1 Part I - White Flag

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My name is Onodera Ritsu, 25 years old

I am the only son of the head of Onodera Publications, previously worked at my father's company in the literature department. Oh man, I love literature so much!

But after hearing my colleagues that I'm only getting ahead is because of my father's influence, I decided to leave and show that I can be successful on my own.

I am now working at Marukawa Publishing. And guess what? The man sitting at the end of this panel, yes, the one who wears thick glasses, that's Masamune Takano, my boss.

I can't deal with him at first cause he is so annoying, he doesn't consider the feelings of others, and now it's being complicated and totally awkward, knowing he is my senpai, my first love when I was 15 years old.

I left him because of misunderstanding without even saying goodbye. I even vowed that I will never fall in love again and totally not with the same person. I must not! After 10 years, the wound is still healing. I will not let him enter my heart again.

"ONODERA!!"

"H-hai?" there he goes again. He keeps on shouting while I'm working.

"Did you contact Erika about the revision?" and not being considerate. "Or you didn't?"

"Revising is impossible, Takano san. The due is five days from now."

He sighed. "I told you before that you should not entertain her anymore, and tell her to quit her job."

I'm pissed now. He stood up and gave me the manuscript.

I stood up. "alright, ALRIGHT. I will contact her right now."

I explained everything to Erika san about the manuscript. She's so kind. She understands what my boss is saying. "I'm so sorry for all the trouble I have made, Ricchan."

"There's nothing to worry about Erika san. Besides, I'm free tomorrow." It's Saturday tomorrow.

We ended the call. Sigh. Working on weekend? Oh crap. That's not new to me. My major concern is, I haven't cleaned my place yet.

When finally job is done, I cleared my desk and went home immediately.

"Ricchan, going home so early?" I was about to leave when Kisa san asked.

"ah, hai. I have few things to do at home so, see you!"

It's Friday and it's very understandable that there are a lot of people in the train.

The door was ringing as a sign of closing. A man just jump in front of me and smiled. "Oh that was close!"

I just gave him a plain poker face. "Wow, leaving early Takano san?" I said.

"I don't have any plans today and I would like to give myself a me time, rest a bit, ya know."

"okay. and please do not let your face close to mine, it's... it's annoying."

"why should I? does your heart went doki doki again? and in our situation right now, because it is crowded inside the train, expect that we really close together, like this" there he goes again, he's always teasing me.

"oh, OI! don't make an excuse!!" he's crazy. If I still in love with you, I bet my heart would still-----

I bumped into him. I feel betrayed. My heart beating faster.

"OH SUMIMASEN!" a person pushed me accidentally and I leaned to Takano san. "I'm so sorry, I'm so tired from work and I didn't notice I was half asleep. Sorry sorry." He keeps on bowing.

"No worries. I thank you." Takano san said.

"eh?/EEHH?!" I pushed him.

"I-ignore him. Don't worry. I'm okay." I faced him. He smirked. I hope he doesn't feel my heart beat earlier.

Don't mind him.

We reached the apartment. I still can't believe we are neighbors too. My apartment room is 303, while Takano san is living on 304. Why does the god from above playing on my life? I just want to live a normal life. I want to move on but he still keep on going back in my life. "Onodera." I stopped walking. "Let's have a dinner together."

"I only have instant noodles, I can't---"

"Who says on your place?" he grabbed my left hand and we both entered on his place.

We are still on the door when he kissed me. "T-takano san.. hmm.. hngg..." I tried to push him away but I don't have the strength.

He run his fingers through my hair and his other hand touching my hips. It's so hot. I feel like I'm melting by his touch.

"a-aHh" He bit my lower lip which made me open my mouth. His tongue entered my mouth and starting to swirl my tongue.

"mmph.. umph.. ahh mmph" He's teasingly touching my chest while kissing.

My body jolted as he rub my nipples. "T-takano... s-san"

He stopped kissing and lean his forehead next to mine. I can hear and feel his breathing.

He slowly unzipping my jeans and touching my manhood. "Y-yamer..o hnng mmph--aHh!"

"Do you really want me to stop, Ritsu?" I bit my lower lip to avoid the unusual moaning sound I make while he's pleasuring me.

"But your body can't lie, Ritsu." My body twitched when he licked my neck. "Your body says, you want more."

"Here," He grabbed my right hand and put it on his cock. "hold mine too."

He's hard. Did I really made him that hard? "Ritsu." His deep voice calling my name hits different. Yabai.

I was about to cover my face when he lift my chin using his left hand. "Don't. I love seeing that lewd face of yours, it's turning me on, Ritsu."

I couldn't handle this madness, I wrap my arms around him. "M-make it f-faster, senpai."

His swift strokes went aggressively.

"ahh.. hnng.. a-aAhHh mmph.." only our moans you can hear in this room. "s-senpai, I'm comminggg..."

I ejected too many on his hands. "G-gomen."

"Wow Ritsu, it's thick. It's been awhile when we did this. You haven't jerk off these days?"

I tried to stop him to lick his hands. "Oi! It's dirty."

"Why? I haven't tasted yours for a long time." he smiled and nibble my ear.

He whispered, "thank you for the food."

"EH???!!! Is this what you meant by dinner?"

"Appetizer." He kissed my forehead. "Let's go to the dining room. I'll cook you edible and healthy foods."

I sometimes can't read what's on his mind. He's unpredictable.

We ate dinner together and I praised his cooking skills. "Thank you for the food, Takano san.."

I insisted to wash the dishes after we eat. He wrapped his arms around my waist. "Can you not?"

Thank goodness the dishes are done. I dried my hands using the cloth.

He placed his chin on my shoulder. It tickles since he have beard. "You smell nice, Ritsu."

He tighten his arms. "o-oi! let go."

"only if you say you will sleep here in my place."

"HUH??!!! Are you crazy?"

"Yes. Crazy in love with you." the next thing I knew was he's licking my ear. I closed my mouth using my hand.

"What's the matter Ritsu? Don't hold back. Let it out." then he bite my neck.

"AHH!" I gasped.

"See?" He turn me around and see his face, that look on his face would like to eat me alive. "dessert?"

He carried me and went to his bed, slowly putting me down.

The eye glasses that he wears looks good on him, but as soon as he took it off, I felt a different aura.

"Ritsu, I love you." He lift my hand and put it on his chest. "can you feel it?"

His heart beat, it's.... beating so fast. "Now, can you tell me that I'm lying? Am I joke to you?" He released his hand and now tracing my face, my eyes, my nose and my lips.

He is so gentle but anytime I might be shattered by his touch. "Why aren't you answering me?"

"It's because..." it's hard to say it.

He removed my jeans together with my underwear. "I will help you respond." He licked his two fingers and put it inside my hole.

He stopped my two hands from covering my mouth by grabbing and putting them over my head. "Moan as you can. Moan my name, Ritsu."

He slowly thrusts his fingers, in and out. This isn't the first time, but it feels strange. Once he's moving his fingers inside me, it tickles.

"T-takano san."

"Hmm? What is it?"

"ahh.. hnng.. a-achk.." I can't say it since he's pleasuring me.

"what?"

"M-more. I want hmmp... m-more, senpai."

He teasingly caressing my manhood, rubbing the tip makes my whole body shiver. "Tell me how you feel right now, Ritsu."

"It... nngh... f-feels..." I clutched the bed sheet when I feel his tongue licking the tip while aggressively thrusting his two fingers.

"s-senpai. ahh.... I'm... hnng.. hmmph-aHh!!" I heard a slurping sound when my juices came out.

We both breathe heavily. "It feels good, M-Ma-Masamu...ne senpai, I mean, san, Masamune san."

YABAI! This is not good.

I looked away.

oh my goodness, I suddenly felt flustered! I say his name for the first time. How I wish to disappear right now. or I should say, this is just a dream. Yes, dream. Wake up Ritsu, c'mon. No no no, this is not you! This is not a dream, this is a nightmare! Ritsu!

"RITSU" I suddenly flinched when he call my name. I looked at him. "Say it again."

"NO WAY" I was about to grab his pillow but he pull it away. "Why are you like this? Can you please be true to yourself and not be embarrassed about your actions?"

"You can't blame me."

"But you don't have to be shy if we're just the two of us." He's caressing my face.

"Say my name again Ritsu and I'm yours forever." He kissed my lips, running towards my neck, leaving traces that makes me moan.

He lift his head. "I love you so much, Ritsu. Do you love me too?"

I slowly fondle his face, enjoying the view, every inch of his face, "Why are you like this? why are you making my heart and mind go crazy? why do make me feel that I need you for the rest of my life? why are you so annoying? and....

why do I feel these butterflies in my stomach everytime you say you love me?"

My vision suddenly blurred. My tears running down my face. "It really hurts, senpai."

"It's been ten years. I'm having nightmares about our past relationship. I was about to forget you. I wished that I didn't know you. I wished that I will not be able to see you anymore. I vowed I would never fall in love again, even An-chan, who supposed to be my fiance.

and lastly I ditched you. You were supposed to be mad at me, but here you are, saying you love me and making love with me multiple times. Just.... how??"

He wiped my tears. "How many times do I have to tell you, that I love what you are right now? It's true that I got mad because you left me, I felt so empty you know. But I'm happy 'coz I found you again. You bring me joy that I wanted for a long time ago. So that's why I'm not holding back anymore. I will cherish every moment that we have today. Please let's forget about the past and create new memories, shall we?"

He kissed my cheeks. "Not being able to convey your feelings, it's painful right? Let that pain go away. So, what do you feel right now, Ritsu?"

"I--" he lean and rested his forehead on mine, a sign that I should not feel uneasy.

Both of our hearts beating faster. I can feel it. I gulped. "I...love you, senpai, Masamune san."

He closed his eyes and wipe his tears before it go down.

"I'm so happy. You don't know how much happiness when you say those words. I love you so much, Onodera Ritsu."

He kissed me. I let him enter my mouth, and play with my tongue.

He's undressing me and touched my chest. We made a string of saliva as we stopped coz we're out of breath.

He also took off his clothes. " He grabbed my hand. "Ritsu, hold mine."

I started to stroke up and down slowly and so as he. He's licking my neck down to my chest. He is nibbling my nipple and it tickles a lot, causing me to moan. The way he touched my manhood and licking me there making me so crazy. I can't think of anything else.

"mmph...nghh...AHH, I'm ngh... comming." our juices came out. "not yet done. I'll put it inside." he said.

He thrusts slowly. "Ritsu" He give me a peck on my lips.

I can hear his hard breathing for every thrust he make, and it's turning me on. He's licking my neck running towards to my chest and suck my nipples.

My mind really went blank as his tongue started to swirl. "s-senpai, aHh... nngh.. mmph.. uhnng.." My body is twitching.

"Ritsu, I'm ugh... coming."

"achk.. me too, s-senpai."

We both came. "I love you."

I gave him a smooch. "Me too."

7:45 am. The alarm clock awakes me. "Good morning sleepyhead."

He's standing in front of the door wearing his apron, "the breakfast is ready. You're gonna be late for the meet up with Erika sensei."

"OH SHIT, I almost forgot!" I stood up and fall down. "My hips, it aches."

"You need help?"

"No no no! I can do this."

We ate our breakfast together. "senpai, I'm gonna go home. I will just change clothes and leave."

"Good luck" he kissed me for the last time. I walked out of the door while holding my hips.

As soon as I entered my room, I turn on my phone to listen all recorded phone calls.

"Ricchan, please bring the last three pages of my previous manuscript. Thank you. Bye." oh right. Thanks for the call Erika sensei.

"Ritsu sweetheart. This is your mom." I stopped changing my clothes as I hear her voice. Damn, I miss her so much. If it wasn't for the company, I will pay her a visit.

"I miss you so much. If you are not busy, maybe you can visit our house? Your original house, I mean. I want to talk about some matters with you. If you are not comfortable here, then call me if you have a place you know. Please. I miss you so much. Bye."

Some matters. I know what you mean mom. And won't going back.

-end of first part-

-update: unknown-