14 Memories

Concurrently in Gemei's house, "Why the hell am I depressed now? Is it loneliness? I want to stop slicing my palm open with this godforsaken cutter, I mean why am I even doing this? However, all that blood running from my palm and onto the floor sure is beautiful. Every slice I take, the supposed pain I have to feel, nothing. I only feel its warmth, what even am I?"

Our hero was in his study sitting on a lone bench, watching the blood dripping. After a while, he decided to follow a droplet of blood which flowed toward his desk. There, something caught his eye. A dark black box which had 'Don't open' on it.

"Now this is something, I kept secrets from myself, very interesting." It was the box where he previously kept all the stuff he wrote. Amidst the pile of papers was a strange letter that stood out as it had fingerprints covered in blood all over. Reluctantly, he broke open the seal and read;

"Glimmers of hope from a faraway home, my memories are the only thing keeping me whole. Is such a life worth living? Cause as you see, I've started killing. Try as hard as I may to put my mind at ease, the screams come back to haunt me. Neither can I have a moment's peace nor rest. The devil has come to feast upon my grief. AHH!- I wonder if I should end it all? Uncertain, I've tried to brace my fall; alas such actions were no longer required as I've already fallen into despair.

Dear Autumn, my long lost love, I regret the things I've done, for it was my doing that you've gone missing. I wish that I could turn back time just so I can feel your warmth once again. Sadly now you're just a corpse which lies in the depth of hell. What should I do? Is this the end, will my aching heart never stop beating? With all my hopes up in flames should I just give in and burn alongside it?

Sophie, you beautiful lady, my one and only family, my vile action has caused your tragedy. A fallen angel was what I thought of you, but now everything's ruined. My hatred got in the way, I so wished I could cry over your name but fate has alas forbidden me to do so as I've lost the ability to feel pain. Raised by demons in the depths of hell, you were the one who showed me the way by flashing down a light straight from the heavens and into my life, the abyss. Said light was you lending me a hand so I could finally enjoy a moment's rest. Defiled by my anger for humans, I ended up dragging you down. Sophie, my fallen angel, what have you become? Falling from grace just to sully your faith over a weakling like me.

Death may now well be an escape from this awful reality. Sins on my hands are too much of a burden to bear. Dying may well be cowardly, but tis the only way I can attain peace. Time for me to take my leave, I'm sorry for all the suffering I've brought upon thy life."

After reading what appeared to be a suicide letter, Gemei's head began to turn upside down again, "Wait, WAIT! Who am I? Autumn, Sophie, Mei. Wait, the paper cutter did I really…. No, it can't be, what am I thinking…?STOP!"

"Oh Gemei…, I think it's time to let you true memories loose."

"Wait, no please little girl stop DON'T!"

It finally began, the struggle of the true against the fake self, "Kill or be killed, survive or die, hate not to love, end them all, people should die… Autumn is dead…Sophie is dead, I need to die. STOP IT! You're fake, the real Gemei is me and I would have never killed anyone. I don't despise the world, I love everyone and everything."

"So you think loving everyone makes you the real Gemei? Think again, you're fake. I'm the true Gemei, now GO AWAY! Hate is my way of life and nobody will ever change me. THAT'S NOT TRUE!" and everything went blank.

Few hours went by; Gemei was still in the study, doing nothing. It seemed as if time had stopped, the only thing moving and making a sound was his body, breathing, and living.

However, the realization of the truth brought in by the letter finally trickled down his thoughts and he finally broke. His mental state was sent into a frenzy, the multiple personalities and his unquenchable bloodlust were having a war inside himself. He could not keep it together any longer. All the pain, all the suffering, all the anger and all the hate he had bundled up inside thanks to Mei's help were being hanged by a single thread called his conscience. Still, even that was slowly being overrun, tears began to flow down his cheek all the while gritting his teeth in pure anger, his eyes were blood-red as if a demon had possessed him. His heart was also racing, no longer was blood flowing in his veins but it was pure anger, unrefined and wild. Due to the cuts in his left palm he self-inflicted earlier on, more blood began to flow onto the ground. He was a demon in human form, nothing could bind him anymore.

"I'VE HAD ENOUGH!"- Gemei screamed in utter anger, it was so loud that everyone within range of his house could have heard it.