11 CHAPTER 11

We stared at each other for a moment as if time had just stopped. Finally, Reynadi wiped the tears from his eyes and brushed my hand away.

"I-I was just getting too carried away…sorry."

"A-ah... it doesn't matter, I can also subconsciously feel it."

The atmosphere suddenly became awkward. Could it be that he was worried because I saw him crying? Men are just like that, right?

"Nad—"

"Y-you don't have to worry about that, I'll keep my mouth shut, okay?"

I don't know what's funny, but what is clear now is that Reynadi laughed amused after hearing what I said.

"What is so funny?"

"You can talk seriously, really unexpected," he replied with a chuckle.

It has been destroyed, apparently the impression that sticks in his memory is only that Denada is half crazy.

"Huh... it's useless. I'm serious, even though I'm really worried."

"Sorry, I was just surprised earlier... come on, carry on."

Reynadi taught me very painstakingly guiding me, he didn't even get tired even though I kept making mistakes.

I don't know how long it's been, but it sure seems like a while since the sky was already dark.

"Let's just finish it for today," he said, tidying up the sheet music.

"It's still fun though."

"Why don't you practice at home? Adjust it to the musical instrument you have."

The question makes me sad, if only it could be like that, maybe I'm good at it now.

"I don't have a musical instrument at home, mom doesn't like me playing music anymore."

"Why?"

"Who knows."

He didn't ask again, instead he was busy tidying up the guitar he was carrying.

"Rey, do you have any musical instruments at home?"

Reynadi who was with his back to me didn't answer, he was still busy with his guitar.

"Ray...."

He still didn't answer. Gosh, Reynadi was so severe that a cute girl like me was taken.

"Let's go home," he said after he finished packing.

"Gosh, I still want to talk... how about that."

"Yes, why?"

Does he not want to answer my question earlier? Okay, then better the next question.

"Did you have a sweet dream last night?" I tease.

He smiled faintly. "No."

"Well... it should be a sweet dream, you know."

"Are you sure your photo can bring you sweet dreams?"

"Sure, 1000%. I'll send it back later, try to see with feeling, it must work."

He chuckled amusedly, better like that than seeing him cry. "Okay, then... what else do you want to talk about?"

"No."

"Alright, come on. It's getting late, it's not good if you come home too late."

As usual, he will wear his earphones. Can't we talk while taking a little walk on our way home? However, there are still many things I want to speak to him about.

He didn't retake the elevator, apparently it was because of me. We walked together but seemed to be on different paths, he was only focused on his steps while I was thinking of ways to get closer to him.

Something caught my attention. A small hanger in the shape of an antique-looking Grand piano. It's beautiful, but somehow I feel familiar.

Arriving at the Campus gate, he stopped. "We part here," he said.

"Don't say goodbye, just say . . . until we meet again, I see," I protested.

He smiled faintly. "Yes, see you later."

He walked away again, leaving me still staring at him.

"See you tomorrow!"

He didn't look back and kept walking, he looked serious. One day, I'll make you unable to look away when you look at me ... wait.

***

I lay down on the bed to unwind after a long day of activities. The touch of Reynadi's fingers was still warm, for some reason I liked it so much.

When I think about it, of the many handsome men I know, only he can drive me crazy like now. I usually would secretly admire it, but Reynadi seemed to force me to pursue her at all costs.

I used to think this was just an obsession, but it felt like it was more than that. I don't know, I'm just an amateur in terms of love, how can I answer this complicated thing alone.

When I was in high school, I once tried to make love, but the relationship only lasted 12 hours because of Rafi. It was dark times, that's why I was mad at him.

I grabbed my cell phone. I sent him a short message and didn't forget to attach one of the prettiest selfies for him.

[Prove it, it must be a sweet dream...]

He immediately read it, but what made me so happy was not playing because now he was preparing to reply to a message.

[If it doesn't work, I print it and keep it on the ceiling.]

[Why does it have to be on the ceiling? So that you can continue to look at it when you go to sleep?]

[Not... to scare mice.]

Damn, he could be joking apparently. Argh ... I'm exasperated, I better try to contact him.

However, Reynadi immediately rejected the phone call from me. Is he busy? It seems fun to spend the night talking over the phone.

[Just chat, don't call.]

[Why?]

[Just chat… okay?]

It looks like he's swamped, but thankfully he still wants to take the time to reply to my messages.

We exchanged messages for a long time, but mostly he replied only briefly. In the end, he didn't answer.

[Rey...sleep already, huh?]

I waited for 10 minutes but Rey didn't reply, it seemed that she was already asleep.

I closed my eyes too, hoping the nightmare wouldn't come back tonight. I'm exhausted, so I want to rest completely tonight. If I may ask, present Reynadi tonight in my dreams, God...

***

Is it a dream? Right... it's a dream.

Where am I now? It's so beautiful ... the vast expanse of gardens and the cool air. I looked around, there were only old buildings but they looked attractive to the eye.

A little boy stared blankly at the big tree, but from the look on his face, I could tell he was crying.

My body seemed to move by itself, I approached the girl and wiped her tears.

"Don't cry..." she whispered.

Gosh, I was shocked when I realized my body was getting smaller too, maybe we were the same age. Then, I spoke spontaneously just like that.

The girl stared at me intently. "Nada..." she whispered as she hugged me.

I don't understand what emotional feelings I'm feeling right now. I am well aware that this is just a dream, but I think the tightness of holding back the pain that I feel right now feels natural.

"What's your name?"

"I?"

"Yes, you."

"Who knows ...."

Instantly the girl got up and my dream seemed to run fast and messy. It was like watching a video accelerated to the maximum speed that I couldn't understand what I had just seen.

Everything stopped in a familiar place. I'm annoyed, why should I come back to this place?

"Play... fast!" he snapped at me.

My body was shaking violently, but strangely my hands moved spontaneously to dance on the piano keys. Tears flowed automatically as the game played, I don't know what symphony I played.

"Play ... beautifully," he whispered as he stroked my hair, but when one of the notes I was playing sounded out of place, the hand grabbed my hair and dragged me somewhere.

"Aaarrrggghgg...!"

Gosh... damn dream. I looked at the clock on the wall, it was already 3 in the morning. Going back to sleep wasn't the right choice, I was so scared... really.

I hurriedly got up to get a glass of water in the kitchen, feeling thirsty after another fight with nightmares.

Actually, why does this dream keep repeating itself?

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