4 Karma

I slightly winced as I watched Jody bandage my hands. He had washed them with anti bacterial alcohol prior to wrapping my hands.

He was silent as he did this, which is odd for Jody. Maybe it was just my clouded ears, which seemed to be getting just a bit better, I could make out words, it was almost like squinting your eyes to see, but I was focusing my ears to hear.

He gently wrapped the end of the paper on my wrist, tucking the end inside the already wrapped paper on my hand. Jody had never been one to be violent, although He's never been one to stop Jason's rampages

At least Jody still had his humanity.

I looked at my hands, scanning over his work, as always he seemed too good at fixing me up.

'He must be that used to this mess' my brain chimed in 'you don't think He's tired of cleaning up our blood?'

I metanlly scoffed, maybe she's right. He had a choice to clean me up, he had the freedom to choose to help me.. I wouldn't help me its a waste.

'He's tired of this shit'

'He'd happily watch us leave, one way or the other.'

I looked to Jody, he did seem tired. I could tell by the bags under his eyes and the look he was giving was bland, almost blank like he wasn't feeling any emotions whatsoever. I hated seeing him so drained.

'We made him like this. He can't stand to look at us.'

'Why are we still here?'

Jody caught me eyeing him. He sighed and looked to the untouched eggs and toast from yesterday and sighed again, louder and frustrated this time.

'Disappointing, you've never eaten a thing he's given you.'

He picked the plate up and looked at it, before looking at me. I felt the shame and guilt creep its way onto my face, almost like a toddlers reaction when they've gotten in trouble.

"Jade.." He said, giving me a disappointed look "If I make you something else tonight, will you actually eat it?"

'We'll need too if we want to run.'

I opened my eyes a little wider at that statement, when was this decision decided? I guess my brain was acting against me now too, not that she's ever been on my side. Only her own, whatever keeps her safe. But I guess shes also keeping me safe as well.

Jody noticed my eyes go wide. "Fine, if you don't want to eat, I won't make you. Just starve."

My eyes opened even wider, "No!" I shouted without even thinking twice, he turned around swiftly, a confused look sat on his face. "I-I do, I mean I-I'll eat, I'm sorry."

I shook my head anxiously at the words that just came out of my mouth. Jody nodded, a seemingly look of relief crossed his face.

"Okay." He nodded his head, "I'll be back down within an hour or so."

He headed back upstairs, locking the basement door behind him. I sighed out loud.

Will I actually run tonight?

'Fast and fucking far.'

'Only this time, we need a plan.'

I agreed mentally. We would need a plan. Getting out through the gutters was the easy part, I hoped. Getting to a safe spot was the hard part. Do I even know a safe spot to go?

'Karma, she's in the city.'

I thought on it, my older step sister Karma did live on the outskirts of Latittude city, it'd be easier to hide fro Jason in the country side as well.

'There, now we have our second step'

'Just wait till their sleeping. And were gone'

It seemed easy enough. Get out through the gutters, run to the city and find Karma.

But would she call Jason and send me back? No. I'll just tell her everything that he's done, and that I want to stay with her.

Seemed easy enough-

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard heavy steps coming down the stairs, Jody had only left about fifteen minutes ago and told me he'd be back in an hour which meant the only other person coming down would be Jason..

My heart quickend, I thought of hiding under the staircase, or between the washing machines, but if he found me I'd only make it worse on myself.

I sat there in solid fear, waiting in intecipation. I saw his raven hair when he rounded the corner, he reached the basement and looked to me.

He leaned in the door frame, a beer in one hand, the look on his face was dull, his eyes didnt look right, they seemed out of this world.

He stared at me for what seemed like hours, if I was cocky enough I would have stared back, but I know better than to do such a thing.

He smirked and let out a half laugh, "I see you, Jade." He came closer to me, wobbling as he did. I pushed myself against the wall, watching him as I hit my back on the cement surface.

'What did we do now?'

'What didn't we do?' I gave her an answer.

He was drunk and only wanted to beat us, he didnt need a reason.

"You broke my plate." He slurred out his words, "and I don't think you've been properly punished for doing so"

He crouched down in front of me, so we were eye level. He grabbed onto my hair and I flinched hard at the sudden contact. He ripped my head back so that I was looking up at him.

"And to me, Jadey, if you've broken something of mine.. I'll just have to break something of yours."

His breath smelled that of alcohol. His grip tightened on me which made me shake and he caught on.

Jason twisted his face in anger, he hadn't liked the fact that I shook. He started reaching for his belt.

"I'll give you something to be scared about!" He snarled. He threw me back down on the pile of clothes, releasing his tight grip on my hair.

"Shirt. Off." He ordered. I stayed still. I was on my hands and knees trying to focus on not crying. Jason was scary. "I said, take your fucking shirt off!" He snapped the belt behind me which made me flinch again.

I knew better than to disobey and so I slowly started taking my shirt off. Once it was off Jason immediately pushed my back down forcing my soft side on the ground, I was on my stomach. I clutched my shirt in my hand as the first hit came down; it burned like hell. I bit down on my shirt to prevent the screams that so desperately wanted to come out, I knew that if I screamed, cried or even moved then the beating would become worse.

Ten minutes must have passed before he finally stopped. He sat against the stairs with a cigarette in his mouth. I couldn't see him still being in my stomach, but I could smell the smoke and I could feel his eyes burning me as he watched me try to regain control of my breath.

"Maybe now you'll be a good girl and stop being such a clumsy mess."

I felt him get up, he came back over to me and got down on one knee.

"I know you do that shit on purpose."

He puffed his cigarette one last time before he found a spot on my back to put it out. I clenched my eyes shit at the stinging sensation.

"Next time.." He said taking the stairs, "it'll be worse than lashes and cigarette burns..."

And with that last statement he left me to deal with the pain that he had caused.

I heard the door open and close again, footsteps could be heard on the wooden steps, my mind raced thinking why he would be coming back, only until I had heard Jody's small gasp from where I layed still on my stomach.

He put a tray down which I had assumed was the food he had made for me. Then he kneeled down to my back probably thinking about how he was gonna fix these wounds.

He gently traced a finger over them causing me to slightly jump he retracted them quickly seeing that it hurt me.

'Can we leave now..?'

She was right. After all this, I didnt want to keep going threw it. Only to mess up doing absolutely nothing and have him right back hurting me again.

'Ask him to help us.'

I wasn't in my right state of mind, I was filled with emotion from the whipping and just wanted out. I would never have even thought to ask him for help.

"I'll go get the first ai-"

"No, Jody listen" I croaked the words out trying to move my body into a sitting position. His head snapped towards me confusion evident on his face. But he look at me as if to say he was listening.

'Ask him.'

"Jo-jody.." I was scared of the words about to come out of my mouth, scared of his reaction. "I.. I want to leave."

He shook his head in disbelief. "Don't be silly. I'll go get the kit, I'll be right back." He moved to get up and I felt a serge of anxiety shoot threw my core. He had to listen to me. How would I make him listen?

Then I thought of a dark truth he'd have to listen too.

"I'll kill myself if I don't escape!" He stopped in his tracks, I was sitting up right now staring at his back while he slowly turned around. "I don't want to be forced to live like this!"

His face hardened "your being selfish Jade! Jason loves you!"

I started crying, laughing a bit as I did. I felt incredibly insane. "If this is love," I choked on my tears while pointing to my back "then I don't want any of it. And I won't stop trying to kill myself if I have to be here another second, trapped with that asshole!"

His face softened and he looked to me with understanding. "Where would you go?" He asked sitting down cross legged in front of me.

"Karma's.." I let out softly. "I just need help getting out, getting there so that I can hide from him"

He nodded his head, trying to think. Looking a bit sad as he did.

"I'll help." He stated.

I think my heart threw up when he said those two words. I could have kissed him.

'He'll help!'