1 Prologue

Walking under the big bright sun without any idea where on Earth am I going. My day's a mess. I am a mess. 

"I don't feel the same way, so will you please stop?"

"Love someone who can reciprocate your feelings." 

"Just stop this bullshit, Sam." 

And I just thought my day won't get any worse. Standing at the other side of the pedestrian lane, watching the pedestrian signal as it turned green. I then crossed the street trying to hold back the tears that want to escape my eyes. 

He was there. Laughing with another woman. I know he saw me. 

"Bullshit, Sam." I grabbed my hair out frustration. I saw how that woman, who just passed by me, looked at me. She must be thinking that I'm crazy. But I must be. I'm being crazy because of jealousy. Bullshit because I'm feeling this way even though I know that he's gay.