1 Chapter One: Bad Things

<<Song: Liquor- Chris Brown>>

I looked out the side of my eye seeing a boy staring at me or maybe it was the skin tight black mini dress I had on cut up my thigh.

I'm going through so much at home...this is what solves my problems. Drinking...

My husband, Blake, always promised me happiness.

Years ago I wouldn't be able to believe this.

It would seem as some type of propaganda.

Nobody, actually would expect this from us.

But Hey! thats the way life goes...

I've had about 5 different drinks. Plus my friends took me with them and they're now nowhere to be found.

The bar! I'm so pathetic. This is the third time this week.

I'm just sad.

I feel resentful, hurt, in pain.

But I'm Ciara Antonio, I have everything except what I wanted the most a child.

I have everything a modeling career.

Every womans dream husband.

Money.

Fame.

This is the cause of my so sudden acrimony and pain.

But two miscarriages can fuck up your beliefs and your marriage.

When really it was because I saved Blake's life.

I felt body heat from another person as they sat beside me I looked up seeing the boy that had been staring at me.

I'd be a hypocrite to say I wasn't staring back. He's so fine. I laughed mentally, which caused a smirk against my lips.

I looked to the side seeing the blonde haired boy who had now went blurry to my vision.

He then said "Hi beautiful"

I then said "Hey"

Then he said grabbing my chin "Why do you look so sad?"

I shook my head my hair falling into my face as I looked over seeing the bartender gave me another drink and then I said "No. I don't want any..anymore"

Then he said "Your friend paid for it" he said motioning his head toward the blonde haired boy who was still sitting beside me.

Blondie was wasted and so was I.

Perfect match!

Next thing I knew I was in his car and then at his house. He started to kiss me again and again.

Then he attacked my neck leaving love bites and slid my underwear off and he pulled the dress down and off starting to push his length into me.

Then we made it to the bed.

I'm so wrong for this. But he's doing everything so right.

Fuck!

*Morning

I woke up beside a blonde haired boy and I couldn't think straight because my head was thumping. My hips and below were sore.

Then I slid my heels and dress on grabbing my belongings as the boy woke up. Then he said "You okay?"

I nodded and said "Where am I?"

Then he said "In my house"

I then mumbled "No shit sherlock"

Then he said "Chill out baby girl. You weren't mumbling anything last night."

I then parted my mouth and started to walk out of his house and he said "Can I take you home?"

"No"

"Why?"

"Because"

"Because what?"

"I said so"

"Can I get your number?"

"No"

"I just want to make sure you get home safe. Gotdamn"

"Whatever" I said handing him my phone.

He put his number in and I went outside calling a uber and the uber came picking me up and I got dropped off at my house.

Then I walked in knowing my husband Blake is going to kill me.

I walked in seeing him pacing around by the front door when he saw me, he yelled at me "Where the fuck have you been?"

I then said "I was with Kehlani." I said lying through my teeth.

He laughed sarcastically saying "Funny thing is she said you weren't there last night, and before you give me the bullshit about you being with Ariana and Nicki remember they're out the country"

I then said "Oh...I was with my grandma"

He then said "Your fucking lying. Your lying to my face."

He then walked up to me and grabbed my face and moved my hair seeing a huge hickey and he said "What the hell is that on your neck?"

I then said "I burned myself with the flat iron yesterday"

He then huffed and then said "Really? You know what if your going to lie to me like this don't fucking even bother yourself with me"

I then walked towards him as he backed up and he yelled "Ciara I'm not playing with you go somewhere"

He turned going into the kitchen and I said "I told you I was with my grandma"

"I don't believe that shit, Ciara"

Then he grabbed a glass filling it with alcohol, then I tried to still talk to him and he finished the drink throwing the glass on the floor causing it to burst into what looked like a million pieces.

I flinched as my eyes started to tear up. Blake doesn't realize how scary he can be at times when he's mad.

I ran upstairs looking in the mirror. I was a mess my hair was fringed, my clothes off looking, and makeup smeared everywhere.

I took off my dress and heels getting into the shower.

I stood there for a minute leaning against the wall, as the glass started to fog up I started to wash the makeup from my pores and tried to wipe the awful I had done away.

I finished getting out and the door opened. Blake was standing there and I continued to change and dry off. Then he started saying "Ciara -"

I cut him off saying "Just. Just forget about it. I-it won't happen again"

Then he walked out of the bathroom and then my phone dinged and I saw it said "Sean💦😈"

I then opened my phone then changed his name to Sean and then saw the text message said "Hey beautiful"

I then replied saying "Why are you texting me?"

Sean:When can I see you again?

Me:Never

Sean:Why?

Me:I had a drunk mistake

Sean:You weren't saying all that before

Me:Whatever.

Sean:😘💕😈

I locked my phone and then went to my bedroom hiding my phone going to sleep. I felt arms wrap around me. Making me flinch.