15 Aami: Day 4 with BTS

"Aami is it possible for you to come home early today? We've prepared special dinner. Please let me know"

When I saw Yoongi oppa's text requesting me to come early to have dinner with them, I nearly teared up.

"Yes Oppa. I'll be there for dinner."

Home...?

Home....

I've been avoiding the boys since I've arrived at the dorm. I didn't want to get close to them. I was afraid of getting too attached but I flailed. They had already taken over my heart. They've been too good to me. Taking care of me like a little sister. Calling to check up on me. I knew they were concerned about me.

Maybe it's finally time to open upto them.

I finish my work as early as possible in order to catch the bus. Walking down the pavement, numerous thoughts echo in my head.

Mom... Dad...

I've lost my home...

I have no one left...

I have to find my birth father....

I have to find the one who killed my parents...

They tell you to let go of the past and to live in the moment, but as for me, I'm haunted by my past.

My past keeps me alive.

Everyday I find myself sinking deeper into a black hole filled with guilt and revenge.

I watch the snowflakes flicker and flutter in the howling wind. Somehow the falling snow made me feel better. For me, happiness spelt snow. When I was at my breaking point I would think of a snow filled ground and my face would light up brighter than the stars at night. I don't know why it did.

As I walked further down the pathway, I felt like my legs were clocking out. My head started spinning. My visions getting blurry. My legs seems to have lost its energy, and I find myself falling to the ground.

When I open my eyes, I find myself back at the dorm, laying on the bed.

What happened? How did I get here?