49 A Letter for Me

20XX, August 20, Tuesday; Appartment Complex near university, my room

Would you believe it?! The nerve?! Did you know that that bastard Stephen actually wrote a letter to me to apologize before he committed suicide?

I haven't checked my email in a while so I haven't seen it when he sent it last Saturday. That's right. Last Saturday. And from my understanding, he was waiting for my reply but since I haven't even seen it until today, he killed himself last Sunday. Like I would even forgive him!

He said he was sorry. That he's in love with me.

Well, here's the letter.

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FROM: Stephen <stephendunburry@xxxxx.com>

TO: Sean <sean16fenris@xxxxx.com>

DATE: Aug 17, 20XX at 11:06 PM

SUBJECT: I'm begging you. Please don't ignore this.

I know you're probably mad at me and my friends. What we did was atrocious and possibly unforgivable especially for a young girl like you. That was why I haven't entertained any of their attempt to contact me after that night. I have been thinking by myself in my studio since then.

You see, my friends has been doing this since they were in high school, before I even joined their group. You may not know it but I only met them when we were in university. I never thought they would be unpunished the first time I knew of what they were doing but our families were rich enough to bribe the authorities. It was the girls who suffered most even after those nights so I don't want you to try in case they destroyed you more and your family too.

You might be thinking that you will take your case to your aunt and her colleagues but that never worked even with the girls with higher status than yours. I'm sorry if I can't help with that.

But I really love you. I still love you. If you did not remember, Rick told you that night that it was because of me that they targeted you. I am telling you that it was not my plan. Yes, I fell in love with you when I saw you act. Your elegance on stage was on par with the other actors with you then, I realized that you were a lot different, a really good girl, when I saw you helping out offstage after the play finished. The contrast was so beautiful.

When I asked for advice from my friends regarding girls, since I never had experience falling in love before, they told me they will take care of it. I trusted them. But the next thing I knew, Rick was introducing you as his girlfriend. I was shocked. Why betray me like that? When I confronted him, he told me that it was part of their plan for me and you, that I will get a chance with you too. I understood their plan after he said that, but I can't stop them. I'm really really sorry. I hope you forgive me.

As you read this letter, I wish my desperate love for you was properly sent too. To properly atone my sin, I will kill myself if I do not receive your forgiveness until tomorrow.

Please forgive me.

I will be waiting.

Yours,

Stephen

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I know I should have known that what they did to me was his reason for killing himself. But to actually write that he loves me! That he's sorry! To forgive him?!

No way!

And it looked like he was saying that it was only his friends that were to blame! That he wasn't part of the plan! Then why was he even there?! To try to stop them?! No, it's to join in the 'fun' since he 'loves' me. What a joke!

And what does he mean he can't help me?! If he had the guts to die, then he should just admit to the police what they did! He's just a coward.

Aargh! I hope he suffers in HELL!!! All of them!