1 Sepanx Surrender

"Glaiza... I have loved you since the first moment I saw you... Glaizaaa..." Rhian murmured in her sleep. She was tossing and turning all night and now she awoken to the thud of her own butt hitting the cozy floor of her attic turned bed space and hamster lair.

"Shit!" Rhian uttered as she willed her body to stand and face the mirror. "Not bad.." She thought. Rhian had supermodel good looks, thanks to the good genes she got from her British dad and Filipina mom. That's why it was easy for her to conquer the seemingly impenetrable showbiz world of the Philippines, well, also thanks in part to her relatives themselves being well connected in the industry. She just won some silly online poll about being the most beautiful face in the country, for crying out loud. Well, admittedly it was mainly due to the fact that she just starred, and slay-ed mind you, in the role of a confused bisexual who finally shacked it up with her hot ass lesbian lover in the end. The Rich Man's Daughter (TRMD for cool short) was to be considered a success, no matter what some camps say, and one of the most provocative breakthroughs in the traditionally homophobic Philippine or maybe even Asian prime-time television. Or maybe the new generation just really like looking at hot gay couples feeling it with each other, thanks to the Larry and Camren phenomenon. People are easily bored and constantly look for something new to get their adrenaline and oxytocin fix.

Her lesbian lover in the show, by the way, was Glaiza. Yes, the ridiculously hot and talented weirdo Glaiza de Castro. She played the role of Althea, who helped Jade (Rhian) in her journey of self discovery and realization that she definitely preferred scuba diving wit da ladies instead of horseback riding with men.. It was ironic though, her role as Jade portrayed her as so completely disoriented and confused with her true sexual calling to the point that the audience would wanna join in the soap opera's slapfest against the protagonist just to juggle her dead ass brain and make her fight for who she was. But not Rhian in real life. Oh, she knows what she wants and who she is, alright. Her first girlfriend in high school was a cheerleader. A hip-shaking, skirt swaying, girl cheerleader. Puppy love and off the record of course, but those were fun times, she was free to do anything, attributing to the fact that she had the most understanding and hip mom in the world. Heck, even her grandma gave her some signs of approval in subtext through a story about some former First Lady in the White House who secretly wrote love letters to another woman under the nose of the busy president.

Yes, fun times alright. But good things come to an end, or at least need to take the backstage sometimes. Her very funny and supportive Uncle, Ronnie Henares who had connections in one of the biggest TV station in the country, GMA-7, as well as press clubs, got her a modelling gig which lead to her first big break in a fastfood commercial.

"You don't have to do anything tiring, Whiwhi, just stand in a restaurant and pass by some young man whose ice cream will be melting in his hand as you near him with your wind blown hair in your face.. and you get paid for getting famous."

Well that settles it, she wanted to get paid so she can sustain her hobby of collecting the weirdest stuff from CD's to onesies, video games and handcuffs. One catch though, she had to keep her girlfriend issue on the down low. But who cares anyway she was about to break up with her because she was starting to get clingy and kept borrowing her hairbrush. And she could easily keep a facade of liking boys, but it wont really be a facade, she actually don't hate the idea of boys or having a boyfriend. Hey, maybe she liked boys, maybe girls (but definitely more with girls), as her grandma said, she had her whole life ahead of her to figure things out.

Rhian was suddenly jolted from her reverie as she heard the loud, "Khaleesiiii!" voice of Jorah Mormont notification on her phone, yeah, so she likes Game of Thrones, sue her. She looked at the comments from her Insta-G followers:

"I have no doubt that this is a hidden message for Glaiza. OMG i kennat!"

"Who else is it for? I can't breath, #RaStroIsReal"

"Aw, she misses her, my Rastro heart!"

Dang this ridiculously smart Rastro Rebels, they guessed it alright.. Rhian thought. She had just got back from a necessary trip to Australia with her so called boyfriend (Yeah, the plot thickens, more on that later, more important issues to be discussed at hand.) and while she was there her brain was nagging her like a broken record "Glaiza! Glaiza! Glaiza!" Everything she saw there reminded her of Glaiza, including a big ass sign on a restaurant that said "Since I Left You." So she had to take a selfie with it in the background and post it on her Instagram. She had to. Sometimes the heart does things in a leap while the brain is still in slumber mode. What was that food establishment doing with that concrete and cryptic sign anyway, it was barely Valentine's Day. It's September, for goodness sake. What a stupid sign. And what a stupid heart... Glaiza was left busy doing gigs and God knows what (hope not doing boys) in the Philippines and their fan club who shipped Glaiza and Rhian to insane levels after TRMD, the RaStro Rebels, had to over-interpret (accurately actually) everything she posted as a sign that she missed Glaiza and she was having pangs of guilt for leaving her. Rastro comes from her brilliant idea of fusing hers and Glaiza's last names, Ramos and De Castro. Too bad she couldn't fuse their lips though.. oh wait, she already did that... achievement unlocked, yay Rhian.

Another buzz from her phone busted her thoughts but this time the silly smile on her face got even bigger. It was a Viber message from Glaiza. A reply to her string of nonsense questions just to keep the conversation going. Yeah, she wanted to just read or hear from G... something, anything... just to keep the connection... so her latest question was about G's favorite color. Stupid really, she doubted the mostly deep-thinker musician would even reply to that now... but she did, alright:

"RED.... is my warmest color. *big smile emoji*"

Funny how just five random words could start a day so brightly. Imagine those expressive and outrageously beautiful big Anime eyes of Glaiza lighting up every time she sees her favorite color... Rhian got lost in thought again as she fingered her soft brownish hair while staring at herself in the mirror.... "Hmmm, time for a change..."