1 Prologue - Why am I even living?

I wake up from my sleep, go to school because why not, play to Fall a sleep , eat so I can sleep and go to bed to sleep. That's how I have been living my life for the past 16 years. That's basically all I do.

I went to Elementary school, middle school, and now even crawling my way to High school . They were actually supposed to teach me how to live my life but all they ever teach me is to analyze a Poem , Text but no no no that was not enough . Nowadays, they even expect me to analyze a Film . Like , Seriously? I can't even watch a Movie because now all I ever think is "Man, the headspace is too big, the MC must be feeling oppressed." And how can I forget about my favorite subject , Mathematics. Until the seventh grade , I felt like I was the king of my city, I could do everything from additions to solving the brackets. But what is "x"? You thought this was enough? They just had bring in all the alphabets in as well. But No , that's still not enough! what is x with the y in the top right corner ? What did I do to deserve this treatment ?

All I ever wanted to learn was "How to earn Money" and "How to do my taxes" but nah, that's what you gotta learn after school by yourself - that's what I got told by one of my teachers. "Then can you please tell me why am I even going to school?"

One day, I guess that's how all the Stories begin, I was walking my way back home and a question came to my mind "What now?" A simple question but this left me thinking all Night, I am surviving now on my parents Money but what am I gonna do when I move on? Then I was enlightened "I have to work." Again , a simple answer but this thought scared me . Working 5 day a week or more, 8 hours a day or longer, just to survive? Many are following this plan accurately but this seemed impossible to me. I even thought if I should end my life which might lead to be an easier life .

But then a question came to my mind "Why am I even living?" I didn't knew the answer . So I decided to find out and this became my Motivation to live on.