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I don't wanna do this anymore, I thought to myself over and over. What's the point? I finally decided what I was going to do and this time, I wasn't going to back down.
I threw on some clothes and I quietly exited my room trying to make the least amount of sound possible because my roommates were still sleeping. I mean who else would be awake at 2:00 am?
As soon as I left my house I took a thirty minute walk to my destination, the bridge. As soon as I came to the railing, I sat down and slipped my legs through the bars so they were dangling over treacherous waters below.
I let a deep sigh exit my mouth as I thought about the memories I've made the past 20 years of my life. "This will solve everything." I quietly mumbled to myself. I knew this wouldn't solve shït but it made me feel a little bit better about doing what I've planned to do for months.
I was pushed to far and now, I cant seem to find my way back. I can't stop thinking about the night. How I lost myself.How lonely I felt. I can't seem to pick myself up, no matter how hard I try. My eyes started to Sting and a traitor tear slipped out of my eye before all hell broke lose.
I started to sob and weep as I thought about my parents would react when the police knocked at their door to tell them that their daughters body was recovered , that she killed herself. I started to curse myself for not writing a letter, it would probably be better if I don't. I don't want them to know.
I wiped my tears away and stood up. I stepped over the railing. "It's now or never. " I breathe out.
As I started to have doubts, I heard a deep voice frantically yell "DON'T!" I see a tall man running towards me. Before I could think, my hands were aching and tired of holding onto the railing, I fell. At that moment, I hated myself. This is probably my karma.
My body plunged into the icy water. My first instinct was to swim up and gather as much air into my lungs as possible but I don't. I let my body suffer. I feel my body start to violently shake as I involuntarily breathe in water. My eyes were starting to feel heavy and for once, I felt at peace.
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A sound awakens me. It sounded like a beeping machine, the sound bothered me quite a bit. What bothered me most was the face that my eyes felt so heavy. I couldn't even open them. After a while of trying to open my eyes, I finally succeeded. My eyes slowly open to a bright light above me as a looked up towards the ceiling. A groan escaped my mouth as I tried to gain awareness of my surroundings. "Hospital." I thought to myself.
As I look to my left, I see a handsome man sitting in one of those uncomfortable plastic chairs. I start to wander why he was next to me but then all of my memories flood back to me. I shut my eyes and try to think about the last thing that happened.
Water.
Anger.
Sadness.
Regret.
Lastly, hope. I had hope. Hope that enveloped me as I see him running towards me as I jump off of the bridge.I had hope that he would save me from the stupid decision that I did. I studied the stranger's handsome appearance. He had a tattoos that wrapped around his arms. He seemed to be wearing a suit, I thought to myself as I saw a grey blazer with a long coat off on the side onto another chair. He had black hair that was parted to the side. (Not to mention that it was one of my weakness when it comes to men). His face looked angelic, his face made my heart skip a beat. He looked perfect. Too perfect to be in this world.
I stopped admiring him when I realized how crazy my situation was. I finally came to reality. I almost killed myself. I made a permanent decision with a temporary problem. I sat up and looked around. As I got up I realized there was an IV that was hooked up to my arm. I started to remove the tape so that I could leave the room without having to lag around the stand. Before I could pull out the needle. A soft but deep voice spoke, "Don't remove it yet. We must wait for the nurse." His voice was gentle. He had a bit of an accent. I couldn't exactly place my finger on it, but I knew it was somewhere from Asia. "Korean maybe?" I thought to myself.
"Thank you." I mumbled. " For what?" He responded. "For everything, for saving me. I did something stupid and I'm glad I got a second chance." I tell him.I felt my eyes start to sting from the tears that were starting to form. I sit back on the bed and look down onto my lap. Embarrassed. Embarrassed that a stranger saw me at this low point in my life. He was silent for a while. Before speaking, " I want to keep contact with you.I don't want you to end up like this. I want to help you. I've been at this point in my life before and I understand how it feels to be at this point in your life." He lets a out a deep breath after he told me this. I could tell he was trying his best to not look upset but, he did until a tear left his eye. He quickly wiped it. "My name is Minseok." He tells me quietly. "Rowan." I tell him.
" I told the nurse that you were my girlfriend, so don't be confused if she mentions it, the doctor said you can be dispatched once you wake. While you were sleeping, the nurse put your clothes to dry." He tells me. After speaking, he hands me a pile of clothing. I walk to the bathroom dragging the IV stand along with me.
Once I was finished refreshing myself, I came to see Minseok talking to a nurse. Once she notices me, she makes a gesture for me to sit on the bed.Once I was seated, she removed my IV and told me was all set to go.
I'd be lying if I said I knew what was going on. I trailed after Minseok because I didnt know what else to do. We reached what I believe is his car, he opened the door for me and I got into the car. I put my seatbelt on and waited quietly.
After a while of driving, we reach a house that was looked really small and cozy. Minseok opened my door and I, once again trailed after him and we then entered his home.
I take my shoes off at the door and follow him into the kitchen. "Would you like something to eat?" Minseok asks quietly. "No thank you." I politely turn down the offer. "I'm a bit tired." I reaveal with a yawn at the end. I genuinely didnt care where I was, I just wanted to sleep. "You can sleep in my bed tonight.I will take you home tomorrow when you are fully rest and we will discuss some things." Minseok tells me.
After he shows me his room. I lay on the bed and I feel my eyes start to droop. I finally let them close. I feel, at peace. This stranger, I want him in my life. I don't want to be lonely anymore. I want to be cared for, I want to care for someone. Maybe, just maybe, he will be the one to turn my life around.
