47 I've Become Stupid, I Know!

20XX, August 18, Sunday; Appartment Complex near university, my room

Sigh.. I just got back from my aunt's house. I need a normal family atmosphere after spending time with Brad these past few days especially after last Friday.

Like what I wrote previously, I was spending time with him for my plan to kill him and it's good that he didn't get suspicious. Just like I thought, dumb.

Anyway, it was also a little difficult to sneak when I spend time with him. I told him I don't want others to gossip about me breaking up with his friend. Anyway, he also doesn't want people to know that he's 'together' with one girl. Especially not his friends.

But some may assume I cheated on my ex so Brad and I meet outside school. Fortunately, our departments buildings were close to each other hence, it was slightly easier to sneak around. We meet every break we both had and after classes. Usually just staying in his car, making out. Yup, I'm making out with him.

I know it's stupid but I couldn't think of any other way to get close to him. Besides, it's easier to fool him like that and get a hand on his car. Last Friday, I even had s*x with him. But I promise that was the last time I'd ever touch the bastard.

Well, last Friday, as was usual these days, we met in a parking lot outside the campus. I mean, I went while he was waiting in his car. I knew he will have another race the coming weekend so I was desperate. I insisted that we spend the night together but not in any of our apartments or hotels or we might be seen. So he told me he knew a secluded place and we can just stay in the car.

Dumb, like I said but I had a pepper spray, knife, and stuff like that in my bag. Though still kinda dumb, I know! As I said, I was desperate and I'm safe now! That was why I spent this weekend with Eli and aunt after.

So back to last Friday. He drove out of our town,near an abandoned farm. While driving, he kept touching my leg and inching up his hand which was easy since I was wearing a miniskirt. I told him to wait since he was still driving.

But then, he unzipped his pants then grabbed my hair and shoved my face on his lap, telling me to 'suck it'. Giving a blow job was nothing new to me. I've done it with my two exes. But with this guy? It was disgusting!

As I said before, I was desperate (Is there another word for desperate? I feel like I'm overusing it) and as I said before too, he's fast. After a few minutes, he came in my mouth and the car almost swerved to a pole. I swear, I wanna kill him that time regardless of my plans but I restrained myself. I mean, I don't want my plans to go to waste but I also don't wanna die with this guy!

But I had a reason to spit his come on his lap because of his driving. He kept cursing at me and I just acted timid, stuttering while trying to reason with the bastard.

Fortunately, we finally arrived in some area with a few trees then, he pounced on me and kissed me. Of course he was still soft that time so he got something from the dashboard of his car. Drugs. Yup. I guess he really needed it to 'perform' after coming once. And he offered me some but I told him I never really liked having s*x while I'm unconscious. Like last time, and he smiled.

He was really noisy once he got high. He bragged about his race this evening, on the mountains he said. That the car will be lucky since 'the s*x was f*cking great'. His words while I was moving on top of him. And I got the finish to my plan!

After the s*x, he was still sniffing drugs inside the car, becoming dumber while I went out to pee, I said but proceeded to take a look at his car. And I'm done. I drove us out there, left him in a motel the next town over, still unconscious, then came back to my apartment. I could have left him in the car. Something like 'Son of a Former Actress Found Dead in His Car While Doing Drugs' for the headline but I would really like to destroy the bastard, body and soul.

And I don't have a way to go back to my apartment from this abandoned farm myself. So the accident it is. Hoping for him to fall off a cliff. My fingers are crossed!

If this worked, I still have to plan for the others though. That means four more to go. But I'm still not sure about Chase. He was supposed to be included in the 'birthday party' but had something else to do. Was he in on it?

Well, right now, I'm waiting for news about Brad's accident. It should be on the local network about the son of famous celebrities being in an accident or dying. Maybe I should wait at school tomorrow.

Actually, I thought of calling him during his race to have the call as a distraction too but someone might get suspicious. If this doesn't work, then I'll think of a better plan.