1 Flying In The Void

I open my eyes and see nothing but darkness before me. I try to move my head but it doesn't work. I can't move for some reason. I then tried to guess what happened before I came to this place with nothing but darkness. I couldn't exactly concentrate as if something was preventing me from thinking. I then tried to move my body starting with my hands and it worked. I took my hand before me as I could confirm if I could at least see and I luckily saw my hand. Rather it didn't look like one. It didn't really have a color as it was transparent. I wanted to see if this was really my hand or just a spiritual hand that couldn't do anything. I then tried to hit myself with my hand. I didn't know if I had a head or if it was also transparent. It just went through my head. I afterwards tried different places on my 'body' to see if I really had a spiritual body or not.

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I truly possess a spiritual body. I also discovered that the more I concentrate and ignore what is preventing me from thinking, the more likely it is that I will be able to think. I'm not sure how long I've been here, but I believe I've been here a long time. I didn't mind because all I wanted to know was what had happened to me.

I persisted in breaking through the barrier that was preventing me from thinking, and I eventually succeeded. I quickly began going through my memories, trying to figure out what had happened.

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Lucas Lloyd is my name. I am a 33-year-old man who has been living alone for nearly ten years since leaving my parents' home. I consider myself to be a lonely but hardworking individual who has a pessimistic outlook on life. I try to hide it, but I occasionally catch myself being a huge pessimist. I've been like this since childhood, so I've tried to live with it, even though it really gets to me sometimes when I'm being pessimistic. I started out as a more open-minded pessimist, but I soon realized that people would give their honest opinions about it and then just talk shit to me because of how negative I am.

I can't really help it as I am like this. I don't really want to change either as life can't always go the way you want even if life itself made you a happy person, there will be a time where you will think how bad life could be. I always thought I would be a lonely old man by the time I would have exceeded my age to marry a beautiful woman and maybe have kids in the future. I always thought life wouldn't give me a high paying job as if it didn't want me to be a wealthy person even though I worked pretty hard at school.

My luck itself is also pretty bad as I can't seem to win whenever I play the lottery. I once had a time where I had every number when the presenter said the last number. I lost which made me really frustrated.

Oh well, I had many unlucky moments. I just don't want to talk about it because of how bad they are.

Now continuing I just had my 34th birthday today. I was once again all alone in my little apartment and didn't celebrate anything as I didn't want my mood to worsen. I just went to the store to buy some alcohol and snacks to enjoy the day when I was born.

5 glasses of alcohol and 10 snacks should be enough for today. Can't be getting fat these days.

I took one snack since I was hungry and began eating it with a neutral face. Inwardly I thought it was pretty good considering this store didn't have many good snacks outside alcohol.

I started crossing the road and saw a beautiful woman. This captured me as I began staring at her. She seems to have noticed me and looked at me with a smile and winked at me.

Before I could continue to see her beautiful blonde hair flying with the air and her seductive yet beautiful red eyes, I saw a huge truck coming my way while honking.

'Oh, fuck'

That was the last thing I thought before I died.

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I suddenly remembered everything from the day I was born to when I died. I started to think about what to do now that I have already died. I didn't regret anything. It wasn't like that when I disappeared that they would search and begin worrying about my safety. I am someone who is easy to replace.

Sigh. Let's try to move first. If I can't even move then it's pointless to do anything and I'm starting to get bored from this endless void without anything to be seen.

I then started to think about ways to move. I first wanted my head to be able to move since I could see with it even though I have no head.

The same as before happened. I spent a while breaking through this barrier and eventually got through it to be able to see to my left and right.

To the right, there was nothing but darkness. I also spotted some objects flying but I didn't know what it was as it looked really weird so I gave up on it.

To the left was finally something. I saw a rainbow with many more colors on it than the one I used to know. I was confused as to why a rainbow was there. It looked weird and most of all suspicious.

I also saw something moving there. I tried to look closely which failed since I wasn't some supernatural being with eyesight that could go further than a huge city.

It was rather faint. The thing that was moving. It looked to be black or something so I couldn't really see since it was already dark around me.

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I could finally move my whole body. I've been 'flying' towards the rainbow for who knows how long but I can't seem to get closer. The more I fly towards it the more I feel it was further away.

I didn't give up though. It was my only chance to get away from this void as I didn't really want to stay in here and do nothing. That was way too boring.

And there has been something going on the moment I could move my whole body. Something sticky was sticking onto me as if it was feeding me. I never felt tired which I doubt I would feel since I can breathe here for some reason. I didn't mind it and let it do its thing. But now it was doing something weird.

It has been trying to get inside my spiritual body. I don't know if it's possible to get inside a spiritual body but it has been trying for so long now that it looked like it won't stop until it achieves what it wants.

It eventually worked and it went through my spiritual body. I didn't feel anything until the thing began giving me more of that energy but it was much denser and felt more comfortable since it was now directly giving it to me.

The sticky thing looked like it won't get off me anytime soon so I let it there and just appreciated its work for giving me this good feeling.

I've been flying for so long that I didn't bother how long it has been already and just tried to get closer to the rainbow that seemed so far away even though I've been traveling for so long.

I didn't give up and continued. The sticky thing also continued his thing so I didn't lose motivation.

I also noticed that I could experience pain when I wanted to touch myself again seeing how my spiritual body began to change color. Before it was grey with yellow in the middle but now it was blue with green in the middle. It has been changing ever since. I got a lot of colors already but I didn't really bother with it as I didn't know what it was.

But now that I look at it, it changed my whole body. My spiritual body began to fade away a bit as I see a bit of skin on it. Since right now my spiritual body was the color blue, I had blue skin which weirded me out a bit.

I quickly accepted it and just said that it will eventually change. I didn't linger around with it anymore and just continued my 'journey' towards the rainbow.

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I don't know how long it has been but I recovered my whole body. I got my whole skin back. The color was now red. Looked a bit creepy but yeah, I couldn't really do anything about it.

I also noticed that I've been growing something on my butt. It was something that was connected with my body and it also changed colors depending on what color it was. It was really short and it looked weird. I could control it for some reason. I just ignored it afterward thinking it was weird having this thing on my butt.

My senses also improved a lot. I could now smell. I tried it the first time and quickly shut my nose.

'What a foul stench!' I thought. It was almost like it was a house full of pigs and shit everywhere you went.

I tried to get familiar with it as I didn't want to hold my nose all the time. I tried but it won't work the stench is just too great.

My eyesight expanded to the point that I could finally see the thing that was moving every now and then. It was something extremely tall and had black everywhere and had a crown on its head that was completely bloodred. Creepy yet I was excited to meet this strange creature. His eyes were completely white as if he had no eyes. It had also an expressionless look on its face for who knows how long. Maybe that thing has no emotion?

There would also occasionally come a butler from a portal that was not far away from the mysterious man. I continued to look at them and they piqued my interest. I want to meet them! I want to explore this void that seemingly went endlessly!

It seems like I've changed. I now wanted to explore and meet mysterious people as time went by. I don't know if this is a good or bad thing but we will see eventually.

The portal also seemed something mysterious as it was moving from inside. It was completely purple and the portal itself was black with mouths on it. It looked disgusting.

I noticed that I've been getting closer to the rainbow ever since my body began to grow. I could also touch my body now and it felt really good touching my own body. It was smooth yet it looked quite healthy, thinking how I am even staying this healthy from doing nothing then flying in this huge void.

My other two senses weren't working as I couldn't hear anything so I assumed it didn't work and I didn't have anything to taste so I just gave up on them both for maybe later on.

Maybe if I meet that mysterious being I might get to use my ears and mouth!