1 Died?

Picture yourself standing or should i say floating in the air...

Fuck That.

I don't even have a body or anything, I only have my thoughts and the longer I spend in this weird space the more It confuses my mind. I think I'm starting to forget so here it goes , How did I end up in this situation? I Died is the simple answer.

So how did i died?

Well every story has a starting point and my start was my birth. I was lucky enough to be born in a well-off family with loving parents and siblings , and I think I spend all my luck only on those factors because even though Lived fifteenth full years with out much care, my luck run out when my body started to "freeze" that was what i called at the time, but later was told that I had Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (also known as ALS, Lou Gehrig's disease, or motor neuron disease). Turns out that there is no cure for it and 80% of people with ALS die within 2-5 years of diagnosis. So like I said my life took a turn for the worse when i was on my prime of my youth.Oh yeah before i forget my name is or was Luke, Luke fox and i was the youngest of three kids. My family Was small with only My grandparents , my parents , my big brother Alex and older sister Claire. My family owned a company that Alex was taking over as he finished college with the help of my already lawyer sister. And the role that i played on that perfect "plan" that my parents craft out was that i would be a doctor as i really did not fit on the plan and i was okay with that. But as fate would have it i did not even get to finish high school as i was losing control of my body.

After i was told i had ALS my parents to home school me, so i spend most of my time at home. My family decided to spend more time with me than usual , trying to create memories,taking pictures and so on. During the first year as i had more time plus my high IQ i finished all my high school material and altogether decided to halt school work as I came in terms with my self that i was dying and better do staff to enjoy the little time i had. My family tried to act normal like me losing the ability to walk was normal, and i also tried to keep the act together.

I think they knew that i was hurting that i was desperate as my very cheerful self started to reject them as i felt scared since death was getting close to me. During the rest of my time alive i read many books like the Harry Potter Series and Mythologies books, Fantasy books..... well any book that interested me and i also watched movies to past time as i lost my ability to move altogether one of my favourite movies was the Godfather , i didn't know and still don't know why i was so fascinated by the story.

Eventually I started having problems breathing. My personality had totally changed in those four and a half years , I was more cold and mature than the usual 19 years old and it certainly did not help that i pushed everyone away. One night woke up and could not fall asleep again and when morning came and my family came for their daily visits, I cried, i wanted to tell them that i was sorry that i didn't want to die. That I was scared.

The look on their faces when they saw me cry, the sock and the despair as i closed my eyes for the last time. I think they were saying something but i could not make the works as i was feeling a cold but pleasant force over my body, and i felt at peace. My last thoughts were "Sorry mom & Dad for being a bad son and leaving so soon " .... "I wish.....""How cool were the books I read about magic.....How magical .....like how my body feels...."

And that is how i ended on this weird space that does not know time, because i clearly don't know how much time i had spend here and i'm seriously starting to lose my mind!