24 The Realization

"Kenji Loser?" I said, shortly after he had become quiet and all I heard was deep breathing.

Haha, Loser must have fallen asleep. What time is it already?

*Looks at clock, having it read 1:10AM*

Gosh, already? I thought. Haha. No wonder he's sleeping... :)

Dang, if only he left the lights on, haha I wanna see him sleep... well since I cant, I'm going to imagine....

I pointed to the screen.... "your eyes would be here.... moving down to your nose, to your soft lips & cheeks....." If only I ever had the chance, I want to lay next to you and watch you sleep... obviously not in a creepy way, but... just to see the man.....

I paused.

Just to see the man I also loved sleep.....

*I smiled*

"Kenji Loser?" I asked.... "Hello?... poke poke, can you hear me?

*Kenji breathes deeply on the other end of Skype.

"Haha" I laugh to myself...

"Well, even if you can't hear me right now... I want to tell you... I love you also.... ♡"

*** Shortly after, I had some silence moment to myself as I stared at the black screen. Still hearing Kenji breathing....

Tears rolled down my eyes...

"Kenji?" I said... "Tomorrow... when we skype.. I can't wait to tell you that I love you & That you no longer have to wait... because... If I'm willing to be here with you at this hour in which the clock just turned 1:30AM.... why does it matter what hardships I may go through in school. I know at the end of the day, I can always come home to you & You'll be there. We will make it through, regardless of the hardships or obstacles"....

*Kenji begins to softly snore...

"I love you Loser.... I'm sorry to realize it so late and to not tell you sooner... But that's ok we still have tomorrow again when we skype" *I smiled...

"Goodnight, my 'Boyfriend' Heheeh" ♡ Gosh... I'm crazyy.. haha.... but I wanna kiss him... well maybe just this once without him knowing...

I leaned in on to the screen and softly kiss it.

*Muahh!*

Hahahahha omg, I'm an idiot!!

I then shut off my laptop and laid in bed thinking.....

I can't wait to see his reaction tomorrow!!!! Gosh, he would be smiling and everything!!! Ugh, just thinking about it makes me all shy! Ugh... breathe Oriana... & go to sleep....

I rolled over.... Still smiling I scream into my pillow!!!

Ugh!! Hurry up day! I can't wait to tell him... Hahaha...

I eventually fell asleep thinking about him and his smile...

* The clock Ticks 2:15 AM. *