother." She looked at him guiltily and embarrassed. "Why are you saying sorry? It's not your mistake." Jeongguk said "Being his sister I think it's my fault too." "Don't think like that. You are different from him. You apologizing here tells that you are a nice person and wouldn't let that happen if only you had known." The girl smiles and walked to his brother before giving both of the boys a small apologetic smile.

Now the only two of them are standing there awkwardly. Jeongguk wants to say something but he cannot muster up enough courage to do so on the other hand Jimin cannot handle the awkwardness. Being near the younger brought all those memories of that night back making it even more awkward for him to stand there so without uttering a word he starts walking. Jeongguk got startled when he sees the older walking away but he sighed in relief when he realized that he is walking in their house's direction. So he is finally coming back home? A smile spread on the younger's face and he starts walking behind the older while maintaining enough distance to not make the other uncomfortable or angry.

Soon they reached home without a single word being exchanged and Jeongguk unlocked the door before stepping inside and Jimin follows behind. He closed the door and turned around only to see Jimin walking towards his own room. "Jimin hyung?" He called lightly but the latter heard him and so he stopped in his tracks without turning around. "I.... I am sorry. What happened that n-night is purely my mistake. I should have controlled myself. I know just a sorry is not enough. But I want you to know that I genuinely feel guilty from the bottom of my heart." The light sobs made Jimin turn around and he looked at the younger in quite shock. The only question ringing in Jimin's head is why the latter is apologizing when he is not at the fault at all? Jeongguk was heavily drugged. He was in no condition to control his actions and sober enough to notice what actually was happening. It was Jimin who was a little sober and could have stopped everything but he didn't. It was him who had given in his need. It is Jimin only who is responsible for everything. Yet he cannot speak that all out. Even after watching his bunny cry in guilt of something he was not even aware of didn't make him stop the other so without saying anything he turned around but before he could even take the first step Jeongguk stopped him again. "But..... I don't regret that night." Jimin turned around and looked at him confused and slightly angry. "Yes I regret hurting you but not doing that." He took few steps closer to the older who backed away until his back hit the wall. "Because that was my love doing. It was me showing you how much I love you." Jimin looked away not ready to hear all this. "And if I would get a chance to show you my love for you again then I will." A blush appeared on Jimin's cheeks. Jeongguk steps even closer almost trapping the older against the wall. "And you know what I found? That you love me too. The same way..... as I do." Jimin's slightly widen eyes finally met his. "There was pure love for me in your eyes and it was not the love you usually have....... but the love I want you to have for me. The desire to be close to me. I have seen all that hyung. And now you cannot deny that you love me too." Jimin eyes widen even more but then he pushed the younger away rather hardly for him to stumble back. "I. Don't. Love. You. And never will so accept it." With that he left to his room and slammed the door shut startling the younger.