3 STRENGTH

Much as I stood my ground never to go back to my vomit, I still feel the urge to, especially when you are new in a love affair and to your first.

His persistent calls and text messages got the vulnerable part of me I must say, my self-therapy almost left me.

I took a stand in church activities to forget the thought of sex and relationship, choir rehearsals, night vigils, and so on. The feelings were stronger each day I get to read some text messages of his, claiming to be sorry over everything.

At some point, I saw reasons with him and so I accepted to see him in an open environment with my friends, we got talking and indeed he felt guilty over his act, my friends were insisting on accepting him.

I won't lie to say that I did think of his romance and all his gullible antics on me that I fancied, so I accepted to visit him at his condo the next day. I was so happy to have spoken and mended issues with him. For some reason my mind wasn't stable with the whole plan even though my body was ready for every action, he got to give knowing how long I have stayed without such. Hmmm, just 3 months oooo and am yearning like a dog who needs a bone.

I woke up with so much enthusiasm on how the day would look like, my roommate was shocked to see the happiness in me, at first she was thinking I won't succumb to her advice but then what can I say to a heart that has gotten so engulfed with love towards this guy.

I hate myself for this single move but my mind was already sinking deep.

As I walked down to his condo, I felt the urge of going back but I insisted. My mind was playing games with me either way, I tried knocking on the door when I heard a male voice from inside his apartment, the voice sounded like Nonso his close friend, he was laughing out loud, I kept wondering why but I chose to eavesdrop to hear more about his jokes before going in.

"Guy! Do you warn chop her run again"? He said.

"No ooh!! That's not what I meant, what am saying is that this girl's father hold die if I can get her pregnant she can go an extra mile for me, I will use her to get more money from her dad".

"But wait for ooo," Nonso interrupted, " how will you do that"?.

"See!, when she comes, I would reign praises on her, then she would become vulnerable to me after which I would penetrate and seal the deal."

"Are you planning on getting her pregnant?

No oo! But if it happens is a plus for me, but I plan to do a video of her to get more money from her parents her and she would become my stocked girlfriend, so each time she does anyhow I would threaten to blackmail her with the video".

"Wow!!! My guy, that is bad too, don't you think she doesn't deserve all of this"?.

I felt the hotness of the sun inside the building, my feet were shaking, thought of badging in to confront him but no. At that point, I knew that I was dealing with a Con man.

All the feelings I had with him died immediately, my inner strength awakened, I felt the air of relief.