29 29. Ryukai Izanagi

"There are only three people besides me who know my name" he step closer and now he was on top of the bed, caging me. I felt the mountain force pushing me firm on the bed.

"These two were already dead and the third one, couldnt leave her place. I do not care for a game and you better give me a proper reason, or you will die here, right now"

"I..." I didn't know how to explain it to him without arousing more questions. Question that I dare not explore and get its answer.

"I will explain but give me your oath that you will let me leave this place after I explain it to you" I said in rush. The more I stay here, the more my heart ache. And its freaking me out. Real bad.

I am panicking as this never happened to me before. I knew then, if he showed me his face right now.. I would cry and hug him, which is insane. Why would I do that? He's a stranger. Dangerous and he just threatened me.

"I think you don't understand your own predicament here. You don't get to bargain"

"I do, if you want to know who plot against your devil bride" I blurted it out. That made him stopped. And the mountain force that was crushing me eased a little bit.

"Speak"

"Vow to me first. Make it binding"

"I, Ryuki Izanagi, hereby vow that I will let you leave this place once you had truthfully tell me how did you acquire my name and about my wife. If i break it, i will suffer the consequences." each word spoken, made him glow brighter until the energy glow that surround him wrapped into a small orb that levitate between us and disperse.

"Now speak"

I open my mouth to tell him the tale of what I seen in my dreams.

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"How can you be sure it was me?"

"You are the master of this house. Though I cant see your face, but that attitude of yours is still the same."

He touch his mask as if he was going to take it off. I quickly push his face away. I was really scared. I dont want a foreign feeling that is not mine seep into me.

"Please. I already told you about my dreams. So, now can I Go?"

"One more question."

"What?"

"Why do you dream about us?"

"How the heck should I know? Maybe I got some weird power that made me see some part of memories that aren't mine" I quickly push him then, and flip off the blanket away. I scoot over the edge of the bed and stood up.

I did my q&a with him. It is time to live this place. I am sure the longer I stay here, the more I'll see. As I walk away, he didn't say anything.

I ran to the gate of the house but just as I passed by it, he appeared in front of me.

"Yuikumi izanagi" that made my heart beat fast. Listening to that name from his lips made me oddly breathless.

"That is her name. And do you know something?" I look up at his towering build, finding a set of black eyes staring at me. My five feet three height completely overshadowed and dwarfed by his six feet something height.

"What?" I croaked slightly, really afraid to know.

He took off his mask and I quickly look down.

"You told me you will let me leave. You gave me your oath."

"And I had fulfilled it. You are out from the house."

"Do you know Yui have half soul? Her soul is unique, you see. Very unique that I am sure why that bastard want her dead."

Suddenly a hand strike to my chest, it went inside between my breast. I was really shocked. There's no blood or wound what so ever, but I had felt something tugged inside of me. I can feel him touching something inside of me and I shuddered.

"I should've done this earlier" he said in slow whisper. I forgot about how I shouldn't look at him and slowly let my eyes rest on him.

His pained gaze settled on me and God... if that didn't do something to me. His smile was bitter, but that black eyes that slowly turning to silverly glow look at me with anguish, longing and cautious.

"You are Yuikumi izanagi but in the same time, you're not." He closed his eyes and he sighed out loud.

"because of your soul attributes.. your soul found another half piece of soul and reattach it together with you."

He look at me back. "You are a mixed between a new and old soul..."

"Which is why you are fighting these emotion that are flowing inside of you.. you missed me but you dont. You love me but you wont.. you want to stay but part of you want to be free.. tell me, my dear wife... should I let you go after wandering in this life for three centuries without you? Will you ask me that after secretly facing your enemies without sharing your burden to me, your husband and then end up leaving me alone? Would you leave me again?"

He look at me straight. I felt a huge gaping hole inside of me, aching and sorrow invade my heart. It was so painful that it was hard to breathe. The last time i had felt this was when i lose both my parents in an accident. It had felt like my soul was torn apart, pieces by pieces. I thought i was dying from the pain of sorrow. How fucked up is this?

"Look at me,yui and tell me... will you leave me again?"

"I am not yui. I am kia" I know its a moot point. I could deny it as much as I want but those memories... and the confirmation from him..

"I do not love you" I said finally. Sure, I feel a sort of longing and sorrow but I am me. I do not hold any special feeling on him. What I had was just fragments of memories and I was like a stranger staring from outside the bubble of memories, watching it scene by scene.

"Then you will leave me?" He asked again, this time it came out in a broken whisper. it was so unbelievable to see a man that was full of confidence and coldness was reduce to this.

Again I felt like someone stab my heart. I am really bad handling broken people.. or anyone in need.. which is why I had help Winston in the first place. He look so helpless.. and I had what it takes to help him.

Just as I suspected, as soon as I saw his face, familiar face, part of me want to hold him and embrace him. The last flash of his face as she breathe her last, was one that she regret the most. She would trade anything just to make him smile again... that was the last lingering thought of her... and now, he had that same look on him again...

"If I am indeed part of her and I am part of me.. it is ridiculous if you asked me to assume to be her wholeheartedly.. I can't be your wife but in the same time I cant seem to be part of you..."

"Let's... just be friend?"

He look at me and I can see he was weighting this out really hard. Then he nodded.

"Let's start over again then"

"You see.. I am not the same person as your wife... and if you choose to leave me later, tell me. We can part away then"

He open his mouth And then close it again as if against it. Whatever he was going to say, he didn't say it out loud. Instead just nodded.