2 chapter 1

I'm Mamoru in my previous life, I was killed by self claim God and forced to be reborn in this world to be an emperor but things didn't go as I was told.

The first time before I was even born I was killed inside the stomach, for the second I was poisoned even I have a poison detection, but I couldn't do anything because I was only 6 months old and I couldn't speak or run every time I die I got reborn but I have never able to survive more than one year I even got a skill to call mental stabilization without this skill I probably have gone mad.

after keep dying multiple times, the god of this world realise something was wrong with me.

after all, how can the same person keep dying even before one year of his life?

after a god of this world understand what is happening to me, my rebirth was stopped after that we had a very long chat.

I learned about lots of things like that self claim God is is an existence that is created by multiple fragments of God and she is the most unstable god.

she has the power of multiple God but most of her powers are negative effects.

to kill me in my previous life, she give me the blessing of death which led to my death in my previous life.

even when I was born in this world there was a small amount of blessing attached to my soul the result was, I got killed so many times I can't even count.

after learning about what is happening to me I ask them to immediately help I seriously want to go to hell.

amount of suffering and torture, I have been it will make hell look like heaven.

I was rejected because this world doesn't have a hell, one top of even that self-claimed god does have real power.

she had used her power to make my soul keep reborn in this world till I complete my task.

to stop me from being reborn they have to use their power to stop this world time.

because if they don't do this there is a chance babies start being born without a soul because of her power and because people know about the god in this world there is a chance people's might use this as an excuse to start a holy war.

after a long discussion, it was decided God of this world will use their power to help me so I don't die at least for 5-10 years.

as God they can't always focus on only one person, that's why I was given a short time but at least my life was guaranteed for the first five years.

during that five years, they will also talk with that fake goddess and try to fix this problem.

after a properly born in this world in my first year there was little celebration in a royal castle

when I was just born there was an attempt to assassinate the entire royal family, my both parents die I almost got it killed.

I have already confirmed with god if there is any relation between my parent's death with mine, I was told originally they don't suppose to have a child even if they don't me they would still be killed.

I had a very complicated emotion should I be happy or be sad for they are a dad.

I have died so many times I don't understand what type of emotion should I have.