50 I Had a Nightmare

20XX, August 22, Thursday; Konner House, My Room

I just woke up but it was still dark outside, a long wait before going to school. I had another nightmare of that night which was the reason I woke up this early. It was a long time ago since I had it last so the one tonight was too intense for me.

It was probably because of what happened yesterday so I will summarize it all since I don't want to go back to sleep anyways.

At school, yesterday, I met another part of that group. Chase. I still don't know if he was in on the plan for that night so I have no plans for him, no plan to look for him either since he was not even studying in our school.

But yesterday, he was visiting the university. Some students recognized him from the high school group of my ex and his friends so I also noticed him. He was just getting out of the administration office, the people around saying that he was there as a representative for his friends who died to formally report about their deaths since their parents were currently unavailable. Such a good friend.

I snickered as I passed by these students gossiping but too bad Chase saw me. We actually never met but I've seen his pictures and he had probably seen mine too. Sometimes, when the friends were talking to him on the phone, I was with them too.

I heard my name being called so I turned back to the administration building. I know there were other Seans at school but it was still a reflex to turn when I heard my name. When I saw Chase running to catch up to me, I tensed up and frowned.

It was probably more difficult for me to confront him compared to his friends since I don't know his side on this. He smiled slightly at me when we were only a meter apart but it disappeared fast when I kept quiet.

"You probably don't know me?" he said with an awkward look on his face.

When I just shook my head and mumbled that I do, he continued speaking, "Sorry. I heard that you already broke up with Rick but I figured he might need you now since the death of Brad and Stephen were such a surprise."

Then, he smiled again, "I actually saw you with Brad before so I thought you might be talking to him about Rick. It was surprising that you went to him for help but you can talk to me too. I don't know when Rick will return though."

I was shocked when he said he saw me and Brad together. When was that? Was Chase suspicious of me?

Still frowning, I just looked at him and ignored what he just said. I was a little nervous so I just told him that I still have class and I will contact him if I have the time. I walked away hastily, hoping I don't look suspicious.

Currently, I'm back to staying at the Konner House. From the last news about my aunt, she really was being transferred to another town farther from here. She called me yesterday afternoon for a family talk and told me to pack a few of my things before going to the house. Fortunately for me since I don't want to be alone in my apartment.

After dinner, aunt suggested that Eli and I come with her but the both of us declined, reasoning that we both just started the school year and it will be difficult to handle the transfer of us too. Why don't we just wait for the school year to end, I said. Aunt might also have transferred back by then.

But Eli had another fight with aunt. She was still reminding him to chose the criminology course once he started college. Annoyed with the turn in our talk, Eli walked out of the kitchen after glaring at aunt then, went to his room, banging his door shut. I never knew that Eli could get this emotional. But aunt was at fault too. Why spoil Eli when he wanted to continue playing soccer then tell him now that he can't continue. Well, if I really managed to get a stable job after I graduate, maybe I can support Eli if he got a sports scholarship. I don't have to pay off student loans anyway.

As I was going to sleep last night, Eli knocked on my door. Then, he asked if I already broke up with my boyfriend since I don't look busy now! I don't know how Eli knew I had a boyfriend. I thought I was hiding it from him too since aunt never knew or she would have asked me about it.

Eli was unsure if we already broke up since I don't look down. If only he saw me the days after tgat night. I wish I could talk to him about it but I just smiled and said I'm okay. My brother stared at me intently for a long to time but then left me alone after. He was acting so realiable now. My baby brother has grown, huh.

I hope we can get close again with only the two of us alone in the house. But I'm sad that I can't tell him a lot of the things I did. Well, there's no going back now.