Chapter 11

"Sea-" Sean hangs up on me, and I know exactly why… **Bling!** I look over to my phone and once again I see that Sean was live streaming again. All he did does now was live stream these days… and it's all because of me! I broke him,- WAIT! SEAN LIVE STREAMED HIM YELLING AT ME! EVERYONE WILL KNOW WHAT HAS HAPPENED! I need to make a live stream addressing this. Taking one last breath, I start the stream. I titled it; "Please Sean, I Can Explain…" just trying to explain myself to Sean, and to our fans…

"Hello everybody…" I'm already regretting this, but it has to be done… "Today I am here to explain why Sean is only doing live streams for the past week or so, and why that phone call that just happened on Sean's live stream…" The people were starting to come into the live stream, I didn't want it to come to this, but I have to do this. "Sean likes me, and not in a friend way, romanticly, he has said himself that he loves me. Sean invited me to this house in Brighton. I didn't know what he was going to do, but when he confessed to me, I said no. A day later I then texted Sean, told him that I think that I liked him back on the way to me going to the airport, Sean somehow gets there before I leave and I pushed him back… This is why he hates me now. Sean, if you are hearing this right now, please know that I did not want to hurt you..." Tears start to appear in my eyes, I wish I just said yes to Sean… That way this life would be a lot better… "I did it because I didn't know what else to do… I didn't know if I was gay or not. Thank you for listening…" With that I shut off the livestream, I pick up my phone and try to call him again, he answered… the live stream must be over…

"Sean… I'm sorry just please watch the live stream that I have just finished…" "O-o-okay…" I could hear the distress in his voice you could tell that he was not in the best of mindsets… "I'm so sorry Sean I love you…" I hang up the phone...