The mysterious circumstances.

{AN: Made a discord server with the help of my friend, here is the link:

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Don't worry I will also post the link in the comments session.}

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"When you have nothing, what there is to lose?"

That sentence could easily be a brief explanation of my condition right now. I've lost everyone that loved or cared about me, my father, my mother, my best friend. Everything was taken from me in the most unforgiving way. Death.

Death is something complicated, for me at least. I already died once, and it was relatively painless, I simply died in my sleep. But my first death wasn't my end like I thought, no it was simply the beginning of my new life. My new life was good, very good, I literally had the opportunity to redo everything with my older minded maturity and experiences, I thought it would be a breeze. I was wrong.

I expected my new parents would die, death is something natural its part of life, I wouldn't mind if they died naturally of old age, but they were killed, they were murdered. And so I avenged them. I changed myself for power and for the progression of my objectives. First, it was my resolve, I was a simple ordinary person in my past life, yeah I had my rage problems, and yeah I blamed myself for my first parent's death, but I was average, thus I never thought I would have to take a life.

It was strange... taking a life... when I read those in books, or when I saw those impressive videos of the SWAT or the soldiers in action, it always appeared so easy, I always thought it would be easy. But I guess that is just a matter of different mindsets and preparation, my first kill was by accident, so it felt way more impactful than it should, while a soldier that trained and prepared himself for a moment like that would fare way better. That doesn't mean they don't feel anything tho, soldiers and nightmares walk side by side.

Then there was the second time I killed, the massacre. I hated that moment, I was lost in myself, so lost in my bloodlust, so lost in my primal instincts. It was like I was in a half-sleeping state, my mind wasn't clear, and if wasn't by my [Sharingan] I may have missed some parts of it. Committing an act like that massacre was something extremely alien to me, I've read cultivator doing that multiple times in those xianxia novels, but I never really thought deeply about it.

But then it happened to me, it was something I did and now I had to live with that. I not afraid to admit I developed a mild case of PTSD, when I was in crowded places I suddenly would see flashes of bodies and blood, sleep was difficult, flashes of the night keep happening. And for the first time, I somehow had mixed feelings about my [Sharingan], it engraved everything I saw in my mind, and that is good and bad at the same time.

But thankfully I was able to steel my resolve and push through my trauma, and that was probably the first sign of how strong my [Spirit] could be. The fact that most people I killed that night were scumbags and criminals also helped.

Then the bus terrorist attack happened, and I finally killed from my own volition, from my own choice. That incident taught me a bunch of things, but the one thing that stuck with me the most is that the choice is something extremely important. When I killed by my resolve alone I didn't break down nor faltered, I just acted. It's a scary feeling to know that multiple trained killers also reached the same conclusion and the same resolve, the resolve to bot kill and be killed. Yeah, going to kill someone you need to be prepared to be killed too, that is one of the most basic things.

And after the mess in the bus, my next kill was Subordinate. That kill dispense any afterthought, the guy was going to kill or capture me and in no way in hell, I was going to bend over and let him do it.

After that was my rampage, and I killed a lot of people during my rampage. And when I say I killed a lot, I really mean it. But finally, I was able to kill Kaiser, the perpetrator of a lot of my suffering in this new life. It felt great, it felt fantastic, it felt liberating, and whatever tells you that vengeance is not worth it, is full of shit.

Sadly after killing Kaiser I died? at least I think so. I certainly wouldn't mind it, to be honest, I don't have much to live for anyway. The phrase at the start really rings with me, I don't have anything anymore, so why should I fear losing anything? So when the sweet embrace of darkness took hold over my conscious I didn't panic, I didn't get flustered, I didn't despair, I simply opened my metaphorical arms and welcomed an old friend.

I didn't expect to return.

Death normally was the ending, I am a living exception of that, but that is what this second chance is an "exception", so I didn't expect to receive a third one.

But it appears that Mrs. Fate has something different planned for my destiny, and I do hate it already.

I expected the first thing I would feel would be pain, excruciating pain to be more exact. I wasn't exactly gentle with my body before, and I am pretty sure I was in a pretty irreversible condition that not even a [Divine Dan] could heal.

But I was pretty surprised that the first thing I felt was bloated. yeah, bloated, that strange feeling you have when you eat way past your comfortable limits and then continue eating even when the reflex of putting food into your mouth makes you want to puke. At that time you are so full, and I mean so full, that you honestly barely can move. It's an extremely weird and unpleasant feeling, principally because you know something like that can easily make you sick in the stomach.

I was feeling like that, but instead of it being concentrated on my stomach it was like my whole body was absolutely bloated, like it has an extreme excess of something. This full-body bloated feeling is something extremely worrisome because if my guess is right, this is a prelude to more grave consequences. maybe next I will bleed from the ears, eyes, and mouth or maybe even explode due to excess.

So I did the only thing I thought could work, I cycled my [Black Heaven and Earth Technique]... and almost faltered due to sheer surprise, but thanks to my control over myself I was able to reign myself in and continued with the cycles of the [Black Heaven and Earth Technique] normally.

Normally being used very loosely here. I distinctly remember being in the [Third step] of [Ki Control] before my rampage, so my surprise is comprehensible when I started circulating the [Black Heaven and Earth Technique] and saw that my [Ki Channels] are enlarged meaning I've long since finished the [Forth Step].

My [Ki Channels] being enlarged was indeed a pretty big surprise, but not big enough to warrant my reaction. No, what I was surprised about was how big they were enlarged. If I compare my [Ki Channels] with Chun-Woo one of the strongest people I know, mine is literally 10x times larger. Yep, my [Ki Channels] have been enlarged to 10x times the normal. And that is something fantastic, it means that I can move [Ki] inside of my body 10x times easier, and consequently also be able to host 10x more [Ki] than before.

This strangely big enlargement of my [Ki Channels] is probably a side effect of using [Fury] at such a high intensity for such a long time. The purple flames probably flooded my body, including my [Ki Channels] and as the purple flames are in no way gentle they probably enlarged my [Ki Channels] forcefully, which normally should've resulted in death. But a lot of things I did on my rampage should've resulted in my death, so when I appeared totally healed like I am right now this enlargement didn't surprise me very much. But that still doesn't explain why I am feeling bloated, shouldn't it be the opposite, with my [Ki Channels] 10x bigger I should be feeling the opposite of bloated.

Yeah... But there is that... thing... That minor detail... I probably ate and digested a [Divine Dan], which probably explains this massive gargantuan [Ki] reserves I have right now. I may be only an [Expert], but I don't doubt I have enough [Ki] to reach the [Beyond] rank. Normally I would need to pass through all the ranking, from [Expert] to [Master] then to [Advanced Master] then [Real Master], and only then finally rank [Beyond]. That would technically be the normal path, but I have never been normal, have I?

The easiest way of reaching the [beyond] rank right now for me is undergoing a [Overhaul Rebirth]. If you have forgotten [Overhaul Rebirth] is a medical phenomenon where excessive Ki inside a body rearranges the bone structure and organs, with that my body would be the best vessel for cultivating, besides a bunch of other minor benefits like; feeling lighter, enhanced, and more sensitive five senses, my [Ki] will become stronger, faster and more "free".

And seeing how [Ki] is literally overflowing on my body right now I don't doubt the possibilities of I undergoing the [Overhaul Rebirth]. But if I want that to happen I would need to put my body under a lot of stress and pressure, something I don't want to do right now as I didn't even open my eyes yet and have absolutely no idea of where the hell I am. So I simply continued cycling the [Black Heaven and Earth Technique] to at least reduce that uncomfortable bloated feeling, I know it probably won't go away until I undergo the [Overhaul Rebirth].

With this little bit of breathing room my [Black Heaven and Earth Technique] provided. I could finally access my situation without feeling I will explode at any second.

I honestly don't really know if I should continue living, if I go by my feelings right now I will simply lay here where I am and die. I don't really have a reason to live anymore, after all, it would be really simple to do it you know, I just have to stop cycling my technique and *puff* I should probably explode in few moments. But that-

"Why don't you try living for yourself a bit... Friend."(???).

Suddenly a strange [Telephatic] message is played on my head, the voice is calm and serene like something you would expect a buddha to have. I would have been absolutely freaking out at the possibility of someone tampering with my mind, but my gut tells me I can trust this voice. And while that normally wouldn't be enough to garner my trust, I don't exactly care if I die right now.