13 Chapter thirteen:)

"What took you guys so long?" Louis asked as Liam, Niall, and Zayn came in. "Wrong question. Right question, what the hell are you two wearing?!" Niall laughed. Louis looked down at himself. "Uhm we, we found them and wanted to try them on." He totally forgot that they were still wearing the Christmas sweater.

Zayn held up one out of three huge bags. "We went grocery shopping. That you don't have to go tomorrow." Louis closed the door behind the three. "You guys didn't have to do this." He glanced over to Harry who was still sitting on the couch.

"So this is your new home." Niall smiled wide and passed Louis to looked around and discover every room. "I will bring the groceries to the kitchen," Zayn said leaving the room.

"Hey. could you guys come and help me bring the rest of Louis' stuff up here." Harry got up "Sure" The bed turned out not to be as heavy as Harry thought. Liam and he carried it upstairs easily while Louis and Niall took the last few boxes.

As they were finally done carrying everything up Zayn already put some fries and dinosaur nuggets into the oven. While the five waited for their food to be ready Liam and Louis set up his bed and Niall, Harry and Zayn transformed the living room into a cinema "I'm so happy we're finally done." Niall said letting himself fall onto the couch, he nearly disappeared between all those pillows.

"Are you sure we need that many pillows?" Harry laughed. "Yes Harry we want it cosy for Louis' first cinema night, so yes. We. need. them." Harry watched a smile grow on Niall's face. "Guys, lunch is ready!" Zayn yelled out of the kitchen and all of the other boys run into the kitchen as their life depends on it.

"Wow, you guys act like children."

"Everyone grab a plate and line up in a row," Zayn ordered taking the nuggets and fries out of the oven. "And we act like children huh?" Louis sassed.

"What movie should we watch?" Louis sat down on the ground leaning against the couch, legs crossed. Harry decided to sit down next to him, the couch was already taken by Liam, Niall, and Zayn. "It's your choice." Louis just searched for romantic comedies on Netflix and started one that looked interesting.

Was that their life? Going to school and after that just doing whatever they want to, watching as many movies as possible, going where ever they want to, singing along songs on full volume in the car, and just having fun? Harry looked at the boys and smiled, he liked the way he felt around them, he felt less numb.

"Fuck!"

Harry jumped frightened.

"Whoa, you scared the hell out of me Payno." Niall almost yelled. "What's wrong?" Zayn asked throwing a handful of popcorn in his mouth. Liam jumped up and looked out of the window "I totally forgot about the blizzard and it's already 10.38 pm and the streets are covered in snow. There is no way we can drive home today."

"Well, I wanted to ask you if you could stay the night anyway," Louis said looking over to Liam. "But where are we supposed to sleep?"

"It's a sleeper couch. Liam, Zayn and Harry could sleep here and you and I can share my bed like we used to do when we were younger." Niall nodded "Sounds good."

"If you're all ok with it" Louis looked over to Harry "Yes sure" Harry smiled.

When they were little Niall and Louis used to have sleepovers a lot, they watched movies, ate a lot of trash food, and stood up all night even when they had school the next day. Louis loved it, but since his mom got sick and they spent their evenings in different Hospitals every week they haven't done those anymore.

"I think we need more movie ideas then. And let's pull the couch out." Liam looked already tired so Harry got up to help to set it up. "I will get some blankets and some pyjamas for you guys." Louis disappeared into his bedroom. Harry searched for the next movie while Liam and Zayn continued setting up the couch.

"Oh, pirates of the Caribbean is a good one," Niall recommended. Harry stopped scrolling, the title sounded familiar to him but he couldn't remember watching it. "Doesn't it have like four parts?" Harry pushed the start button "Yes but we have time."

"Let's give it a go." Harry turned around as he saw Louis entering the room again.

"I only have four blankets," Louis said holding them up. "No problem we can share one. Harry and I thought about watching pirates of the Caribbean next."

"I have never seen it before so I'd vote yes," Louis said throwing the three blankets at Liam and Zayn. "What about you guys?"

"Sure" Zayn nodded wrapping the blanket around his shoulders. "I will go and change." Niall left the living room.

After the third part of pirates of the Caribbean Harry felt his eyelids get heavier, he turned around to ask Niall to change places so Harry could sleep but he was already asleep. "Louis" Harry whispered "What?" Louis whispered back, turning to face Harry. He just pointed at the three sleeping boys on the couch. "Aww, they're cuddling isn't it cute. Is Niall drooling?" Louis tried to hold back his laugh. "Shh." Harry tried so hard not to laugh that he had to cover his mouth and nose.

"What am I supposed to do? I can't just wake him up." Harry yawned. "Well," Louis got up "you can sleep in my bed." He offered. Harry just nodded and followed Louis into his room, he didn't know what to think, wasn't it weird to sleep in one bed with another boy. No, It wasn't, all friends do that. But Harry had that weird feeling that wouldn't go away. It meant nothing, doesn't it? "Here take those."

Louis threw some grey sweatpants and the pink Spongebob hoodie they bought at the mall. Harry smiled and shook his head."Thanks" Louis smiled back at him "In the first drawer of the shelf next to the sink are new toothbrushes." Harry heard Louis say behind him, already on the way to the bathroom.

The bathroom was quite small and still empty, just one shelf next to the sink and a mirror above it, and of course a shower and toilet. Harry changed quickly and brushed his teeth with a pink toothbrush he had chosen out of the package, he had always liked the colour pink. The pants turned out to fit better than Harry thought they were not as tight as he expected and the hoodie fitted perfectly too.

He was wearing Louis clothes and was about to sleep in the same bed as him and- they had just one blanked it shoot to Harry's mind. Usually, it would drive him crazy for some reason, but he was definitely too tired to think about that right now. He just walked back to Louis' room and closed the door behind him.

Louis sat on hid side of his bed "I got you a pillow, it was the only one I got without waking someone." He smiled "Thank you" Harry whispered his eyes could barely stay open. He lay down, his head at the opposite as Louis'. He was totally exhausted from the whole day that his muscles burned as he finally relaxed.

"Do you need something else?" Louis asked as he walked over to the light switch. "No, I'm fine," Harry murmured into the pillow. He felt a little uncomfortable without the small pillow he used to hold in his sleep, but he fell asleep even before Louis got back to the bed.

Harry opened his eyes slowly, he was in his old room back in London. It was quiet and the sun already fell through his window, he stood up and walked over to his door. Why was he here? He pushed down the door handle and walked through, suddenly he was surrounded by lockers and stood in the middle of the hallway, looking around. He wasn't alone there was somebody else leaning against the lockers.

Harry couldn't see who it was the person wore a hoodie, hood up, standing in the shadow of the huge walls. "Hello?" Harry walked over to the person "Where are we?" The person stepped out of the shadow and took his hood off. It was a guy with long blond hair and brown eyes he had that smirk on his face that Harry remembered just too good. "Missed me?" Harry stumbled backwards, legs shaking badly as he ran down the hall as fast as he could.

He heard Charly's voice in his head "You can't escape me, I will always find you." Harry ran into the next room and slammed the door shut behind him. He leaned against a wall, sinking to the floor, pressing his hands against his ears. "Get out of my head!" He yelled squeezing his eyes shut. Flashbacks played through his mind.

Charly locking the door behind them, that disgusting smirk on his face. The way he tugged Harry against the wall and kissed him, that awful taste of cigarettes and his hurting wrists, he could feel it again. Harry tried to free himself but Charly just tightened his grip "Let go of me!" Harry yelled. "Yelling won't help you no one is here, just you and me." Harry's heartbeat got faster and faster.

Charly was his best friend why should he do that to him? Warm tears streamed over his face they tasted salty. Harry's hands shook as he thought back at how Charly took off his shirt and forced Harry to do the same. He felt Carly all over his body. Suddenly the door swung open and Charly stepped in.

Harry lifted his head and looked straight into those brown eyes he hated with his entire heart "I missed you, Harry." Charly came closer. "No! Go away!" Harry's voice broke. "Harry?" Charly looked down at him "Did you miss me?" Harry pressed his hands tighter against his ears. "Harry!" The voice sounded familiar. "Harry wake up!"

Harry's eyes snapped open, he couldn't catch his breath. His hands grabbed the blanket tightly. The room was lighted up and Louis kneeled next to him he looked shocked "Harry?" Louis asked quietly, he touched Harry's shoulder carefully. Harry flinched and looked deep into those heavenly blue eyes. He tried to even his breath. "What's wrong?"

Harry hated those stupid nightmares. He had them once in a while, usually when something reminded him of Charly like the boy in the hallway back in school earlier that day. It was always the same he got flashbacks woke up shaking breathing way too rapidly and crying. The only thing that helped him was his pillow and crying himself to sleep again.

But his pillow wasn't here and it drove him crazy. Harry knew it was stupid it was just a pillow but it was the only thing that helped him sleep again otherwise he stayed up the whole night sitting in a corner with his arms wrapped around his knees crying.

"I'm fine." Harry tried to act as normal as possible, he couldn't tell Louis, no matter how much he trusted this boy he couldn't, he was afraid that he would only destroy everything. "It doesn't look like you're fine." Louis looked seriously worried, that made Harry feel something but what was it?

The worst is the night and sometimes the day after it, but it was bearable. His first ones felt like going through hell, he just locked himself in his room for multiple days crying and sometimes even panicking. After his eleventh one, he got used to it. "Seriously, it was just a nightmare." Harry didn't want Louis to worry he was so happy. Harry would do everything to keep Louis' sunshine smile shining.

"I will go and get you a glass of water." Harry's mask broke as soon as he watched the older boy leave the room. His lips started to tremble and tears streamed over his face. When would those nightmares finally stop? When would that arching pain in his chest go away? How long would it take to just get over it? That was all that Harry wished for.

He bit his lips as hard as he could to stop it from trambling and wiped his tears away as soon as he heard Louis' food steps coming closer, holding a glass of water in his hand. "Here you go." Louis gave it to Harry then walked over to the closet. "What are you doing?" Harry asked after he swallowed a huge sip of water. Talking felt a lot easier now.

"Remember the day you told me you couldn't sleep without your pink pillow," Louis started, Harry was surprised Louis had memorized that. "You remember that?!" Louis looked past the closet door over to Harry. "Yes, I do why shouldn't I?" Harry just shrugged his shoulders and took another sip of the water. Harry wasn't used to people knowing stuff about him he had told them a long time ago. Usually, no one cared.

"Anyways, I remembered I had one too when I was a child, no matter where I was, I always brought my pillow and I couldn't close an eye at night without it." Harry watched Louis close the closet, a small navy blue pillow in his left hand. "And because your's is at Liam's house I thought maybe mine would help."

Harry gave him a grateful look, he was sure it wouldn't help but he liked that Louis cared about him and tried to help. Louis pulled the blanket up to his shoulders. "Should we leave the light on?" Harry shook his head "No it's alright." Louis gave Harry a soft smile and turned off the lamp on the bedside table. "And remember it was just a dream."

Was it? Harry starred into the darkness, he knew he would stay up all night, he squeezed the little pillow Louis had given him. It smelled like Louis, the sweet mixture of Coconut and vanilla. Harry closed his eyes as he squeezed the pillow even tighter to avoid his thoughts. The smell of the pillow made Harry think about Louis and how safe he felt around him.

Harry noticed how his whole body started to relax, more and more until he fell asleep.