1 Worser then i tought

I hope i'll figure it out

i don't like to play a part i like to be myself when i talk

You see that right now! Don't you? The truth is written in blood

We say we don't believe in god but we still beg for him to clean or mess

When we were young and called crazy we cried and now when someone says it were like hell yeah

I said i better change my sinking thoughts before they pull me under to drown out everything i got it feels good not to care and oh sometimes i believe i can make the change good gof are you feeling the same way

I wanne kill you so bad mother never ever say to me that i can't lay my shoes on the cough i will slit your throat and you brother you can seriously drown in your own blood and sister never tell me to set my music off or softer okay because i will let you eat your own brother and mother

Sometimes the world is not fear and people will tell you just live with it

Why am i saying sorry for things that make me happy or laugh whahaha

Why are you so far away from me even the sun is closer

Ey you, yes you why you looking so fucking beautiful

Some people will say you have to choose but those people are the ones you should never choose understand little kido

I don't fucking know mate if i know i would have said something but idk mann

Why are some people sooo smart yet sooo stupid

I'm fucking bored that's why i'm writing this sentence

I hate when we are told to do something we don't wanne do its like you don't know me if im not happy i will cry and if i cry i will get depressed and then i wanne kill myslef so bitch please let me go away with my friends because you don't want to get me killed do you

Why do i capture you on the roof with me fighting but eventually i win and push you off and i keep staring at you while you fall to your death and spleather in blood am i insane or just normal for thinking this i need a docter to tell me that but yeah afvourse if i tell them they are gonne get me away from my friends or family i don't wanne hurt them i never thought about it i lie a lot and im sorry for that but thats just me so if you cant deal with it sorry but bye

I don't wanne be alive and you don't know how it's killing me inside