Re-Creator: Chronicles of the Dark Magician

I never believe in the so called "LIFE AFTER DEATH" bullshit everyone preaching, giving people false hopes that they may live a better life after the bad fate they were living today. But here I am hoping there really is such a thing or at least I wish I could really believe in it, "the Life after death or in reincarnation" or whatever it is that may give me even a little kind of comfort at this moment. It was really a scary thing to watch your self die slowly disintegrating into nothingness, the bright lights surrounding me as my limbs turning into dust and slowly fading, I can't feel pain anymore as my mind started to feel numb. Ha! In every thing that I want to do I always fail, why am I so unlucky? I just want to live a free life is it so bad to ask for?! Now even this shity port is failing to do it's job? Im fucked! When did all of this start? Ahhh... yeah it was the year 2012 when people claim the world will end! That is when all of this never-ending calamity started. I guess the world really did ended that year...