Scarlet

In the little bar with dim light, a beautiful girl sit alone in the midle of row of chairs, her slender body laid down to a long table. Her right hand is playing a glass of wine, slowly rotate  it while her left hand support her head againts table.

Her beutiful face is slightly red, one can see how much she drink by pile of bottles beside her. She is clearly drunk, but her eyes become more and more clearer, there are curve in her enticing red lips, but no one can see any joy in them.

A sound of door open can be hear followed by a helpless yet spoiling voice of youngster.

"Scarlet, how can you be here? You already met him?"

The youngster has a tall body, his face is really beautiful with his phoenix eyes, but one will not find it girly at all, he look gentle but when he said "him" his body realesed a dangerous aura that one can not ignore.

The beautiful girl do not answer, her shiny eyes still focused at the glass in her hand, her jade like finger slightly taping the edge of the glass.

Seeing this, the youngster not talk anymore, he slowly walk over to the girl, he clean up the table and handed a glass of water to the girl.

"what happened?" finaly he can't help but asking.

Scarlet do not answer, she lifted her head but not looking at him, in her brain the scane that happening this evening keep replaying, trap her in that moment. His sharp and cold eyes that had never been fixed at her before, his unkind voice, and the naked alluring body of young girl in his bed keep pearcing her heart.

This evening Lyndel told her he saw him with another girl, but in this two years although she never said anything, she already know it all. How he play with another girl behind her, which girl and where they go, she know it all. But she never overthinking about it, because he always come back to her, he never go too far with those girl nor he ever let her go. But this evening when she come to his house, she heard something so embarrassing within his room, at that time her he brain has become static, she can not think anymore, her palm already red because her own nails, but she did not open the door, she could not.

She was so scared to face what will happen, so she did not open the door, while hang on the last moment he was still hers, she waiting in the living room with a cup of tea, to keep her palm save from her nails.

She did not know how long she had waited, but finaly someone come out from his room. But there was no other voice, waited half a day but still did not heard anything, she stand up and saw him stand with other girl in front of the door.

Scarlet observed the girl beside him, the girl look lovely and not seem like a bad girl.

At least he do not let me go because some random bitch. Scarlet though.

"I... I will leave first." The girl said with nervous expresion.

"No need, I Am the one who will leave." Scarlet said, and only god know how hard she tried to smile at that time, but she managed to smile sweetly, she did not want the last moment he saw her were her crying red swalowed eyes. Without waiting she tried to leave, because she did not know how long that smile could last.

"But..", "Let her leave, she never love me anyway." Scatlet tremble in front of the door when she heard that, she did not know how his expresion was nor she had any courage to see. So she just stand there with her back facing him.

"I am tired of this, let just break up." Scarlet's smile colapse when she hear that, but she still did not alow any tear to fall.

He let me go..  Scarlet.. Oh Scarlet for two years you keep him by your side seamlessly. Now is the time you stop being selfish, and let him go.

"Okay, lets break up." She try to speak as usual as posible before leaving without even once turned around.

She has know that this day will sooner or later come since two years ago, when she did not answer his question. She though because she know she will be okay, but it turn out she overestimate herself, she never been that strong.

"And he said I never love him anyway... Maybe if I say so, someday I will think so..." She said it softly but Lyndel can hear it clearly.

Scarlet dont say anything afterward, she do not touch the water Lyndel give, slowly drinking the red wine in her hand. Her sparkling eyes have already truned back to the glass of wine in her hand.

Lyndel face has already as dark as ink. He is an intelligent man, he already knows what was happened even just by one sentence from her. And it make him really mad, only god know how hard he restain himself from cursing that "piece of trash" who make her sad.

Scatlet is so important to him. She is like an apple in his eyes, pearl in his hand, and treasure in his heart. How could he swallow even a slightest harm to her?

But in the end, he feel so helpless when he saw her. If he can choose, he rather bear all the harm that fall upon her. But this is the outcome she want, the outcome from her selfishness. He can not really blame that piece of trash, but Lyndel never been a reasonable person, he still hate that piece of trash after all.

"Sigh... You know this will happen, honestly it is rather shocking you can swallow all his betrayal for two years. With your petty personality, I though you will never last at the first time that piece..... Ehem... He betray you."

Lyndel say helplessly

Hear that Scatlet smile sarcastically, "Inded, I wonder how can I swallow all of his betrayal?" She drink her wine in one gulp, a drop of red wine leave mark from corner of her red lips to her smooth chin. Red colour of wine make her white skin look more delicate and lovely but somehow enchanting.

"If this make you suffering, why dont you just tell him?" Lyndel really can't bear her being like this, he rather she crying, weeping, trow tantrum or do all of them all at the same time, at least he can confort her that way. Seeing her being so calm but suffer make he think something will happen, like she has planed something else, and it make him feel uneasy.

Scarlet still have a slight curve in her lips but she do not answer Lyndel question. Her though is wodering at somewhere else. Maybe because the effect of alcohol, her thought keep wodering around.

This time she is at a beautiful beach, she saw him in front of her, his handsome face look more enchanting with redish sunset light. Even though two years has passed, she still remember it so clearly.

His tender yet uneasy eyes, his hand that held hers thighly, it was so beautiful that she can't take her eyes away from him. He is hers, and she is his. She was so happy, but the thought of future make her head blank.

"Scarlet, I love you, lets get married." his firm yet uneasy voice make her heart so sweet yet sour. Can she answer him? With her condition?

Seeing her blank face, the man in front of her feel more uneasy. "Scarlet will you?" his voice become more soft and careful. But it make her heart more hurt, can she answer him? Can she lie?

"Vell, lets not talk about this matter." in the end she could only escape, she could not answer him nor she could lie.

"But... Why? Scarlet, I love you, do you?" her eyes grow more empty. This question, she could never answer him. With her condition who can die anytime, what right she have to say she love him? What right she have to be with him? She could only release her hand from his, and turned her gaze away.

"Scarlet?" his eyes full of disbelife and pain, and it's pain her more than anything. Only she knew how she wanted to answer him, how she wanted to hug him, how she wanted to cry in his embrance, how she wanted to told him everything and face the future together. But he will definitely do something reckless, and she could not bear to bet his life over, she could not bear to lose.

But please Vell, please forgive me from being selfish, forgive me that can't let you go. Please let me stay by your side. Until the day you dont want me anymore, I will shamelessly stay by your side.