2 Chapter 1

Now I was in the corner of the canteen, observing him. I must have reasons to hate (dislikes) him, right? So here I am, observing him and listing down the reasons why I should stop liking him.

Reasons To Hate Him

1. Too many girl friends. ( will just hurt me )

2. Smiling too much. ( might get diabetes )

3. Too social able. ( I have difficulty in socializing )

4. Attractive enough that lots of girls were his admires ( out of my league )

5. Too kind ( often made people misunderstood, included me )

6. Smart as heck ( ridiculous )

7. Tall as heck ( I'm short af )

8. Cute ( ok you can stop here )

As I finished read what have I listed, I doubt I just listed reasons to hate him. It sounds more like reasons to hate myself cuz I'll never can get over him :)

"Just what the heck am I doing? This just won't do it. I'm wasting my times." I closed my notebook and put it aside. I smashed my face on the table and pull my hair a bit out of frustration.

"Hey. What're you doing here alone? You're sick or what?" Kevin asked me.

I did not expecting him to come to me so I was a bit taken aback and quickly straighten my back and pulled my notebook closer. At least out of his reach! Even though I didn't write any of his name in it, I would still freak out if he ever read this notebook. It was about him after all, no guarantee he will not realise it was about him.

"Oh hey, Kevin. What're you doing here though? Haha." I replied him with a slight haha to make it looks casual. I don't know to lying but i hope it's not obvious.

"Oh, I noticed you're here alone and not eating so I thought you're sick or something. So I came to check you out."

Okay, nice. He didn't notice that I'm lying. Guess I'm getting better at lying now hoho.

"Aw that's nice of you. But you can see that I'm totally fine. You can continued what you're about to do just now. There's nothing to worry about hahaha" I really don't want to be with him any longer. It makes me sick to keep acting like I'm fine around him as a friend when I'm hoping for more than this.

"Okay then. See you later, Tia" he bid me a goodbye and joined his friends again.

Kevin's Pov

"Did she sick or what?" my friend, Adam asked me.

"Nope, she said she wasn't sick but i can still see that she's not her usual self." I poured my thoughts to him.

"Well, even though I'm not really close with her like you do can see that she's not acting like her usual self today." said Adam and patted my shoulder.

"But don't worry too much lol. Don't girls always had their bad days once in a month? Maybe that's the case for her too. Now let's get going to the class. Dean and others are waiting for us."

"Yeah, I guess." I smiled awkwardly at him.

While walking to the classroom, I still can't stop worrying about her since I'm aware of her 'time' of month so I'm pretty sure she already had that 'time' for this month. That's why I can't stop thinking about what's the plausible reasons happened to her behaving like that.

I might sounds like a creep if I said that out loud. I'm not even her boyfriend of family to know such things but of course no one knows this secret. She's my crush. I wanted to know everything about her and I wanted to be someone she can rely on. Even though she'll never know that I likes her, it's fine. I didn't plan on confessing either cause she seems to only see me as a good friend. I don't want to ruins our friendship. Even my close friends doesn't know about this.

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