58 Chapter 51: Connecting Feelings; This is Just the Beginning

[This is when Fina asked Ciel a question, before stumbling upon the hiding Fleur.]

[Fina's POV]

Fina: "… Do you like her?"

There! I asked him! My heart is about to explode any moment now, but I successfully asked him!

Be at ease, my heart…!!

Uu… That's a life's worth of courage there… What more if I try to confess now…?

… Now…

What's your answer…?

Ciel: "I do. I so like her."

…

He… does.

He likes Fleur.

That's… a spoken fact now…

Yohan, no…

Ciel likes Fleur.

… I see.

Ciel: "I'm not sure if this is love I feel or if I only see her as my little sister. But, I'd rather have her than see any other guy take her. Mmm, no. I think I do love her."

Ciel straightened his back and faced me. I can't look at him in the face for some reason…

Fina: "… H-Hmmm… I see."

Just as I thought… *sigh*

I guess…

I was too late, huh? I took hold of this untold feelings for quite too long, and here I am...

Ahaha… This sucks… Looks like, there will be a lot of crying later... Ahaha...

But… I wonder why…

It's really weird. I feel like if it's Fleur, it's okay. I've been feeling that weird feeling ever since we got out of the ants' den.

I feel at ease with Fleur. And it runs deeper than that…

I think...

If it's Fleur, then I'll be fine.

If it's Fleur, I can feel at ease and move on.

I mean, looking back… At least, I've done my best, haven't I? Ahaha… I've been holding on this feeling for about 22 years now… Clingy much? Aha… Ahaha…

But… I guess that's over now.

Ciel: "Jealous?"

…!!

Fina: "Wha-?! Do you understand what you're saying?! Wh-Who is getting jealous?? I-I haven't said anything about loving you or anything, right???"

What is this guy saying?? G-Geez… Just when I am just trying to come in terms with it…! Let me savor the feeling of a broken heart, will you??

Well… It's much better than crying, I guess…

Ciel: "You don't…?"

D-Don't look at me like an abandoned puppy...!!

Fina: 'Th-That's-… Uh-… You-…"

Ciel: "Hm?"

Ciel closed in his face to me and grinned.

It's obvious that he's having a kick out of this…! Is he playing with me??? Is he trying to crush this broken heart of mine…??

… But... Thinking about it, I didn't get rejected… right…?

… Muuuu…

If I have already come this way, then I don't care anymore! I'll do it properly and get rejected!

Ahhh! Really!!

Fina: "I-I love you!! Okay?? I do! Happy?!"

... There goes my dream confession... Muu...

Ciel: "Mhm. I know."

Responding with those simple words, Ciel grabbed my hands and pushed me against the wall. Lifting my chin with his fingers…

He…

Fina: "Mmhh…?!"

It was all so sudden, I couldn't follow everything with my eyes. The moment I realize things, Ciel's face is already less than an inch away from mine. And with a beat of my heart, everything else became non-relevant, with only the sensation of his lips pressed against mine remaining in my mind.

… He kissed me.

Eh?

He kissed me.

… Eh?

He kissed me… He kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me, he kissed me…!!

HE'S KISSING ME.

Fina: "Mmnhm… *kiss* Ahhm…!! Mn… *chp* Mnahh… Wha-… *pant* Wh-What are you suddenly doing…! I-Idiohan!! *pant*"

Pulling away, I feel drawn to the sensation on my lips that was there just a second ago. I brushed my fingers over my lips to confirm the feeling... It was warm, spreading all over my body like an electric current.

Why is he kissing me out of nowhere after telling me he likes Fleur…?? Wait… Hold on… My mind can't keep up with this… And my brain feels like it got frozen from the kiss…

…. His lips felt so soft…

No! That's not it!

… His face was so close to mine…

That's not it, too!!

Get ahold of yourself, Fina…! Think! I hate thinking, but think!!

I… I asked him if he likes Fleur… It's a bit vague, but he thinks so. He likes Fleur… Then he asked me if I was jealous… Then because of embarrassment and utter disbelief of him teasing me even though he knows nothing of how I feel…

… Wait… He knows nothing of what I feel?

That's not it…

Ciel: "I've long realized that you love me."

Fina: "… Eh?! S-Since when…?"

Ciel: "Hmmm… A few months after we met again in high school?"

What??

Fina: "That's almost since the beginning!!"

Ciel: "Oh. So you loved me even back when were in grade school?"

Fina: "…! Th-That's…"

Still feeling his fingers tangled with mine, I feel his other hand brush over my cheek. Because of how the heat gathered in my cheeks and how nervous I am right now, his hands felt colder than usual…

Ciel: "What a lucky guy I am, I see."

Saying that, I feel like his gaze went towards the entrance to the mine, as if he's saying those words to me and to whatever he had took a glance at.

Ciel: "Just as you always say, I am an idiot. But that was before, not realizing what was in front of me. A coward, if you may."

Fina: "I-Idiohan… Idiohan…! You're really an idiot, Yohan…! Why now… Why now of all times…??"

I mean… Didn't he just say that he likes Fleur…??

What, is this a last kiss or something?? Something for me to remember him by?!? What the heck is with that??? I don't need something like that if he never meant it in the first place!!

Ciel: "… Don't make that face."

Fina: "Then wh-what's with the kiss…?! Don't do that if you don't really mean it!!"

I can't face him because of how embarrassed I am, I just stared at the ground to my right. I can feel the tears forming in my eyes as I try to repress the surging emotions…

My heart is about to burst off my mouth, I bet he can already hear it…!

Ciel: "I mean it. I'm expressing my love."

Stop smiling. You look really cool, darn it… Muu…

Fina: "… Yeah, right. You were just saying how you like Fleur…"

Pouting, I gripped the hand that's holding mine, trying to induce pain. Not realizing it, I was already gripping his clothes with the other.

Ciel: "Yeah. And I'm telling you, I love you too. Can't I love you both? I can, let me tell you."

Fina: "H-Hmph… Y-You're just saying that because you heard me say it first."

I'm sure he's just being considerate of me and is trying to comfort me with a lie…

I just… How can I be even more happy than meeting him…?? I feel like this is all just a dream…! Him confessing his love to me?? That's just a fiction in my head yesterday!!

And now he's telling me the exact same words that I wanted to hear…?

Muu… I'm so happy, I could die…

I just… I just can't believe it…!

Ciel: "… I've loved you since we were a child. Though you can say it's just some puppy love, I was really devastated when you left for transfer. And meeting you again, I know I shouldn't, and I'm still an idiot then, denying everything. But… I still love you then."

That's…

… A lot has happened after all… I understand.

That 'incident' really made it all the more difficult to express our feelings to each other.

Fina: "… B-But…"

Ciel: "Still can't believe me?"

Saying that, I felt his lips on mine once again. But this time, he pressed even harder, making me certainly feel that he's wanting me…

… Muuu… This idiot… Stop making me even more happier…!

Fina: "Mmnhaah… S-So you're saying you'll take us both as yours?"

Ciel: "Exactly. Well… I wanted to tell you first. Kind of… Confirming things? A-Ahaha…"

Don't chicken out now, Idiohan…

*sigh*

Fina: "… It's fine. I know it's weird of me to say this, but… I feel like it's okay if it' Fleur. That's what I even thought when I thought you were already rejecting me for Fleur."

Ciel: "What?! How can I reject such a cute girl as you?!?! I'd rather die!!"

Don't get surprised like you just witness the end of the world!!

… *sigh* I think I have to get used to this overly honest side of him now… Well…? Not like I'm not happy? … Ehehehe…

Fina: " … Muu… Do you really love me?"

I looked up, greeted by his ever so gentle smile. I rarely see this smile back in our world, but now… It's so close to me.

Ciel: "I do. I love you. I promise I'll make up for those years I wasted being an idiot."

Fina: "It's fine… Just knowing now that you love me."

Can someone pinch my cheeks please? I'll definitely hate it if this turns out to be just a dream.

*pinch*

Fina: "Ow-!"

Suddenly, I feel a pinch on my cheeks.

Ciel: "You're not dreaming. Ahaha. You're just so easy to read, you know?"

Muu... It's just to you, Idiohan…

Fina: "… Haah... I'm so happy…"

Ciel: "I'm exploding with happiness, let me tell you."

Ah- That slipped out of my mouth…

Fina: "H-Hmph! Better be! You've got to have a cute girlfriend like me, after a- Mmnnhh?!"

Let me finish what I'm saying at least before you kiss me, Idiohan!!

… Ahh… I love him so much…

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[Fleur's POV]

Fina: "And like that, I've decided to tell you, that… Now it's your turn! Hyahaha~"

Fleur: "… Eh…?"

Hold on a moment… I am still trying to catch up and process the story…

I place my hand over my forehead and think.

Fina confessed to Master. And because Master loves Fina, he accepted her love and they became a couple. That is a happy occasion, and I want to support them too. It may be somewhat lonely, but I want to believe Master's words that he will not leave me.

That thought was made completely sure after Fina expressed her thoughts to me.

Fleur: "And now you are saying that I should confess as well?"

Fina: "Yup!"

… A-Am I just being paranoid for thinking about their world's rules? Am I the one being weird here…?? I mean, even I myself have only encountered personally a relationship of two. And it is certainly not that I am against the idea, but…

Fleur: "Are you really certain that it is fine? He will be loving another girl, you know?"

… Though I said those words myself, I felt the heat ran towards my cheeks from the embarrassment…

Fina: "I told you. If it's you, I'm okay with it. Rather, I just want to love and be love by him. I trust him that he will love me equally, if anything. Hyaha~"

… Aha… Ahaha… I suppose, I am the weird one, worrying about pointless things…

[Author's Note: Fleur. Your worries are on point. We just have a weird couple.]

Fina: "That and…"

Hm?

Fina: "I have been in love with him for already 22 years now. Can you believe that?? Hyahaha~"

Saying that, she placed her hand over her chest, as if she is trying to confirm a feeling inside her chest."

Fina: "I… I've held on to this feeling even without a way to express them. Without even knowing if I will be able to express them at all. I feel like… My love for him had already transcended a life time, I love him all the more. Hehe~ If I can just love him and shower him with this pent up love… I'm more than happy. That's why… how can I worry about such trivial things, now that I know that he loves me back? *giggle*"

Fleur: "Fina…"

Love, I see…

Fina really loves Master. Even after reincarnating, she still got to meet him and expressed her love. Waiting was not even in her thoughts. She just loves him every day… Until one day, it is the time to express those feelings.

A true love…

And now… That love made her trust him even more.

I… I feel like I have known a little about their relationship…

That is why, I… want to know.

I…

Fleur: "I want to love Master just like you, Fina."

I want this love to grow, just like how Fina loves Master.

Fina: "Of course, you can! We'll love him both, he'll drown in it! Hyahaha~"

Really… What was I worried about, I wonder? I feel foolish for negatively brooding over those meaningless things.

Master… And now comes Fina… How much will you two make me want to live a happy life until you both are satisfied? *giggle*

Fleur: "Fina… Thank you."

Fina: "Say that until you confess to him. Hehe~"

Fleur: "Uu…"

Th-There is still that, I see…

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Chapter End