3 the crybaby of fake society

I am currently in the guest room provided by the kingdom. Judging from the furniture placed in this room, it seems like we, the so-called heroes, are given special rooms. But unfortunately, I am not touched by any of the privileges they have given me. It's just a mere facade, I feel like I'm being licked by a dog asking to be pampered.

I am lying on a luxurious bed that has been prepared. The bed is very soft, I could fall asleep in just a few seconds. Maybe I am also tired of the sudden situation that has befallen me.

Actually, I don't feel like this is a calamity, I even feel like it would be enjoyable to embark on an adventure in this world with others. That is, if they are willing to embark on an adventure with someone like me.

I also don't think much about my family in my previous world. Because I'm sure they can still laugh even if I am not there to disturb them. Or maybe they are celebrating the party because I am gone.

Well... Although I doubt that would happen. Because my family has never shown any signs of being fed up with my presence. Although deep down, that is the reason that makes me feel uncomfortable at home. I feel more free in this world, leaving my past behind.

It seems like I am running away...

Unconsciously, I sink deeper into negative thoughts and start crying for no reason, feeling sorry for myself who appears fragile and weak. I finally cover my face with my right arm, wiping away the traces of tears that have flowed from my eyes.

"Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha," I laugh, mocking myself for realizing that I am not someone special.

I am nobody, just a useless human who feels like the most pitiful person in the world. Crying over trivial matters and feeling confused after doing so.

"Why am I shedding these useless tears from my rotten eyes..."

Not long after the senseless cry, one of the palace maid knocks on the door from outside and informs me that dinner preparations are ready.

I, who have no intention of moving, immediately inform the servant that I am sick and just want to rest. He believes my lie and quickly leaves from outside my room.

I currently don't have time for small talk with anyone. Right now, I just want to be alone and think about what I am actually doing.

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2 hours have passed and the dinner session should have ended by now.

Ray is sound asleep, mentally exhausted from constantly thinking negatively about his life.

He slowly wakes up because he needs to use the bathroom, and he gets up from his bed to go to the bathroom.

Ray wanders around the palace, but he can't find a bathroom anywhere. Until he reaches a quite long corridor, he sees a maid with orange hair walking towards him.

Due to the unbearable urge to urinate, he finally disregards everything and asks for help from that maid.

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I am currently in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror for no particular reason.

Earlier, I asked for help from a girl just because I didn't know the location of the bathroom. I didn't care about my dignity as a man, no... From the beginning, I couldn't care about my dignity when I was in a desperate situation. I didn't care if the girl laughed at me or anything like that.

Well, from the beginning... Do I even have enough self-worth to be protected?

But for now, I just have to go out and thank the girl.

I step out of the bathroom and see a maid with orange hair and purple eyes waiting for me.

"Thank you... Uh..."

"Melissa... My name is Melissa, sir."

"Oh, yes, Melissa... Thank you very much. If you weren't here, I might have been in big trouble."

I continue to smile and express my gratitude to her. I keep smiling at her even though my smile is just a fake smile.

Honestly, I feel sick doing things that go against my personality. But it is necessary so that I am not excluded from society. Because society will not accept someone who rejects the majority, and being polite is the majority that I mean right now.

That's how human life is, when someone has a lower value than the majority... They will be punished. Take me, for example, someone who has nothing in my life. Even my own personal experiences have proven that the life I have lived is very harsh.

But on the other hand, when someone has a higher value than the majority... They will also be punished to. Take, for example, the most popular guy in my class... Also the person I hate the most. Because of his handsome face, he is pursued by women and often gets into trouble with women who are close to him. I even realize that he has now limited the people he can consider as friends. Because most women see him as a man they want to prey on.

In conclusion, living in society is a barrier that serves as a marker to live without heavy problems.

I know that the factors that can make someone's life difficult are not only based on their value. But I can say that this is one important thing that needs to be learned to live in society.

therefore... I just had to do it, it doesn't matter if it's just a fake. This is how you survive in the society. And also, This is why... I hate society.

I decided to follow the maid named Melissa because of the promise I made to her when I asked for her help. She knows that I am a hero, and she also realizes that I didn't join the dinner because of being sick. She finally decided to take me to the dining room to serve me food to eat.

I follow her from behind her petite figure. I wonder why there is a teenage girl working as a maid in this palace. Does this kingdom not have schools like in my old world? I am curious about the reason why Melissa is working at such a young age.

Or maybe it's just her appearance that looks young? I want to ask Melissa about her age, but I stop myself... Because I know it would be impolite.

Upon arriving at the dining room, it turns out to be different than what am i imagined. Everyone is still sitting there, the table is still full of people. But strangely, it is too quiet for a dinner event.

As I carefully observes, i realizes that no one in the room is moving at all.

While i is still confused about what is happening, suddenly red liquid starts to flow slowly into my shoes.