21 Chapter 18

The next day soon came and Jeongguk is waiting for his hyung to come back already but there is no sign of the other so far. He sighed and wore his jacket before walking out of his room to take his breakfast. "What if he won't come today?" He mumbled and walked into the kitchen. Sighing every other second he prepared a sandwich for himself and left for the classes after finishing it.

Jeongguk is in his class while busy drawing something in his drawing book and not giving any attention to the teacher. He doesn't even know what he is drawing at the moment and his hands are moving on their own while his mind his filled with the thoughts of a particular grey haired boy. A boy who is still not present in the class. A boy whom he has started missing a lot. A boy whom he fell in love with. A boy whom he wants to make his and only his but unfortunately is his brother. He sighed and continued drawing when someone knocked the gate before entering. Although he just keeps looking into his drawing book while thinking of his hyung and not minding everything going on around. "You are late Jeon" "I am sorry." The familiar voice made him snap his head up in the speed of light and his eyes fell on the person he is craving to see. The person who is on his mind for all this time. Jeon Jimin. Although the older didn't give him even a single glance and starts walking inside the class. "Hyung" Jeongguk tried to speak when the other got closer but the latter just ignored him and walked passed him and sat on the last seat. "Let's talk to him during lunch time OK." spoke Taehyung who is sitting beside Jeongguk. The younger nodded in disappointment. He then turned his head back to look at his brother who is looking straight at the teacher in front not even looking at the younger for once. This reaction broke Jeongguk. He knows he can't make anything back to right and whatever hopes he had have also vanished by now.

It is finally break time after the boring music class and Jeongguk is debating with himself internally about talking to Jimin. "You guys need to talk Gguk. Just go and apologize if you have done something." said Taehyung but the younger knows very well that it is not something which will be OK just by saying a word. He is sure that he has lost his hyung already. The bond they had even the little bit has already broken. Even the relation of brothers will no longer be there and Jeongguk just wants to hide in his room and cry. "Fine. Don't go but I am going." with that Taehyung walked to Jimin who is sitting alone on the last bench.

"Are you OK Ji? You know we all were so worried for you. Jeongguk was crying a lot. Is everything fine between you two?" Jimin looks at his brother for a second who gave him the most apologetic face before looking at Taehyung. "It's just a normal fight between brothers" He smiled but the latter is not buying any of it. He knows about the older very well. He knows when the other lies or when he tells the truth. "Jimin tell me the truth. What happened?" The older looks away and sighs. "I can't tell you." He mumbled. "The fuck with this can't tell you shit? Your brother is saying the same thing. Just tell me already what has happened. You know I can't see you like this and you are not helping at all!" "Tae. You won't understand. You will..... hate me." Jimin's face looks like he is about to cry which made his friend soften. "I can never hate you Ji and you know that very well." Jimin shifts his eyes and looks at his brother who is being laying his head on the table in the front. "I... can't" Taehyung sighs annoyed. "Argh! You guys are seriously something. Fine don't tell me but you have to end this already. Just go and talk to him. It's not that bad right?" Jimin looks at him sadly and then back to his brother who felt his gaze this time and looked back making Jimin avert his eyes immediately.

Taehyung sighs and walks out of the classroom. He knows that he should make them talk but right now he really needs to go to washroom to do his business. After coming back from the washroom his eyes fell on something or rather someone passing through the main entrance. "He is bunking off again?" He frowned and quickly dialed the latter's number. "Come on Yunki hyung. Pick up the call. Where must you going hyung at this time?" The incident about that night gave him an unsettling feeling in the void of his stomach. His shaking hands and terrified expressions are visible while he is dialing other's number non stop. He remembers the words of Yunki the previous day. How the older gave a clear sign that he no longer wants anything with Taehyung. How he straight up rejected every plead of the younger. He remembers all of that and anger boils inside him watching himself still caring about the other boy. Why can't he do just as the older wants? Why can't he forget the other and move on? Just by looking at Yunki the younger melts down and can't stop himself from thinking about that boy. He just wants to be with the person he loves. Is that a lot to ask? Why can't life become easy on him for once? No matter how much he tries, there is always something which comes between them. The tough wall between them which he wants to break all this time seems like building up more and more instead that now it seems impossible for him to get any closer to the boy. He sent tons of messages to Yunki but got reply to none. "Why this guy is like this? Can't he be easy to understand for once?" Taehyung is willing to take all ninety nine steps towards Yunki. The older just needs to take that one step. Just that one step towards him and show him that he also wants Taehyung as much as the latter wants Yunki. Sighing in annoyance he puts his phone back and decides to focus on his class instead. Praying that the older is completely safe.

Jeongguk can feel a pair of eyes from behind boring holes at the back of his head and he is well aware of who they belong to. How just an hour ago he was dying to meet the older and now that Jimin is close he can't muster up enough courage to even look at the other properly. When he saw the boy entering the class he froze on his place. His palms have started sweating and he felt that he is stick with glue on his place. Oh how he wanted to go to his hyung and hug him. Apologize to him and beg for forgiveness but there still is fear of encountering Jimin's eyes which most probably are now filled with hate and only hate for the younger. Jeongguk doesn't remember everything from the night as he was highly drugged but the few images which he managed to bring back in his memory gave him all the idea of what must have happened. Oh how he wants to turn the time back and stop himself from doing any of that. All his efforts he did to held himself from hurting his precious hyung has now wasted. He has hurt the only person he never wants to hurt. Now he just wants to kill himself for doing such a thing. Only if he was not careless enough. Only if he had listened to the other, thing like this wouldn't have happened.

"Hyung please! You need rest. Why are you doing this?" Namjoon sighed watching his stubborn boyfriend cooking. "I am fine Joonie. Don't worry. And besides I am not feeling like taking any rest." Namjoon walks to the older and hugged him from behind putting his chin on the latter's shoulder he spoke "But you need rest hyung. Doctor said you can't take much stress and shouldn't drain your energy. It can affect your brain." The older chuckled and turn around. "Namjoon I am fi...." The sudden dizziness made him lost his balance but Namjoon was quicker to caught him. "Hyung! Are you OK? What happened?" he panicked and carried the older in his arms to the hall and laid him on the couch. "M-My head.. It hurts." Tears started prickling at the corner of Jin's eyes making the younger even more panicked. He quickly dialed doctor's number and told him everything. After ending the call he walked to his boyfriend and held his hand while he gave a kiss on his forehead. "I told you to not do that. Why don't you listen to me hyung?" Namjoon himself couldn't control his tears which now started streaming out of his eyes. Seeing the younger this broken stung Jin's heart. Now he started cursing himself mentally for hurting his boyfriend like this. He knows how his condition is affecting the other. His mother has told him everything about how his Namjoon had taken care of him. How he neglected his own health and only thought of him and what he did in return? He just made his boyfriend more worried. How bad of a boyfriend he is who can't give anything but pain to the latter.

"You sure you are OK Yunki?" Mrs. Han asked. She just made Hyunki sleep when she heard the door bell and as she opened the door she saw Yunki standing there while looking like a dead. Without saying a word she invited him inside and made him eat something. Even if the boy didn't speak a word she already knows what is going on. That day is coming. The day when Yunki's life had turned upside down. The day when he stopped being happy. The day when he had lost all his hopes. "You know you can always talk to me?" "I am fine Mrs. Han." he replied after finishing his last bite and gulping down all of his orange juice. "Did you tell Taehyung everything?" The lady asked while he takes his plate in the kitchen and starts washing them. "Why would I tell anything to him?" "Being your boyfriend don't you think he deserves to know?" The boy sighed "He is not my boyfriend, Mrs. Han." "Yet" He groaned and washed his hands after doing dishes and walked out of the kitchen. "Where is Hyunki?" "Sleeping." "And Mr. Han?" "Also sleeping." He nodded. "I am sorry if I have caused any problem or disturbed you. I was feeling really restless and needed someone to talk to." "Hey you don't need to apologize for such a thing." The lady waved his hand. "This is your house too and you are a part of our family. You are always welcome here." He smiled in gratefulness and bowed to the old lady who smiled and ruffled his hairs. "Go and take rest with Hyunki. You are looking really tired." He nodded and walked into the said kid's room.

"He is fine right now. I have given him medicines and an injection and he will be OK in an hour." Doctor said to Namjoon who is sitting beside Jin while panicking. "But Mr. Kim I told you that you need rest. Your body hasn't healed yet completely and it needs a large amount of rest and care to get better." Jin who was resting his head on Namjoon's shoulder pouted in guilt and apologized. "Please take care of yourself. And if anything happens call me immediately" with that the doctor left and Namjoon got up to walk him out. When he came back he saw his boyfriend lost in his thoughts. He smiles and walks to him and sat beside him before taking his hand in his and started playing with his fingers. "What happened baby? You alright? Are you still having headache?" The older shook his head and a tear rolled down his cheek. "Hyung? Are you OK? Why are you crying?" Namjoon asked cupping the latter's cheeks and making him face himself. "I..... I am sorry" Namjoon frowned in confusion having no idea as to why his cute boyfriend is suddenly crying and apologizing. "I know I have caused you many problems. You were in stress because of me and I only made it worse by being careless. I am sorry." The younger cooed and pecked other's soft plump lips testing the salty tears on them. "It's OK baby. You don't need to apologize. Remember that I will always care for you. Just do as I say till you get better and I promise once you will be completely fine, I will take you on a date. Now how does that sound?" The older blushed and nodded making the other smile at him too. "Now go to sleep. Hm?" "Stay with me." "Always." Jin blushed and pecked the younger's cheek before laying down. Namjoon smiled widely and laid beside him before wrapping his arm around the older and pulling him close to himself before nuzzling his face in the crook of other's neck. "I love you." He mumbled making Jin smile and blush. "I love you too." He replied and they both soon drifted to sleep.