Silent outbreaks

Just to react on such a short and quick impulse at first time, Jay's league of people is a handful and really difficult to discover.

They have this amazing ability to merge well amongst the crowd but totally cut off from social life. Only those who manage and learn to survive, dare to know what they actually are. Just normal born human...with a different mind overpowering their own. An alter ego, which can't takeover the body but suppresses the mind.

They never have control over themselves and only undertaking extreme measure can help them cure...…which never come by!

Triggered by incidents which doesn't have any connection and suit to their life or tastes, and end up just like Jay. Too early for her age to undergo this. She, being another exception for her kind. No one can predict what can calm them.

In most cases, either they lose their mind without a remedy or the measure turn out to be really shocking. Being that their deepest dark desire, they long for the impossible. It's always different in individual's situation.

But in majority situation......

They end up committing suicide, rather than living through the torture. The ones strong willed enough, can fight it through.

Unlike Jay…...

She ends up summoning her stronger mind even at the littlest confrontation. Her paranoia, even more severe, stretching to level of hallucinations. Not for her untamed will power and being a recent timer, she won't even have the touch to hold on. She really did well till the time, though her mind blows were treacherous more than the others of her kind.

.................

Arthur wasn't at home.

Chris was busy doing some chores in the kitchen.

It was fortunate that he always made Jay and Arthur carry a spare key whenever they leave. Even to put it in the keyhole, she had to struggle a lot. Her patience and endurance had run out already.

Thousands of needles were running apart her brain. She beat her heart to stop it from irregular beating. When it beat fast, Jay was getting excited and gasped for air. As it slowed down, her mind was taking over. Things appeared abstract to her, her vision playing tricks. Cold sweat dropped from her forehead even in Mid-Autumn.

As she managed to enter somehow, she immediately tripped over and tumbled upon a vase. It crashed down with a loud noise!!!

Chris rushed out of the kitchen. Jay fell behind the sofa.

"Are you okay Jay?", he started approaching her, "Why are you in such a hurry??", he said bending over the broken pieces. No reply came from her side.

"Don't come over here, there are glass pieces everywhere", he warned. Still without a reply, he turned back worried and curious. Did she hurt herself?

Jay was getting up, her back facing him. She stood straight with her hand on the sofa and brushing herself. She didn't seem injured.

Chris sighed and started collecting the pieces, "Why did you trip?". But when he turned his face back again, Jay was already gone! Only steps through the stairs and the closing of the door of her room came in to his ears.

.........

I closed the door behind me and avoided a close call serious collapse on the floor. I'm unable to walk anymore. I even considered giving up the attempt of crawling.

I lay on the cold floor, curling up like a cotton mass, clawing my heart by the skin so tight to rip them off my flesh and insides. The nerves on the back of my palm and my throat side felt like they were toned blue and protruding out as if they'll burst out. I felt as if scarabs were sucking the blood in my brain dry!

I have no voice left to utter a whisper!!!

But whom even to call for?

Who can help me... but myself on this???

This is obviously not something for a hospital ...….

Just, I need a remedy from his suffocation.

- Yes, you need a release.

- You!!!

- Do you need it?

- I....

- Answer me!!!

- Please...else I'll die

- Don't worry, you won't. The start is always brutal.

- It's killing me.

"Even if you cough blood, even if you tear your flesh out, your body turns cold or your heartbeat stops...you still won't die. You'll just feel like you are dying. That's a fate!!!".

- Help me...... stop it

- I can't....

- Why?

- But you can!

- How?

- That...you will have to decide for the moment.

- I'll have to decide???

That's right. I'm still in control of my body. I can put an end to this. I just need to figure how.

It feels as if acid was running down my veins, not blood. And if I don't die by this…...I don't wat else more frightening can kill me. It's trapped within me, it's stuck. If I don't let it out I'll die!

I'll just have to let it out…...that's right! That's the release!!!

I'll have retrieved an opening for it to let free!!!

An exit!!!

- You're going the right way Jay....!

..............

2 hours later, Chris almost missed by a second to rush Jay in an emergency because he was paralyzed for 10 minutes to discover her in her room, lying lifeless on the floor. Her wrist and other body parts profusely bleeding, drenched blades everywhere around her, not a hint of mercy on each cut as forced and deep as it could be!!!!!