7 Being a outcast hurts

It's going great right now im crying again i think i might have bipolar cause of how i feel im happy and then suddenly im crying out of nowhere and sometimes i even get so mad i wanne slam something its just a lot of feelings and idk how to feel anynore so im feeling them suddenly at times sometimes the good time sometimes the wrong time .

They said always that the kids from now are depressed why do you think that? Everything is handed to us when we were young we were always winners but now that we have to look out for our own work for money have so much stress if we gonne succeed or not cause life isn't handed to us all the money isn't handed to us we gotte do this on our own and most people can't handle that and are not fine most hide it but the truth is were all afraid of not succedjng we all wanne be the best sometimes and when ur all low and already are at the point of a no then we give uo cause we already think we're not gonne get it its hard to go on cause were so lazy and we can do something but were just to lazy to do something about it so unmotivated were all gonne die anyways why try your best when all your doing is growing old and die.