Prologue

Saudade, pronounced sau-da-de, "to long for an absent something or someone that you love". This was something that was so profound to me, a single word that has the ability to carry so much weight and yet have so much underlying meanings. I'm stuck in between a place where I long for something more that no materialistic thing can satisfy and a person that once upon a time use to exist, but a feeling that I can't outrun is that I thought by gaining the world my inner being would be satisfied. Why is it that I still feel like a ghost of a person that's just living in an empty vessel that feels incomplete? Many would kill for what I have, but is it really all worth it to lose the person you once were to fit into the world of society? Like everything you work towards is still not good enough, the amount of money you have isn't good enough, the type of car or house you own isn't good enough, or even the person you end up falling in love with isn't good enough. There's always a bigger or better version of the "something" you have that you're always chasing, but yet it never seems to give you the satisfaction and joy that you're so desperately chasing in this world, something that would last you an eternity, something that would fill that empty void deep within your soul. Maybe? The answers to all those unanswered feelings cannot be found and filled by worldly possessions but something more, something more than a forever after, something more than the biggest house or fancy car, but maybe just maybe you'll find it all with a single step of "Faith".