15 Ivan, my love..

Vladimir Lenin is the man who killed my family.. It was King George V who signed our death warrant when he gave us false hope that he would rescue us.. He withdrew his offer the last minute, making it impossible to plan our next move.

He stabbed papa right at the heart. Papa loved and trusted him so much.. but it was never reciprocated. He betrayed us and will pay for what he did. That's what I wanted to do and I told the Kaiser all about it.

Kaiser: Your grandmama Dagmar is the sister of the King's mother Alexandra. The former Emoress Dagmar will surely go to England to seek refuge anytime now. You must use that advantage to keep your enemies closer. Remember, they are all your enemies.. not jus the King but each and everyone of them.

Me: I will avenge my family.. They will pay.. I will put an end to their dynasty like they did to mine.. They will suffer.

Kaiser: Or claim Alexei's throne back using the British' influence, wealth and connections. Think hard and clear my child.. Just play the game right and you will get what you desire. Do not make the same mistakes like I did. I was hot tempered, impulsive, quick to judge and I allowed my emotions to rule me instead of me filling over it. Be calm, decisive, cunning and always look at the bigger picture.

Me: We share the same enemy your Majesty. How do you want me to repay you if I succeeded?

Kaiser: Just don't forget me, your Uncle Willy.. no matter what. Rest now my children, tomorrow you will leave and board a ship to England. I will make sure that you and the young Tsar will have everything you need for the voyage is long and hard..

Me: And Ivan? He saved my life.. Can he come with us?

Kaiser: Oh my dear child.. How will I tell you.. he was captured by spies and executed while he was waiting for you. One of the red guards noticed him. My imperial guard tried to defend him but he was shot too.

And with that, my heart broke into thousand pieces once again.. The man who gave me the reason to live and fight for my brother is gone.. I didn't even had the chance to say goodbye or to tell him that I am falling in love..

I almost fainted at the same spot where I was standing.. The Kaiser managed to catch me with his one functioning arm and reminded me to stay focus, be numb and survive.. Survive for my brother and his future..