16 ABSCOND

"Mum, please don’t say that, I don’t want to get into a relationship where I would get myself injured again. You know how I knew him."

"Joanne, I just don’t want you to give birth to this child out of wedlock, I want it to be in a matrimonial home and not otherwise".

My mum left almost immediately after she said those rigid words to me, I just feel like running away from them; first it was Desmond trying to advice me on how to take care of myself and the one in my womb, now my mum wants me to get settled with Desmond.

I wonder if they know the emotional trauma am going through in all of this, but then again I do want to listen but not to commit myself into what I don’t feel would yield any interest whatsoever.

I ponder over all the issues placed before me, wondering what it would be like settling with Desmond, but I don’t feel nothing for him, I have accepted my shame and move on, why would I stock myself up with another.