6 Concluding Remarks
September 4th 2019, 8:32am:
I skipped out on Primerica last night to see Haley play volleyball. I really don't want to continue with Primerica because I'm always having to borrow money to make things happen. Tim called me last night or I called him and He told me that getting help isn't a big deal.
I remember my personal revelation a week or so ago about Primerica and I shared it with you guys a few chapters or so back. I've planted my flag at Primerica and I can't quit I have to try harder and to become better.
I want to win for Haley and to make enough money to help her dreams come true. Also really need a car. I was hoping before winter. So that will be my goal.
Since my car wreck last year I have been taking my meds, and I had a rough November and December because I was suicidal over all the loss in my life. I met my best friend Adam Texeira in November and in December I overdosed on a bunch of old meds that I had saved to actually dispose of.
I felt to be in so much despair that I said to hell with myself and expected to really die this time. After getting out of the hospital that last time last year my twin sister Victoria had me come out to Hawaii to live out there with her. Ended up not working out and I almost overdosed again because of them slowly cutting me off out of their lives. I mean I was on disability and they were making me find my own place in Hawaii. Honestly I was miserable. And my attitude changed coming back home.
Don't get my wrong I'm grateful for my family and I hope to raise money for my twin sister's father in law for his eye surgery. It's very expensive, I heard about $40,000 for it. Not completely sure but it is expensive but I want to help him. Also I had great times in Hawaii while I was with them. It wasn't all bad.
I'm grateful for my trials and for all of my experiences and I hope you can be aware of schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder. It has been about exactly a month of journaling and think this is a good time to end this first book.
Before I close this first book I would like to share a last poem and testimony…
God Hears Our Prayers
When you are weak
Seeking for the help you need
That prayer you're planting; it is a seed
It will begin to sprout as you nurture and water it
Yes, it will grow if you make it a habit
The joy you will find is beyond anything
You'll realize how God is your everything
He wants you to win, He desires your success
You'll see those miracles as you do your best
Don't give up and never surrender
Your major breakthrough is around the corner.
By Bradley J. Copeland
I know God answers prayer. Most of the time in the hospital prayer was all I had. I know that Jesus is the Christ and I know that He is the only begotten of the Father. I know that we are all beloved children of God and and I know that, that is the most important concept and truth to realize.
Thank you for taking the time to build awareness through reading my book. There will hopefully be more to come.
Much love,
Bradley J. Copeland
